This starts with a feeling , feeling of pain, lonesome and desires that every one has .
A girl 19 years old , had this perfect body that every girl desired named "MARIA" who's been hurt by so many people , walking down the road eyes full of tears thinking where she went wrong and got hurted . As her steps are approaching the street the thoughts are keep coming to her one by one , vision by vision ,she's never felt this pain before pain of loosing something so important to her that made her happy is now gone.
MARIA : so , i guess this is how heart break feels like .
The guy she loved the most and dreamt about has another face and she meet that face today trying to realise that he was the same guy she once loved , he turned his back on her and she fell on the ground hitten by the cruel reality , her heart was aching ... she was to live that day so hard not to break down in front of people , she somehow made the day but she broke when she came back at home , she had his things in her hands and the necklace engraved both their names , she was holding it all day long and denied to throw it away, all she wanted is someone to hold her and hug her so she could cry and tell how she was feeling how empty she was from inside and how she couldn't feel her own body and anything around her
MARIA : Why it has to be like that , what have i done to deserve this , i loved him with all my heart and at last i'm always alone , how could this always happen to me , all i wanted is him and i had him until today , how the fuck i'm going to survive this ?
( sobbing continuously , holding that necklace closed to her heart , her eyes has become red up to that time )
She reached her house trying to forget but you all know it isn't easy . when you know you've lost something so important and it ain't coming back , when your heart ache and there is no freaking cure to fix this kinda pain but we all can do is try i hope you are understanding what i'm tryin to say , you will if you've been through it .
Her parents were worried seeing her like that , they tried to ask her but she made up something and didn't told them about the truth ....
At that at night when she was trying to act normal that she can't and loosing her mind she thought of only one thing that could control her now was getting stoned , she used to smoke but occasionally, not on the daily bases but that day could not control herself ...
She searched for the packet of cigarettes thinking at least that will make her feel good and calm her down , thinking she'll find a way to keep her shit together and she found the packed ....trembling and sobbing she lit the cigarette and started to get high ,she thought that was the only way to sleep and forget about him ,from that day it was going to be an necessary ingredient of her life to keep her going and she let it be .....
And then she decided to text her best friend , she started to pour her heart out to her coz she knew she will understand her and help her..
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TEXTING................
LIZZIE : are you fine , you know i'm here for you, i'll do anything to make you happy just say once.
MARIA ; yeah totally i'm good you don't have to worry i'll be fine and you know what! i'm going to start fresh from tomorrow actually no , from today i'm going to be good and brand new , he'll regret everything he did and i'm going to make sure of it .
LIZZIE : you sure , you know we have to face him again , tomorrow and this could be hurtful for you . And don't try to hide your pain i know you okay ! i know you try to be strong but that is for other people not for me , i know you ....
MARIA : i'm sorry , i know your there but i don't want to be sad , it hurts , it hurts so much that i cannot put it in words he just left me , like that like it was nothing for him like he never loved me , how ? but you know what ! whatever happens nothing can stop me i'm going to erase his memories . he can't play with my feeling anything , i'm not going to give him that power to control and rule my heart ....
LIZZIE : i understand maybe i can't feel what you are feeling but your going to be alright, and you don't have to cry over him and to to move on you have to take a nap, so get some sleep and we'll talk about this tomorrow okay ! good night and remember i love you . calm your mind down okay !
MARIA : okay good night love you too . and thanks to be there for me always .
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she was still feeling pain even though she told her best friend that she is going to move on , but deep down it was nothing but empty , a feeling no one wants to face but she had to ....... thinking about all the things she tried to sleep with tears in her eyes each one holding a piece of her memories with him and realising she was shattered ...
And her day was specifically the baddest one of her entire life she has faced a lot of thing that she doesn't want to face and even think about that but the memories keep coming back she was hardly trying to fall asleep , turning back and forth on her bed deep down she was so scared because her parents knew about their relationship and they don't know that they have broken up ..... what is she going tho tell them and explain them , for a while she was thinking to ignore the fact that she has to tell them, she is not going to tell them and behave like everything was fine and hide the truth ...
But we all know eventually the truth is going to come up and than she has to face it one day and tell her parents and it'll hurt them so much coz of that she was trying to find the nicest and the easiest way to tell them and finally feel free and pour her heart out in front of her parents but for a while she had to keep quiet ..
(SO FROM HERE EVERYTHING STARTS )
WRITER : as you all know forgetting your love is not easy and specially when there are lot of things that had happened between them and so many feeling to relive in ,this is what we are going to find out what happens in next chapter of her life where she'll face many thing including herself , wait up until then...
There was a lot of thing that happened that day and she buried them inside her heart and she was denying the fact about her boyfriend that he is the same guy who was sweet and caring at one time and suddenly god know what happend and left her like that , her brain couldn't work she didn't knew the reason why he was behaving like and sudden change in his reality ...
there was a thing that nobody knows what happened and why they broke up and why he left her like that after promising to be together no matter what even at the last time together , what got his mind to change everything they had .....we'll find out this soon
And more about her personality , how she is , her truth nature ....
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AND THANKS TO REED AND I APOLOGISE IF THIS IS WEIRD ,IT'S MY FIRST TIME
LOVE YOU !