LEIVA'S POV
After, we had a delicious breakfast at the hotel's restaurant. I was already walking here, outside together with my parents.
I was busy giving a last glance around, especially to the part where we had memories with my classmates.
Uhh, that is a treasure.
Dad called me, maybe he noticed that I'm so slow in walking and they were leaving me alreadys.
"Lei, come on now sweetie," he said.
"Yeah Dad," I answered him too as I ran wearing this floral dress.
I'm really not into dresses since I was young but Mommy together with some of my Godmothers was sending me clothes like dresses every year. And knowing my Mom, she'll be upset if I won't wear them.
So yeah, from being boyish because of the influence of my brothers, I'm now in the process of learning to be elegant with a class.
I was busy walking, to go in the parking space when I felt that my cell phone vibrated again. And when I check it, it's a message from Celyn.
From: Celyn
Frenie!!!! We are here on the other side of the parking lot and guess what? we saw some interesting things. ^_<
That was the message she sent with a winking emoji too. Uh, they are in a gossip mood again. What a habit, 10-Google.
And since I have a habit like them, I became curious and I ran fast to inform my Mom and Dad that I need to see my classmates first.
"Mommy, I'll go now!" I shouted as I passed them over without hearing their response.
When I reached the parking area, I searched the part where Celyn said where they were . And I saw them in the side of a certain one van and they were secretly peeping into something.
Wow? they didn't even notice my presence? What the hell?
I was on their back already watching them, as I walked here without the sound of my footprints intentionally.
I moved my body to see what they were seeing, but when I laid my eyes on it. It surprised me too and my curiosity increased.
The one that they are watching secretly is MJosh, and wait? MJosh? Yes it's MJosh and I'm not kidding.
His expression was so serious and dangerous that it can scare someone, far from his usual approachable facial expression.
I looked at him again and I was more surprised when I saw Ynabell with her, yes the Ynabell yesterday again.
He is with the pretty Ynabell and based on their expression, looks like they are arguing into something.
And since my classmates look like they were trained to do things like this, they were professionally watching and they were not moving, they were just breathing.
They continued to speak as we are watching even though I haven't heard what they talked about before, I'm not here.
"MJosh!" Ynabell shouted using her bitchy voice, "Do I don't really have a chance? Just give it a try, at least one try and if that doesn't succeed then I'll leave you alone and never intrude into your life anymore!" She shouted but MJosh just grinned devilishly.
And I saw that grin for the first time. Maybe someone will find that scary but why do I find it sexy?
Oh my gosh!
"How many times did I tell you that I'll never give you a chance? Do I need to repeat it again for you to understand?" MJosh queried using his manly voice covered with hard and cold expressions.
Paul noticed me since I was on his back trying to see the whole view since uh… I'm kinda short and not tall like him. And he let me go on his spot without saying a word.
Maybe he's busy watching the dramatic scene to greet me? And maybe he is busy gathering information too for him to have a theory again?
But, MJosh does really have a side like this, he is really dangerous and he is like trying to control himself to hurt Leiva, nonverbally.
"Is that really MJosh?" I whispered out of nowhere and Airhi noticed me.
"Yes Pres, we saw that, since a while ago,"
she answered and she looked back at the two persons arguing again.
"Why? Why MJosh? Is it because she knows and likes someone already? Is she better or is 'he' better?" Ynabell asked with a teasing tone as she emphasized the word 'he.'
Wow this thicked face homophobic person.
"Oh yeah Ynabell, news flash! Because you lost your deceny, you're 'disgusting,'' MJosh answered to as he emphasized the word 'disgusting
We are like watching a telenovela huh?
"And who is that huh? Please MJosh, please just want me and give me a chance. I'll do everything you want just for me to love or like me!" Ynabell said with a desperate voice?
What? Is she that desperate?
I don't really get that perspective of people being desperate just to get the love or attention from a person they wanted.
If you really cared for that person, just let them go and be happy. Let's not demand attention or what from them.
Let's not force ourselves on them, let's not force them to fit in their lives if their time to ours or our time in their life is already done.
Let them go if your character time to their life is done and just let them go, because people around us have two purposes, It's either they came to stay by your side till the end or, they'll just give us a lifelong lesson.
But in the case of Ynabell and MJosh? I don't know what's the matter between them. Maybe after we go home, Paul already has news and data about this.
"Ynabell, listen carefully," mJosh said as he breathed deeply like he was controlling himself.
"You don't need to do anything that I want for me to like you because never in my life that I imagined loving you, remember that."
MJosh said those painful words and even me, felt those pain even though those words are not for me. Well, who will never be hurt if those words were told by the person you like.
Just imagining me in that position, well I'll be wasted too. I looked at Ynabell's expression but I didn't see any hurt or pain in her expression.
Instead, I saw even more desperation on her face as she mocked and she teasingly smiled at MJosh who already had the blank and stoic face.
"Wow, who the fck is thay flirtatious woman who poisoned your heart then?" She asked sarcastically and MJosh just smirked changing the stoic expression he had earlier.
"It's not your business anymore and you are out of it," MJosh answered coldly and he moved his feet and was about to turn his back on Ynabell.
But that made him stop because of the words Ynabell uttered like he is teasing him.
"Uhhh…. Is it Leiva? Is it Leiva, MJosh? Is she the one you like and want then?" Ynabell asked.
And why the hell that I was included in their feud? Like hello? Me? On their topic? I was out about their topic then suddenly I heard my precious name? What the?
"Don't make me start, woman!" MJosh warned wearing his deep and cold voice again.
But Ynabell just laughed and I saw Celyn who slowly turned her glanced towards me with a questioning look but I just shrugged my shoulders informing her that I don't know what they were talking about too.
"It's obvious that I'm better than her, look! Start from my body," she said as he emphasized her posture, "I'm sexier that that pig!" She exclaimed.
And because she stated the thing that I'm most securing about my body, I slightly bowed my head to give a sight to my plus size body?
I feel down because even though I try to look sexy, I can't be. Because it's so hard to do the diet thing, and I accepted my faith that maybe no one will fall for my figure in terms of my body size if we are talking about a guy who'll fall in love with me.
Well, I have high confidence because I'm carrying the class that my family teached me and I do have the intelligence, but it's not just in everything. I have my weakness too.
Hmm…I admit that sometimes, I imagine myself with a guy who is really in love with me, with the whole me, who'll stay with me in my lifetime but I know that will happen if I'm at the right age and when my body is not the "pig size already.
So, I guess imagination is far from reality and my sense came back when I heard MJosh' spoked.
"Don't ever compare yourself from her because it's more obvious that she is better than you!" MJosh yells at Ynabell too, like he is defending my side as a woman.
"And you are saying those words to a woman just for you to feel more superiosbor more fine? You're unbelievable, you know what? I'll never like somelike like a 'slut' like you" MJosh said as he finally turned his back on Ynabell.
While MJosh is leaving already I noticed the pain on Ynabell expression which I was finding earlier.
I think the word 'slut' makes her hurted? Or, because MJosh doesnt give her the 'chance' that she was asking for?
I don't know, the thing that I only hear right now is that watching her from here, you can notice that she was hurted as well as her pride.
Well, I am too, since my biggest insecurity was mentioned but, I am more concerned about what is going on between them. But I don't have a right to interfere with them.
And, why Ynabell mentioned my name? Why me? And according to her, she is obviously better than me, so why me?