"I used to keep a diary so that I wouldn't forget. I'm grown up now, mom. I tear off the pages of all the diaries I kept and bury them in different places. At first I thought I valued my past too much to destroy my memories, but what I did was just torture."
*
I was scared for no reason. I was afraid of ruining everything and leaving them here to die. Actually, I was afraid of everything these days. I couldn't stop it. This fear spread to my body like a cancer cell.
The moment I left the ward, I ran to my room and immediately jumped into the bed. After the break I gave to my nightmares, I was continuing again.
*
When I opened my eyes to a new day, I realized that I was drenched with sweat. I walked into the bathroom in my room and took a 10-minute shower. After drying, I put on black tight pants and a black suspenders and left the room. When they saw me as all the sorcerers wandered around and laughed, they all went silent. I was not looking at anyone and focused only on the corridor where I was walking. Dylan and Tom were sitting on a bench talking when I walked out into the college garden. As I was looking at them, I suddenly heard a voice coming from inside my head. While the scary voice was talking to me in my head, I was standing in my place and looking in front of me.
"You are weak. You are naive. You will lose. You will die. I will find you very soon. You will beg. There is no phoenix to save you. Forever darkness everywhere! Death calls you!"
When I looked across, what I saw made me breathless. A severed fairy with crimson eyes was looking at me with a smile. Looking at her with my eyes widened, I heard a very familiar voice from somewhere behind. Dylan walked in front of me and was calling out to me.
"Hey! Rosé! Do you hear?"
"Y-yes. What happened?"
"I was saying if you want, let's start training, what do you think?"
"Of course..."
Dylan took me to the training ground next to the college where he worked all day. We met here every day for a week and we were ready to challenge. Finally, that day came.
*
I wore suitable and comfortable clothes for fighting and took my place in the field. I felt uncomfortable when almost the whole school was watching us. I bestowed my forced smile on Bruce as he came over with a grin. After shaking my hand and wishing me good luck, he came across me and started to make movements to warm up. While I was looking in front of me, with the start command that was suddenly announced, Bruce came running towards me and tried to trip. I jumped off his feet and quickly pressed my foot to his leg. Bruce fell to the ground moaning, staring at me furiously.
When he stood up, he was both trying to punch me and trying to distract me. After dodging his fists, I thought maybe it wouldn't hurt to use my charm, and to distract him, I leaned closer to him. Bruce stared at me in great astonishment, and I jumped on him and knocked him down. Right now Bruce was on the floor and I was in his lap. Bruce's face contorted and he groaned. When I looked where I was sitting, I quickly got up and reached out to him. Bruce stood still staring at my cleavage. I dismissed and smiled and started to walk.
When the challenge was over, I left the field, went to my room and took a shower. When I got out of the bathroom with a towel on me, I saw Dylan sitting on my bed and screamed as much as my palm came out, which it probably did.
Dylan closed his eyes, flushed red and repeatedly apologized. Seeing a man like that was also funny. Dylan wasn't cheating on me. It's a little complicated, but whatever!
Blindfolded, I dragged him into the bathroom and closed the door on him. He was still apologizing behind the door while I was getting dressed. After getting dressed, I opened the door and sat down on the bed.
"You're coming to my room a lot these days, Mr Smartass? What's happened again?"
"We had a deal. I came to remind it."
"Ha, well, okay. You can ask questions. Come sit next to me."
Dylan sat next to me and closed his eyes and asked his first question.
"Wrists... I just noticed. You're afraid, why?"
Damn it! He noticed! What should I do now?
"Well... I don't like being restricted, that's why! So no other reason-"
He took my face in his hands and grinned slyly.
"If you are aware, wrists... you are afraid... I just used these words. It is surprising that you immediately understood. Why didn't you ask what I was talking about first?"
I think I was dying. I destroyed myself. I groaned nervously and looked at his face. He was staring at my lips. No! Dylan couldn't have cheated on me! I couldn't allow that! When Dylan suddenly clung to my lips, I couldn't push him and began to longingly respond to him. He put me on the bed and climbed on me. When I realized what I was doing, I pushed him and spoke out of breath. At the same time, damnable drops were dripping from my eyes.
"You have a girlfriend! What are you doing Dylan? Get out of my room!"
He smiled again, and this time he caressed my face tenderly and spoke.
"My fake blonde girlfriend is right in front of me!"
I swiftly moved across the mirror and looked at my hair. It was red again. So Dylan knew this spell.
"Dylan! Quickly restore my hair!"
"Questions first, fake chick! Why are you here?"
"I can't tell! It's secret!"
"If you don't tell, I will torture you! And you know I will enjoy this torture!"
As he slowly came over me, I suddenly shouted and made him stop. If he came upon me more, he would most likely inflict a torture that I would enjoy, not just himself! And I didn't want that.
"Okay. I'll tell you!"
He came to me and dragged me to bed. When we both sat down, I took a deep breath and started talking. When I explained everything, Dylan stood up in anger and started yelling.
"How could you put yourself in such a risk, Elizabeth? I can't believe you. At least if you had told me!"
I was looking at my hands as Dylan yelled at me. When the voice I heard in the morning echoed in my head, I shouted and looked across. The fairy was right in front of me, but this time she was looking with disgust! As if to kill...
In fear, I backed up and collapsed into the corner of the bed. When Dylan looked where I was looking, his eyes were wide open and he came slowly to my side. I was listening to the voices in my head while Dylan said things to me.
"Elizabeth! Listen to me carefully! If you don't want your lover to die right here, listen carefully! Let's make a deal with you, either your lover dies or you forget everything about him, which one do you choose?"
"What do you want from me?"
"I just want you to hurt! I want you to forget your love and disappear in the void! I want your lover to go crazy trying to remind you of him and kill himself."
"You can't kill him! You're lying!"
"Am I lying? Let's see!"
I started crying as Dylan suffered in front of my eyes.
"Sky! Help me! I beg you, Sky! Don't leave me alone! Please!"
"He's not coming! Make up your mind, or you'll have to say goodbye to him..."
When Dylan writhed in front of my eyes, all I could do was cry. Even though I was going to forget him, he wouldn't forget me. Maybe he could remind me of us. I looked at the fairy. She was looking at me laughing. I nodded and stood up. I came in front of her and wiped my face.
"Do it!"
"Pity... That's why you're weak, Elizabeth! You're always sacrificing yourself so that your loved ones don't die! As long as you do these things, you will not be able to destroy neither the sorcerers nor my soul that came back for revenge! You will only forget your memories of Dylan and that you loved him! I erase your memory and these last minutes, of course... Goodbye! When you wake up, the emptiness you will live will cause you pain without you knowing! You will disappear in time!"
When she touched my forehead with a finger, I saw my memories going away from my mind one by one. Looking at them for the last time, feeling the emotions I felt in those moments for the last time, my legs could not carry me anymore and I fell to the ground. As the fairy disappeared, I heard the voice in my ear that left me alone, no matter how much I loved him...
"I am sorry Elizabeth! I couldn't come! I am so sorry! I will heal you, even if your soul is broken into pieces too much, I promise! Even if your mind forgets what you love, your heart will not forget it, I am sure your heart will remember it! Be strong! Even though you thought I was not there today, I was always with you! One day you will understand why I couldn't come..."
While Sky was talking to me, I was trying to understand what he was saying. Where could he not come? Who was I loved? What would I understand one day?