I know I'm not perfect
I am a bad girl
Yet I try to make an effort and not lose control
I remain full of faults including that of feeling weak when I am not
But I'm a coward and I know that
I know that even though I'm not the only culprit in my fall, my mind can't stand me anymore
I don't wanna lose control anymore
And let my soul express itself
Let my tears fall
Without fear of judgments or mockery
My heart is crying but I try to silence it
I try to do better even if I can't
They devalue me, they laugh at me, they steal my trust ...
And yet I'm still here
Seemingly stronger than ever ... While inside I'm so weak and broken ...
I need you, to rebuild me, to make me a strong and confident woman
I need your support, your trust, your love, just you ...
Don't be like the others, don't break me more than I am, but help me up
To recover from my relapses, my uncertainties, my mistakes
Be with me to help me, advise me, be my second conscience ...
I only need you, my love, my oxygen, my sanity
I love you so much that it hurts and losing you will literally destroy me
I will lose myself ...
I don't wanna lose control anymore
To lose control
To lose control
I cry for all the moments I wasted with my bad head or my stubbornness ...
Well definitely… I'm stupid
I was stupid to ignore that loved ones might be in the best position to stab you
I was stupid for being so naive ...