~Los Angeles, CA~

~9:22 am~

"Let's divorce," I said to my husband and put the divorce paper on his desk for him to see it.

We have been married for 6 years, yet he cheated on me. I am always perfect in whatever I do, whether it be studies, sport, anything else. I am perfect, but I never thought I will fail in marriage. I already knew that he was cheating on me, but I never wanted to bring the divorce out because I was worried about what my family might say. I am afraid to disappoint my mother, but what can I do?

I don't think I can continue this marriage again.

"Why divorce? I thought everything is going well between both of us,"

I glare at him. What does he think he is saying? Why is he acting as if he doesn't know the reason we broke up?

"Better sign it and give it to the lawyer," I said while I took my bag

He holds my hand.

"Where are you taking my child and go?"

Is it now he knows that he has a child? When he is busy with another girl, he does not remember that he has a child who loves him dearly. He is pissing me off just by looking at him.

"You can see your child anytime you like," I said "I am not holding you, but what I know is that I am not leaving her here for you and that girl you are going to bring,"

I violently removed his hand from me, I went to the living room and saw my daughter sitting down waiting for me. I told her we are going on a vacation to her grandma's house; I don't want her to know that I and her father are getting divorced. I am afraid it might affect her studies, so I bother not telling her, and I know that he too won't tell her because he cares about her. He is still a father, so he will have to care for his daughter.

"Janice, come let's go," I hold her hand. She was happy to see my grandma. She has never seen my siblings well except when I just gave birth to her, and I brought all of them here. I am sure she doesn't remember them, it is only my mother that I usually bring here sometimes, so she knows my mother a lot.

"Dad, why are you not coming?" she was pouting. She let go of my hands and hold her daddy's hand. She was shaking them.

"Oh, Janice," he bends down "I am working, I can't come. Enjoy with your grandma, I will visit you when the time is right," he hugs her.

When I saw it, tears fell from my eyes. She doesn't know that this will be the last time she will come here. As soon as they let go of each other, I quickly wiped the tears off my face. The last thing I won't do is let him see me cry, I will never cry for a piece of shit like him. I only felt pity for my daughter. She doesn't know that she has such a shitty father.

"Janice, wait for me outside,"

"Okay," she runs and waits outside

"You sign that divorce paper and give it to the lawyer," I said "I will call the lawyer and ask him about it,"

"Selena, why don't you change your decision?" he said "I know I did something wrong but think of our child,"

I looked at him with anger in my face. He wants me to stay in a loveless marriage for what? When the time comes, I will tell Janice of the father she has.

"Look, there is no reason for you to call me," I said "If you must call, it is to greet your daughter, I don't want to have anything to do with you," I made it clear for him. I don't want him to disturb my life again, though I know he won't call. I will be the one calling him because of his daughter.

I went outside; he went with me outside to say goodbye to his daughter. I called a taxi before to take us to the airport; the taxi was outside waiting for us. As I was about to put my traveling bag in the taxi car, he helped me carried it and put it there. I let him put all the bags in the booth because that is the last thing he will help me do.

"Janice, enter the car," she went and hugged her dad

"Bye,"

He hugged her back, I could see tears in his eyes. He was making me angry. Why is he crying? If he can't part with his daughter, he should not have cheated.

"Bye, sweety," Janice entered the car.

I looked at him, the house, and the surroundings one more time. I remember the first time I moved here, I never thought I will leave here with my child. It is painful; I am now a divorcee. I will never think I will get a divorce in my life again. I entered the car, the taxi man drove off. I could see Janice so happy to meet her grandma, I hope she won't miss her dad too much. To be honest, if I say I am not in pain, I will be lying. He is the first guy I have ever dated and married I don't know any other guy. I am worried about how I can cope without him. I always depend on him, because of him I rejected an excellent offer that could have changed my life. Anytime I remember it, it hurts me. I don't know what happens to me I rejected that kind offer. If I have known my life would turn out like this, I would have preferred to stay single or better yet find a pathway for me, and my daughter.