The event ended well and we really did enjoy the event and currently, we are in our rooms but suddenly crave fresh air from the cold sea breeze.
I don't know why, but the image of Xian still singing clouded my mind and I don't know why, he looks familiar while singing, maybe he sang a song in front of me before? When we are kids? I don't know or remember some of the memories we had at those times.
Earlier, while I'm taking a shower and my eyes were closed like I was sleeping, suddenly, I saw a little guy singing in my mind and he looked cute in that view and a little cute girl who was kind of chubby and fluffy? Was watching him as she let her giggles out making the little boy smile. But the one thing that stuck in my head is, the eyes of the little guy were not matched.
The one is uh---- never mind.
I decided to go towards my parent's room to ask them if I could have a walk outside. But when I was already in front of their room and I knocked on it, Mommy was the one who opened it.
"Mommy!" I uttered as I shouted unintentionally because I was surprised when she opened the door.
"Oh… sweetie what are you doing here? It's getting late?" She asked and worriedness was visible on her face.
"Uh where's Daddy?" I asked.
"He's taking a bath sweetie, why?" she asked and she was about to pull me to enter their roll but I spoke.
"Uh, I just want to ask you permission if I can have air outside, I'll not stay long." I said directly and she frowned before nodding.
"Take care sweetie okay? If you need something just call us huh?"
"Okay Mommy," I said then I kissed her cheeks
"Be sure, Don't stay outside longer and if you do we'll call the security" she said blackmailing me and I just laughed at it.
"I will just stay for twenty minutes? Then I'll be back in my room" I said, giving her an assurance.
"Careful huh, what if you'll go with your friends so my worriedness will decrease," she asked again.
"Mom you're being OA again, and they are all busy right now so I got to go bye," I said before leaving.
While I was walking towards the shore, I felt the true meaning of inner peace. I felt the wind embracing my plus size body and the sounds of waves are so good and relaxing.
It's so peaceful huh, I'm an extrovert, but I love the vibes of being alone sometimes that it gives me a wonderful peace, I love the tranquility like my own self was vibing with me.
Seems funny right?
I sat on the sand specifically on the sea shore before I breathed deep. I looked up to have sight of the beautiful and peaceful night. And from here, I saw the shining stars, which were so bright, giving me positive vibes, courage and hopes, because like the infinite stars above, hopes were infinite too.
I saw the moon too, which is in a full one tonight which was creating its own shine like those stars, which means that in life, sometimes or not, coincidentally or not, you can still create your own light on your life, that in the midst of dark times, you only have yourself that can give light to those gloomy phase or, you can be, a light too to someone, which can give hopes like how the stars and moon work with or collaborate to give gleam and shine to the dark sky.
But I wish our feelings are like the moon right now, so big and full, whole and like the stars who always stayed there even when angry and heavy rains and typhoons will come, it still have the consistency to stay however, like how the hours, night changes, how a bright color fades which means that there is no permanent.
Hayst… that feeling important jerk guy!!!
Why does he need to occupy my mind! For fck sake! He just sang with the Reyes' and his cousin! That's all and it's not a big deal.
My gosh… uh! duh..
I sighed but I felt like something was up at my back, like someone was watching me or what, and when I glanced at it.
The person who is occupying my mind started to come near me and I heard his footsteps. What the hell is he doing here?
"Why are you here?" I asked him with an irritation visible in my tone.
"Why? Am I forbidden here? Is this seashore yours?" He questioned back with a teasing voice too but… he still looks attractive even though he is annoying.
"You are not allowed here because you'll just mess me up and make fun of me again!" I retorted while he was looking at me..
"Why? Do you already know my agenda? Why am I here?" He queried, as he was explaining why he was still standing.
"No!" I responded while rolling my eyes before I eyed the calming sea with it's noisy and playful waves.
"Then, why so harsh?" He asked again as he sat beside me and the distance between me and I was already gone.
He was so close to me and that made me nervous.
"Tsk… could you distance yourself? Yours is so spacious!" I complained and he just raised his lips in one corner.
"No! It's so cold so it is better that I'm near you." He answered which made me frown.
"And why is that?" I asked, raising my right eyebrow.
"So that I can feel that I will not lose you," he said directly, which made my eyes grow bigger and the nervousness that I felt earlier was worsening.
"Huh? What are you talking about? You'll lose me? Right now? Are you a fool I'm just right next you, Unless a sea monster will get m from you"
I said with a teasing tone and when I glanced at him, he was staring intently at me.
"Then? You'll just let them and you won't ask help from me?" He said and now, he is the one who is raising an eyebrow.
"Absolutely yes! So I will never see you again!" I uttered teasingly but he just smirked which I found hot.
"Lei Piggy…. Tsk… You'll let yourself get by those ugly creatures? What a wrong move and decision"
"Try to get by those handsome people like me next time huh!" he said airily.
"Ladies and gentleman, a feeler guy just spotted here on this beach!" I shouted like I was announcing and he just laughed.
"Feeler huh? Am not feeler Lei, I am just stating a fact!" he defended and he started to near his face to mine like a predator preparing to eat his target.
And I don't know why that act sent shivers to my spine so while he was trying to move his face close to me and I was trying to distance mine too, from him.
"U-uh, o-one thing, why do you look so scared that I'll disappear from your sight huh?"
I asked him not to stutter because the way he acts was so intimidating and it pressures me. When the distance between our faces is just a few inches away.
He looked straight to me and his puffy yet sexy brown eyes were just pasted on me like he was starting into a very interesting gem.
"Want to know why?" he asked and his breath was so good in the nose that suddenly I became insecure if I had bad breath right now.
"Ah o-of-course!" I shouted trying to not look awkward because his chiseled jawline tightened more as he continued staring at me.
"It's because..."