I was standing outside the door of our room listening to the obscene grunts released by the two in our room. I try to cover my two ears. I try but even if I cover them, I can still hear their obscene growls.

I can't imagined myself being a martyr. I didn't wish that my life will turn out like this. It's my damn fault. This is not what I am expecting to happened. This is not my dream. This is not what I imagine before, when I decided to chose this.

"Urghhhh! Ba-abe Fasterr!" The woman growled loudly.

"Yeah. Hell. Ughh --- Ohhh! I-I'm cumming" My husband said with full of pleasure "Ughhhh --- Ohhh!" They said when they reached their climax. I guess?

Yes, you heard heard it right?. I'm married and my husband was inside our room with his girl and they are having sex.

I let my tears fell down to my face and wiped it again and again. Now I look like a mess. Silently crying outside of our room and waiting for them until they stop.

It ways look like this, always like this. This is always the routine but why is am I still not expecting it to happen? Why am I still not used to it?

We were married for almost 10 Months. And for that ten months that was it. All he just gave to me was pain. He's not doing anything to me physically but he's torturing me emotionally.

For almost ten months, I was able to enjoy everything. All the blasphemy he was committing as well as his dealings.

No one knows that I am his wife. No one knows that he's married. No knows that we are living in the same roof .

So like this, Every time he goes home with a woman. I was just in the kitchen. Waiting for them to go upstairs before I show off myself. Sometimes when I get late he introduces me that I am one of his maid. And then my heart is repeatedly stabbed because of all the possible reasons why maid? It could have been just PA, right?. After that he would shout at me and throw some hurtful words at me. And me? All I can do is to cry. Just crying and doing nothing else. Because I love him. I love him so much that even though he hurts me over and over again I'm still holding on to him and not losing hope that one day will come and he will treat me as his wife.

When I heard the door open I immediately backed away and immediately ran to the stock room, just next to our room.

Yes we do! We sleep in one bed but that does not mean that something has happened to us.

I feel like a hiding child who does not want to be found so as not to bet on a game. Suddenly I peeked a little as I did not feel anything but I was stunned when I saw the two of them facing each other outside of our room.

"Damn that was great. Hope we can do this again" The woman said softly

"Oh, yeah sure. It really leads me to heaven when we did that earlier" Drein --- Keith said playfully to his woman

"Really? Can we do it again now? So that I can lead you again to that heaven of yours, Drein?" The woman said softly to Keith as the woman kiss Keith on the neck causing Keith to moan

It was as if my heart had been pierced over and over again by what I heard and my tears were slowly flowing. Why? Why is it that? you idiot Breann! If you haven't took a peek, you're not crying now! I scolded myself in my mind.

I went out a little. His woman can't see me because her back was facing me.

I wiped my tears with bitterness. Then look at them but I was stunned when I caught him looking at me coldly, those eyes even if it gave me a coldness, it makes me fall for him over and over again. I avoided his gaze and look away. I don't want to meet his gaze because the pain he makes me feel is just increasing and maybe by chance I will sit in weakness due to fatigue and pain.

I hope they will leave now because I'm so tired and I need to rest. I am not a robot.

"Let's go, Stef. I'll drive you home" He said to that Stef. Whatever.

I have a bitch side of mine. Yes, but I am not that childish to make an immature things. I will think it first before I do some actions.

"Let's go" the girl said without turning back because Keith immediately wrapped his arms around the woman's waist as if supporting it and the woman yelled at him.

Keith didn't turn his head at me until they got down. I went inside our room.

I grinned bitterly as I looked at our room as if a storm had passed through the chaos.

I did not realize that my tears were dripping from my eyes again. I rubbed it angrily. Why do I cry so quickly ?. Damn