It takes a long time for me to sort out my feelings. It takes me an endless trial and error to figure out what I really felt. It takes a lot of courage, a lot of motivation for me to voice it out. I was confuse before, so confuse and puzzled with what I feel for him. I do not want to say something just because I was overwhelmed. I do not want to made a mistake again, but I realize that there's nothing wrong when loving someone. It will never be a mistake to love someone.
I do not need to define everything, all I need is to let myself. To avoid stopping myself. I was the hindrance of my own growth, the hindrance to my own happiness and it takes a lot of effort for me to stop doing that. I am not blaming myself why I end up like that, what I have been through was too traumatic. I thought I wouldn't survive. I thought I wouldn't be able to know how does it feels like to be alive but then Seviro came.
