I've never shown any interest to something nor someone not until she came. She's like an abstract painting that I wanted to decipher and understand. An abstract painting that gives me so much frustration. She's the reason for my sleepless nights, the reason why I'm afraid of things that I'm not supposed to be afraid of. I wanted to prove that the beauty of abstract has no wrong answer, but she's too intimidating that even I'm a Castaldi she can easily shut me up. She's making me realize that everything that I know is still nothing, she makes me question my own belief and wakes my curiosity up. She picked my interest and it's drowning me. She's drowning me. And maybe it sounds funny, but I'm liking the feeling of being drowned by her.
I wanted to define her, I wanted to know her, I wanted her to be mine. But how can I do that if she's not willing to accept me? How can I do that if she's pushing me away?
But I know, I'll figure it out soon. I'll just take my time as long as I know that I'm guarding what's mine.
"Dude!"
My forehead creased when I felt someone hit my shoulder. I look at my fucking cousin and he's grinning at me playfully. What is he doing here?
"What?" I ask with annoyance and I look at the woman I've been staring at since this morning
It's been a while since she stays on that spot. I wonder what she's doing. I suddenly wanted to know what she's thinking.
"Why so grouchy dude? Red days?"
I look at him with my forehead creased. My fist suddenly aches to punch him when I saw his grinning face again. tsk
"I'm thinking"
"Oh? I never thought you have a brain"
"Damn you! Of course, I have, I'm thinking how to kill you" I said in a monotonous voice and I lean on my seat enjoying the view of my Cami
I heard his annoying laughed and he seated beside me as if I wanted a dimwit like him here.
"Why so serious? And who are you staring at? " he curiously asked and I wasn't able to restrain myself to punched him on his arm
He's so fucking gay damn! Can't he shut his mouth even just this day? He talks a lot and it's damn annoying.
"Whoa! Is that Cami Xena?" He exclaimed
I frown and look at him sharply. This asshole is too loud! If my Cami hears him, I will surely strangle his neck. I don't mind if Sideros get mad once it happens.
"My Cami Xena. And shut up will you?" I corrected him and he just smirked
"Apologies dude, I just got excited knowing that you and Trez are fucking in love," he said while chuckling
"You two are giving me goosebumps, damn! You and Trez are both acting like a fucking stalkers. I don't wish to be like you guys" he added and I just clenched my jaw not minding what he said when I saw a guy talking to Cami
Why is it so unfair that everyone is allowed to talk to her except me? Fuck this damn life! I can't complain because I don't have a fucking rights.
The reason why I can't step in and act like a freaking jealous boyfriend is that she's not mine yet! She's not allowing me to claim her as mine. Damn! I remember it again, she rejected me for how many times. I shake my head and brush my fingers on my hair. This is frustrating.
"Your so slow bro, look at that idiot he's ahead of you now" this idiot beside me hissed
My fist wanted to punch him earlier but now I suddenly wanted to kick him too. My feet are itching to hit his freaking face. Why is he here by the way? He's just adding the annoyance that I'm feeling right now. I'm just enjoying myself here a while ago staring at my beautiful Cami Xena my other form of abstract art when he suddenly came and ruined my day. Ruined my day.
"Don't you know how to shut up Prinzon?" I ask him with irritation and I shifted my gaze away from my Cami
I can't stand looking at my Cami talking to another guy, it's not complementing in my eyes. I look at Cami again and my gazed darkens though it's still early morning. Damn it! Don't she dare smile because I will surely punch that bastard beside her or worst I might turn my anger towards Prinzon? Damn! what the hell is he doing here really?
"Why are you here?" I asked trying my best not to look at my Cami and stay calm
I don't want to get angry because I'm not pleased when I'm angry. I don't want my Mom get mad at me too because I do stupid things when I'm mad. And I don't want to argue with my twins tsk, they were not my Cami so yeah! I don't want any arguments.
"Because you're here! Sideros keep on asking me to find you dude and I'm the only one who's good at finding someone" I heard Prinzon said but I didn't say anything instead
I look at my Cami Xena again and she's still talking to that damn guy. What the hell are they talking about? I thought she's always busy? Why wasting time talking to someone? Can't she notice me? I've been staring at her since this morning.
"Why don't you approach her instead of sitting here and not doing anything" Prinzon suggested that made me more furious
I'm not a short-tempered kind of person and I always rule my emotions but when it comes to my Cami, I become another version of myself. I become aggressive that's why I wanted to throw my anger over Prinzon who's comfortably sitting beside me. He talks too much and it so irritating.
"She'll be mine in the end, so why bother? " I said confidently to hide my irritation
"Damn! That so Damn! Hahahahaha you're so full of yourself dude! Stop dreaming men, you might not wake up hahaha " he said while laughing but I also didn't give a damn!
I couldn't stand it anymore that's why I immediately stand up and get my bag. I look at Prinzon who's looking at me too aware of what will I do next.
"Tell Sid that I'm busy and I can't attend the practice. I need to guard my Cami" I said seriously emphasizing each word that I said
I won't let any other guy talk to her not unless we're together already. I'll let her talk to another guy besides me when I'm around, not that she's alone.
"Fuck dude! I thought she'll be yours in the end?" Prinzon exclaimed while laughing at me mockingly
Fuck! Does he need to shout? What if Cami hears him? I don't want Cami to hear him because she might think that I'm dead over heels towards her.
"Fuck you asshole!" I shout back and show him my middle finger
He just laughed, obviously his mocking me. Fuck! We need to plan how can we sent Prinzon back to Tiera Veloz. I need to talk to Trezzirious and Mackenzie after this, it's just so unfair that Alas is living his life peacefully in Tiera Veloz, free from Prinzon's annoying gut. But before that, let me get my Cami first.
That fucking dickhead is enjoying his self talking to my Cami and I won't let him enjoy it any longer. It's time for me to step in and show that Cami Xena is mine and mine alone. I don't care who she is, I don't care if she keeps on shoving me away because no matter how she tried to push me, I still find my way back to her. I'll still choose her over and over again.
She's not my type, she's far from those women I dated before but her uniqueness makes me want her more. Lucky her because she gets my attention. Me the great Seviro Alcinous Castaldi.