'How are you?' The very first question I want him to hear when we meet again. I am sincerely wondering what does running inside his head when he came to see me but I am no longer in the place he used to visit me. I wanted to know what does he felt when he realize that the last night we spent together was the last conversation he had with me. I want to know what are his thoughts for the past weeks I was out of his sight and couldn't be reach.
I intentionally cut off my connection I had with him in case he tried to find me. I literally have no intention to inform him but I know that I couldn't turn my back not unless I consider checking on him for the last time before I left. That's why I ask Viscos that I want to see him. I deprived myself with the thoughts of him, I intentionally abandoned the idea of him. Because I know that my curiosity of how he is doing will lead me to the path of missing him- missing him like crazy that I might end up losing my composure.
