Reality once again slapped me. The fear of every second that pass by hits me like a needle gives me another traumatic attacked. My knees are trembling, lips are quivering couldn't control the emotion bursting out from my chest. They are too heavy to keep, too painful to ignore, so big to bottle up. My past is too much, too much to take and it's overflowing in my present situation.
The redundant fighting to rise and face shielding myself from everything that are coming, protecting myself from the things that are trying to knock me down- it's tiring and I just suddenly wanted to surrender but I know that it is not the smartest thing to do and that add more frustration to me.
When will this stop? Why does pain won't stop tormenting me? Why does they won't stop inflicting pain to me? Aren't they tired of it? How could they find peace at night knowing that they are someone's nightmare and fear? Why are they doing this to me?
