"Ms. This is my report for this month" I confidently said while giving them my report. I feel like it was my success. I worked for that for straight one week!
She does skimming in my report "This was good. You did a great job, Sylvie" she said, and then she put down the mountain of papers that I gave her. "I hope you will work harder, you can be the employee of the month, Sylvie" I curved my lips into a smile. I feel so proud of myself. Accomplishing my report is an achievement for me. "You can have your rest day for this week, Sylvie" I curved my lips into a wide smile.
I get my laptop then leave the building. But when I went out of the building, someone is outside. Zayden slowly stepped to be near to me, while directly looking at me, eye to eye. "I didn't know that you will go out early," he said
"I didn't even know that you are here" I stepped to go far from him but he pulled my wrist.
"Let's talk," he said with his deep voice "You were not able to talk to me when we are in a massaging area" he walk while pulling my hand to go to his car.
"Let me rest!" I exaggerate my voice "I'm tired" But I know he would not allow me to go far from him. He is always like that when I want to walk out of him.
"Nothing is tiring, you just have to listen to me and open your mouth when you want to talk" he raised his eyebrow. He really has many reasons. It was like he has a bag of reasons.
"Why do you did not want to see me? Did I do something wrong? Something that will offend you?" he asked without even stopping. I am wrong when I say he has just many reasons. He also has many questions! I am sure he can win a debate.
"I want time for myself self" he suddenly tilted his head down. Like he was disappointed. Is it me who said an offending word to him? "Did I offend you?" I asked, worried about how he acts.
"Did I always disturb you?" He asked while still looking down, playing with his fingers.
My eyes widened. Is that what he thinks? That is totally not what I want him to think. I did not even to of him being a distraction to me! "No!" I defend.
I just want time for me to be a better person. I did not mean to offend or make him feel sad. Because I am sure I will be sad too. "I want a time for myself, a time for me and my mother to bonding. You did not disturb me. You even help me with my report so why is that a distraction to you? Please understand my current situation."
This time, I did not leave. Like what I have said, I will face what I fear and change my perspective to a boy or a man. A little time would be fine for me. I just really need to understand that he is not like my father. He is different.
"Can I still talk to you even if you said you want to have time for your self?" he asked and gave me a puppy eyes. Ah! This is hard! Should I say yes or no? Did he ask me that because he knows that it will be hard for me to decide? Oh really?
"Yes" I ended up saying that. I know I should say no but my dumb mind keeps telling me to say yes! So this dumb person agrees with her mind! Now, should I still have time for it? Oh, I have an idea. Should I give him a schedule on what day he can only visit me? Uh, no that will probably wipe my dignity away.
He curved a wide smile after hearing that. He did not even ask me if I'm just joking or is it really true. Maybe, because he thinks I would change my mind after he asked that. He does not know that me, I can not disagree with him.
"Should I drove you home? Oh no, I will drive you home" he was like answering his own question, just like me a while ago. I silently laugh so that he could not hear me.
He opens the door of his car "Get in" he said while his lips were still curving a big and wide smile. I chuckled. I have nothing to do with my feelings. I can't argue with my feelings and my heart, even in my mind. They all always want to agree with him.
I looked in the mirror while he was driving. He was still smiling widely! Sometimes, he was snatching a glance on me and when I noticed him looking at me, he will look away or on the road as fast as he can.
I did not know why he still wants to drive me home when my house is just near the building that I worked. He even waits for me outside when he can just go straight to my home.Did he want something hard? I laughed again.
He turns his gaze on me" Why are you laughing? Is there something funny?" he asked like he was really curious. He looks like an innocent child.
"None, I just suddenly remember the memes that I have seen on my social media account a while ago" I lied.
He nodded, convinced of my reason. Now, I think we have the same bag. A bag that full of reasons. "Do you want to sleep? You can sleep for a while" he said but when I look at the place that the car was being parked. We are now in front of my house! When he noticed that I am a bit confused he said "We are going somewhere. I place where I am sure you can be happy. A place where you can enjoy and experienced many things."