Marielle Cheong .
She was my childhood friend and as well as my first love.
She loved reading , walking and doing picnics . Whenever Marielle said „ playing together" , we did these kind of things most of the time . Taking a walk in a park , eat lunch there and chatting . Such activities that an old woman would like to do in my opinion , but surprisingly I found it cute and enjoy this leisure time with her . Normally, a girl would talk a lot and the boy listened to her ,however we were the other way around . While I usually talked to her ,she would respond to my questions with short answers. Although she is such a grandma , she also liked things such as fantasy and modern action films , so we also went to cinema many times . Occasionally, I would see her crying in sad scenes ,so I had always a chance to tease her .
These moments filled our daily life . People would think, that it should be boring to be always together , because we know each other too well and the activities didn't seem exciting . But for me, every day was fun . Moreover Marielle wasn't boring at all . She always surprised me with her ideas ,for example she suddenly climbed a tree to watch a concert from afar ,only because she couldn't get the tickets or we painted the walls of an abandoned house.
Two complete different sides , having an old lady's slow living while being an energetic adventurer . But this gave her a certain charm.
For me , a life of action and thrill wasn't mine . I preferred to just walk or chat with her , especially speaking out my frustrations.
Before she came, I was pretty alone and felt lonely, but I had my reasons .
Since long ago ,everyone would praise my appearance . At first I was proud of it ,now my view changed to a 360 degree .
I was just 6 years old ,when I noticed the affectionate gazes of the women towards me. I didn't take it serious ,as every child looked cute in their eyes . But as time went by and my face became more refined and girls suddenly would surround me .
The girls ,the same age as me ,would annoy me to get my attention and the ones ,older than me, would always try to get near me , sometimes even touching me .Even through I wasn't at fault , some boys became extremely jealous at me ,so they would beat me to blame me for losing the girls or being too good-looking .
That's why I didn't have friends ,especially boy friends, at that time. My looks gave me either too much love and admiration I suffocated from or gained jealousy from my peers in combination with sudden prejudice , saying that I would be arrogant and that I used my appearance to achieve everything. Some even thought that I had everything . …..How delusional !
Why did they think beauty would determine my abilities ? Why discriminate me ? Did you even know me ?
Anyone who saw me at home , would know that I was hard working and ambitious . Without these traits I wouldn't be the top of my grade .
The girls secretly would only admire me , while on the other hand the boys didn't try to get close to me .When some boys tried to approach me , others would spread rumours about me being two-faced .They claimed ,that in reality I thought of myself as someone over them and was only nice to the adults to gain their trust . I denied it many times , but nobody believed me because I had no backup to prove myself that time. Because of misunderstandings it resulted to more rumours .
Soon most children of my school avoided me completely .There was even a complain from my class teacher sent to my parents telling them that the class didn't want me .
Hello?! I was just 7 years old ? Some people seemed to have no any common sense .
Naturally , my parents didn't believe them .
They soon proved that they were in the wrong in the end , but it didn't change my situation that much .
Since they couldn't stand seeing me like this anymore , they changed my education to home schooling until middle school and also brought me to a dojo to train self-defence for building up my confidence .I didn't try to make friends there ,fearing that they would also act like the ones at school .
The sport still could reduce my frustration and soon became my hobby afterwards.
But regretfully ,this only intensified my popularity around the girls . ( You know why…)
In stories they said being popular was cool . In which part was it cool ? Being avoided ? Being too overly admired ? That only resulted to no friends for me .
What a joke ! I just wanted to forget the time there .
Slowly ,proudness transformed to hatred in regard to my appearance because of this .
I lost every hope that someone could understand me .
Until I met her , Marielle Cheong.
We first met each other ,when I was 11 years old . My family always wished for a neighbour ( Reason : I would get a playmate hopefully ) , so we planned to visit them . Mrs. Cheong and Mr. Cheong were very nice and an interesting couple . They talked about their travels and such and the reason why they decided to live here . It intrigued even my parents to the point we sat in their house from noon to evening . We did travel ,but we didn't stay in one country longer than 3 weeks. That's why their stories fascinated me .
So that my parents and them could chat with each other more ( only for adults …) , I should get along with their daughter meanwhile.
For real ,I didn't like it at all considering my past experiences with girls , but it seemed like my parents liked this family a lot , so I couldn't let a bad impression of us behind .
I opened the door to her room and saw a girl sitting in armchair reading a book .
When I first saw her , my first thought was :
[ Whoah , so this looked like someone with mixed blood .]
Even through she looked average , she did have something special. For me , she looked like a total asian , but her blue and bright skin betrayed her . Sometimes, when she changed her angle of how to sit , she suddenly would look more like a European instead. I was impressed of the sight .
As if she noticed my presence just now , she looked up to me and showed a gentle expression.
Yet this didn't change my caution remembering my past experiences.
But ,surprisingly ,she talked normal with me and we even explored her new home together . It was a different experience ,but I didn't dislike it .
Sometimes she would lose herself in her own world ,
sometimes she would overthink about something ,
sometimes she would be clumsy ,
but this girl was an incredible considerate ,patient and gentle person .
After that I would always visit her .
Over the time she became my best friend . I finally found someone who would understand me .
( my parents became happy after that too .
Without her I was sure , I would have lost my healthy common sense and perhaps became a psycho at this rate. )
Soon I entered middle school . Sadly, I didn't go with Marielle to this , since her school was already settled before she came to New York .
I just hoped it wouldn't be bad , but my hopes got destroyed immediately .
Middle school didn't become better .I couldn't concentrate on my studies because of the love -struck gazes of the girls and glares from the boys. At least the boys wouldn't ignore me entirely . It seemed that after children got older , they became a bit smarter , was true .
Soon puberty hit me and I got strong features ,losing my innocent and cute looks .I looked older than my actual age because of my trained body too.
That was where the hell began .
Girls started to follow me and the boys shortly couldn't stand me anymore to the point of bully .
Only the days with Marielle after school healed me somehow.
Until now no accident , aside from being followed by girls and boys ignoring me or trying to bully me ( but I learned martial arts , so it was almost impossible for them to beat me , so it couldn't be called completely bullying ) , nothing happened .
However in my 8th grade ,an accident in my school happened .
On that day I trained football after school till evening .One of my so- called fans went to my dressing room while I was changing to my clothes . I was totally shocked. Just when I yelled her to get out , she suddenly removed her clothes one by one until she had only her underwear left . I was terrified by this.
„ Don't you want to do it too ?"
[ Is she crazy ?]
She came closer and closer .Never did felt I more disgusted being with a girl than today . I couldn't just hit a girl .
Snap*
We both turned our heads to the noise and saw a different girl with blond hair and grey eyes holding her mobile phone in the hand .
„Do you want me to send it everywhere in the school? "
„ You….!" Soon the fan tried to get the phone to erase the evident ,but fell over her clothes miserably .
„Come on , girl . Don't regret it afterwards .For sure ,on social media a lot of people will accuse you for this , can you really hold on after that ?"
The fan just growled and glared at the girl .
But shortly she began to cry and left with her clothes immediately .
I thanked the blond haired girl and asked for her name .
„ No problem . My name is Jessica Walker ."
„ Oh, the prettiest girl of our school."
„Oh ,you know me."
„ Naturally , the guys always talked about you."
„ Ah, thanks . I will send you the evident , so whenever this girl comes back, you can protect yourself with his ."
„ Yeah, thanks again. "
Soon she left.
I looked at the girl's leaving back.
Meanwhile ,I noticed that she was the only one not paying much attention to me . Somehow it made me happy.
After that accident ,I avoided the girls more strongly than before . I slowly developed a colder and unsympathetic persona to repel the girls .
I didn't tell Marielle of this , so she didn't know of the accident at school and the bad treatment, I had for one year and half . I hoped she didn't find me pathetic . In addition, I just didn't want to burden my family anymore.
I didn't trust my own best friend enough to tell her my bad treatment sadly .
Nevertheless I couldn't hide it from her very long ,so one day she tried to help . That's why she wanted to bring her own friends for me to meet them .
Two of her friends were girls too , so I became afraid.
[ I won't going to like any girls. Girls are extremely scary . No joke ! At this rate I could develop feelings for guys some day .]
Surprisingly , her friends were all really nice and gentle to me, as if my appearance didn't affect them the least . As I became friends with them one day , we would do a lot of things together . It was very fun .Going to cafes , cinema and other places . I thanked Marielle for this . Somehow she had a hand for finding good and true friends .
But the question still lingered in me ,so I had to ask after trusting them enough:
„ Don't you find me very handsome ?"
My straight forward answer surprised my friends very much , however soon big laughter followed .
„ Yeah , you are . But you know , only because you're attractive ,doesn't mean we want to date you or so ."
„ Yeah , some here are also guys . We ain't gay ,so it didn't apply on us ."
„ Besides I have a boyfriend , who unexpectedly sit next to me ."
„ Yeah , don't take my girlfriend away .", exclaimed her boyfriend .
„ I too like someone else ,so don't be arrogant ,you know ? Besides we all look pretty fine in our own way . So why should we be affected by your appearance ,correct ?
We saw a lot of beautiful people by now, so we became immune to it in some way . We had some bad experience with this ."
Yeah , the first time we saw you , we thought that Marielle will be having a hard time with you ,for sure .Because you're popular and a lot of people would aiming for her , like warning her or something else .
We didn't want to interact with you at first because of this . But unexpectedly ,you was really kind and humble . A trait that you seldom find here anyway. So we couldn't dislike you ."
„ Perhaps learnt it from Marie ."
I was still speechless by their arguments . It seemed like there were also other reasons for distancing yourself from someone else.
I just nodded.
„ Marielle told us about your circumstances ,so we felt sympathy towards you in the beginning. However over time we liked to hang out around you . You're an easy going person ."
„ Yeah, we like to be around you , so don't think too much into this and just enjoy the time ."
I became generously touched by their words .
By being with them , I always experienced hilarious things like going to forest to find cave for exploring. In some way or another they were similar to Marielle .
Never thought ,I would get friends , except Marielle.
Also I found out that Marielle already knew my sad past from my parents accidentally ,when she visited us before middle school .
After that , I truly trusted her now and opened up about my experiences .So sometimes I would just ramble every complain I had about my school to her .
Now I gained more confidence and decided to change everything in high school this time . Besides I also wasn't alone anymore .
Shortly, I would enter high school with my friends and Marielle. Just the thought made me happy.
But as if the heaven didn't want me to let me breath , another girl just had to disturb my slightly calm days in middle school. A group of girls brought me to a classroom and tried to undress me . To escape from their claws I smashed the glas window with a chair and flee from there .
Luckily , it was video recorded , so I could prove that they tried to forcefully undress ( cough* rape) me. Soon a lot of guys ,even the ones trying to bully me ( As if …) , felt empathy towards me understanding what I had been through now. In the end they didn't ignore me anymore and even occasionally greeted m because of guilt.
Soon high school followed .
All my friends and Marielle became my companion for the next 3 years .I became extremely popular and gained many friends .Naturally , I knew who my true friends were.
I enjoyed my days and hoped that it will continue forever , ….. till Jessica came .
In my 10th class , I became the class president ,while Jessica became the vice class president , so we often interacted together. After some time rumours about us being together were spread . A lot people expected us to become a couple . It was annoying at first . I also thought Jessica would hate it too . I hoped that they would understand , that nothing was going to happen between us, but this changed later on .
As we spent more time together , I began to notice her pretty face and curvy body ,especially when she stood just near me. Just from looking at her I felt hot inside and my hormones became more chaotic . At that time I didn't know what it was.
Wherever I was with her ,I would secretly glance at her or try to speak to her more outside from our president work. As time passed by, I thought that it was love that I felt . An attraction was for sure.
One day Jessica confessed to me .
At first I was surprised thinking she wasn't interested in me before ,as normally girls would admit love to me on daily basis .
This was how we became a couple. We enjoyed each other's company .
It was around that time when I started to keep a small distance from Marielle ,because Jessica sometimes became jealous of her .In addition I didn't know ,how to explain her the situation . I just didn't want to change our relationship because of Jessica .
Actually, the whole school should know by now , that we became a couple . Though Marielle had the habit to blind out the rumours around her, so she wasn't up to date and moreover I asked my friends to keep it secret , because I wanted to tell her myself in the end .
However I postponed it multiple times ,thinking that I could do it tomorrow .
Some day Jessica asked me after a year dating ,if she could visit me for the first time. So I took the date where my parents were away from home ,knowing that they will be an embarrassment for me ,if they stayed at home. We enjoyed our time with watching TV and eating popcorn until it became evening.
Suddenly Jessica ,sitting next to me, climbed on my body and I became stiff .
„ W-what do y-you do ?", I stuttered .
„ Don't you know ? Your parents are away . We are alone in this mansion. Why did you bring me on this date anyway ? Didn't you expect something from me ?" She smiled mischievously .
Soon she brought her lips to me and slowly took off her clothes one by one . Her gorgeous curves and flawless skin came into view . I unconsciously gulped and just stared at her body. Suddenly Jessica began to open my shirt ,while sucking on my lips. Her hand took my hand and placed it around waist .I felt her softness and became intrigued . Any man couldn't resist such temptation , was my thought. Before I knew it , I instinctively massaged every part of her body. Moans of her filled my ears . Soon excitement followed . At some point my rationality vanished and I took her with me to my room .
On this day I gave her my first time. It was unforgettable .
All of the sudden Marielle asked me if I had a girlfriend . I was surprised ,but soon I admitted it .
I felt guilty for not telling her . Shock was visible on her face , however she later became calm .
After I introduced Jessica to her , I was happy that my most precious girls got along so well .
But I noticed Marielle being strange recently ,so I often asked her ,if she was alright , however she would deny it and just said that she was fine .
I didn't believe it ,so I interrogated the others . But nobody wanted to explain me.
Until Lucy finally told me that her heart broke , but didn't tell whose fault was it.
I was so shocked , that I thought about it for a whole week. I was gloomy and sad .
„ Who did she love ?" , was my thought the whole time.
In our last year in high school, I noticed that she distanced herself from me , so I asked her about. When she told me that she might fly to Seoul because of her family . I knew that her family travelled a lot ,so I didn't find it weird . Nevertheless I was extremely sad to lose an important person ,so I couldn't shake the feeling off .At least we could contact each other ,that what I hoped for . I knew that this was an excuse , a stupid one even. For her getting used could probably be because of me , having a fulfilled love, which in return made her sad . So I didn't think much of it and agreed to her request.
I thought that I would be okay , but over the time I became lonely and felt a bit miserable ,that I couldn't be with her like in the past .
One day I saw Marielle with another boy laughing together . Before they parted , he came near her and embraced her .
An unknown feeling rose in my chest . At that moment I just wanted to go up to him , grab her away from him and trap her in my arms .
Normally, she avoided the boys to touch her , but now she openly accepted it . I became angry by this thought . Even I ,who was her childhood friend , wasn't allowed to even hug her , when we were small ,explaining that it was uncomfortable to become touchy with a boy.
It took me 4 years to let me embrace her , but not for long ones , but these bastards could accomplished it in just a few months .
Soon I was confused by my own thoughts .
With her friends she did it too, so it was normal . So why am I angry to see her with a stranger ? It was her business . A bit irritated , I left the scene .
On some occasions I would catch her with some other guys . It made me angry that she didn't notice the hot gazes of the guys she talked with . How could she be so dense ?
Marielle didn't know it yet ,but she was actually pretty in high school .Her special traits, such as her blue eyes, cherry-coloured lips , bright skin complementary with her black hair ,made her incredible attractive for some men . Since most of the guys didn't come near her because of me , she didn't know that some guys did find her pretty .
For real ,most males had their own preferences, so why try to fit in the masses anyway ?
Otherwise I wouldn't recognise the differences between the girls anymore.
As time went by ,I slowly noticed my feelings for Marielle .
Ashamed that I loved another girl while still being in a relationship , I tried to get rid of them . At some point I was bit happy that she would move out.
Then we graduated .Marielle move out as planned .
I planned to study law and business in New York and to move out with my girlfriend after being with her for more than 2 years . As we would see my home for the last time, where we had our first night, we decided to watch a movie there.
We enjoyed our time until suddenly a fire broke out in the kitchen .
Jessica died .
It was the hardest time of my life . Thankfully, my friends and family supported me. Marielle also comforted me. I was extremely happy seeing her back . Every day she would visit me and talked with me . Normally, I talked the most time in the past, but this time it was her. Just with this gesture ,my heart became warm . Finally ,I somehow overcame my guilt and sadness of losing a precious person and moved on .
Marielle already left me that time and continued her study .I wanted to visit her , but I noticed later that she didn't live in Seoul ,when I called her parents . They told me that they couldn't tell me ,as Marielle didn't want anyone to know where she was . Our friends also kept it a secret .
I became very angry ,since I was the only one not knowing it . I could see that she intently avoided me .
So I gave up .
That was what I thought .
While I continued my studies , I looked for myself where she could live now ,so I constantly asked my friends and searched for clues until I graduated from university .The result was bad. Nothing .
To forget her completely , I consumed myself in my work after I built my own company in the entertainment industry . I became extremely successful. While continuing my life , I didn't take a girlfriend, even through a lot of women practically threw themselves at me .
However as time passed by ,I became colder and my once fake persona ,I built in my middle school ,became one with me .
I still couldn't forget Marielle. I didn't want to experience this again like in elementary and middle school ,so with my anew power , I finally find her whereabout . She lived in England and now came back to New York . Excited that she was here, I wanted to visit her. But I still couldn't understand her ,why she did this anyway , so I met up with Lucy ,her best girl friend , beforehand.
I told Lucy that I now knew where she was ,but wanted to know the reason ,why she avoided me in the first place . Naturally , Lucy wouldn't tell me ,unless I would ask Marielle personally . But as far as I knew she would continue to run away from me . I wanted our misunderstanding to be solved immediately, if there was one. Not daring to repeat the same mistake like in elementary school .
I argued with her that Marielle would never tell me the reason. After some begging and sacrifices it became evening and Lucy finally opened her mouth.
„ She loved me ?" I said absentmindedly while driving to my apartment .
Happiness, sadness, desperation and anger filled me . I just didn't know what to do with these new found emotions .
She must be hurt because of me .That's why she distanced herself from me .
The reason why I couldn't reach her , was that her family and friends wanted to protect her .
But she wasn't the only one here. She also didn't consider my feelings too.
However she wasn't like me who only wanted a sexual relationship.
I even avoided her at some point ,so I was no different to these idiots in my middle school .
Only after my graduation I slowly understood , that I dated Jessica just for her body . I just wanted to satisfy my sexual desires regrettable. If she hadn't come together with me , she still would live.
In high school I stamped my feelings for Marielle as family love, as I didn't feel that much of sexual desire to her.
It changed around the time ,where she avoided me .Whenever I saw her with other guys being a bit touchy with her, I became extremely jealous. At that time, I noticed that it was more than sibling love .
I thought I should apologise to her .
I visited our old home . I was okay seeing my old home again, so it proved that I really moved on. My parents moved out to different neighbourhood by the way.
When I wanted to go out to drive to my apartment, I saw a beautiful woman who wore a red dress reaching to her knees and low heels watching the house next to me. As soon as we made eye contact , I dazed for a moment.
„ Is it you …Marielle ?"
Soon we both sat on the bench .It was difficult to speak ,so we stayed silent .
But fortunately, it didn't take us long until we talked like in the past.
I was so happy at that moment.
Shortly, I invited her for dinner to my apartment. I was a bit nervous ,knowing she will be in my home. As we entered , she sat in my exclusive bar. I showcased my skills in front of her, which I got when I did odd jobs in clubs in my college years.
Now I could ask her ,was my thought.
Many questions circulated in my head .First, I wanted to know if it was true about her feelings .
When I got her the answer , I didn't know what I should do after confirming the hunch ,so I just went up to her to ask her more questions . As I came near her , I noticed her red ear under her black hair and her nervous gaze looking away from me.
[ It was really adorable . How could she be so cute ?] I smiled for a bit ,but soon composed myself again .
I thought about teasing her for a bit more , so I went even closer to her than I originally planned .
Soon I stood in front her ,while enjoying every reactions that she showed me .It irritated her even more , as I trapped her in my arms.
Just then did I notice our positions. I knew that I should stop this ,but I couldn't take my eyes of her, cutely making herself small to avoid me.
Such cuteness should be illegal !
I unconsciously gulped .
[ Please resist more ! If you are like this , you will let me think I could do anything to you .]
My eyes darkened and I licked my dry lips ,as I smelled her fragrances from her head.
Finally, I looked at her face .
[ Don't show me such a face .You make me hard to control myself.]
Soon the last bit of my rationality vanished ,when I touched her soft waist. Before I knew it, I embraced her tightly and kissed her passionately . The kiss was sweeter than I thought .
I became more and more addicted to it .Trying to taste everything of her , I began to feel her body a bit more . I became intoxicated with her .
[ Why is she so cute ? Shivering like this . ]
I don't want to lose you ever again.
I want you so much .
I love you so much.
Please stay with me.
All the sudden I was forcefully pushed away from her and she slapped me in the face . I dazed for a while.
Soon we argued .
Her one statement made me angry .
[ Our friends and families didn't even want to tell me where you was. To make it more worse , you didn't try to contact me. Did you know how I felt ? Now I know the reason, but that doesn't change my hurt feelings . You say ,you would stay by my side ? But you didn't . ]
After she left .
[ I screwed up . It came out of control . Shit ! ]
I cursed at myself for a while until I calmed myself down.
Soon I met her at our class reunion in the hotel which had a bar for second time .
And oh man !
At that moment when I saw her, I really wanted to take her to a hotel room and eat her cleanly . How could she go around like this ? She is so beautiful . I don't want other men to see her in this dress .
Already displeased by the glances of the guys giving her ,I emanated a cold aura.
When she sat in front of me , I could tell that she was pretty much pissed off . I knew that I was in the wrong that time . Thinking to try to lift the mood, I wanted to speak with her , however she suddenly spoke with Mark ,the previous class president of her class. I could only watched them chatting ,looking annoyed by this .
Then they both wanted to leave to buy drinks and stuff . I wanted to go too, preventing them to be alone. All of the sudden Marielle fell. I tried to catch her ,but Mark got ahead of me .
Marielle in the another man's arms . I hated it very much . I should be the one to embrace her like this.
Now instead of following Mark ,she stayed here.
She could trick everyone here ,but not me .I saw her pained expression .She injured herself from the fall .
So I took her with me to bandage her . After some time , I got to know that she was going to live in Seoul . Only sadness and desperation filled me.
Perhaps this will be my last time to see her, so I should solve our misunderstanding with her , being her as Jessica's substitute .
Unfortunately , we died .
When I woke up ,I noticed that we came back to high school.
I saw Jessica for the first since long ago . The Jessica who died in the fire 9 years ago .
I cried in relief and just hugged her, afraid that this was a dream. This time I wanted to protect her .
Soon we planned how to save Jessica . After finishing the preparations , Marielle suddenly came up with a deal.
After reading the content , I knew I didn't want to do ,what she requested from me .
I really did love her . But she couldn't believe me.
However I wanted to tell her again . When I looked up after reading the content , I wanted to reject the deal . But I saw her pleading expression with hints of desperation in her eyes.
[ Did you hate me so much ? Do you want to get away from me so much ? Why do you have to be so desperate about it ? ]
I smiled bitterly and in the end agreed to these terms.
After we successfully saved her, I broke up with Jessica right away . I continued my life .
I still wanted to see Marielle for the last time, so after I agreed to the deal , I secretly contacted Marielle's mom many times to gain her complete trust , in case I needed her help .
Similar to our past life , Marielle persuaded her mother to keep the flight a secret from me .
I already knew, where she would live anyway . Not due to my past life knowledge ,but because of my method this time :
While she searched for an apartment in high school, I convinced my family's uncle who worked as an estate agent in London , to reduce the price of one of his flats to represent it as an attractive offer to Mrs. Cheong ,not knowing that I knew of Marielle's plan to fly to England.
In return for this favour , I had to pay a part of the the original rent , so I looked for my cousin who also studied in London in the past which I got to know after college. She wanted to share a flat with her friend ,since it's really expensive there ,but her friend was accepted for a gap year in France ,so until then she had to live alone in this expensive apartment according to my memories.
Before she could do it , I offered her to share a flat with Marielle for the time being until her friend completed it .After that the three would live together for a long time, since in the past their previous apartment was extremely popular back there ,so it wont't be long till it was sold out.
[ HAHAHAHA !!! ] ( evil laugh )
Fortunately, Marielle fell in my trap and bought the longing in London .
I on the other hand studied in the same university in New York, but the difference to my past life was that I finished college just in 2 years , since I already had the knowledge for it. I worked under different companies during my university period .
Before I would built my own agency again, I first wanted to explore the globe for 1 year to improve my abilities , which was my previous dream . In my past life I was too distracted by Jessica's death and Marielle ,that I lost my goal in the end .
Now I did what I wanted to do .
I decided to let Marielle to recover until we met again.
Soon I got an offer to do an internship in London , which readily agreed. My chance came .
Finally ,I could explain and confess her again. I was so excited .
As an insurance , I took the key from my cousin to her apartment , so she wouldn't run away from me again.
The plan didn't go well . Naturally, since she I hoped to not see me again, she wouldn't be happy very much. But I couldn't let her think that I didn't love her.
If she still hated me , I would remove myself from her life after that . She would never see me ever again. I promised.
Just as I could finally apologise and thank her for all these years , I could accept to leave her completely .
….
….
….
Suddenly ,she apologised to me. At first I was surprised ,but still carefully listened to her .
[She confessed to me ! I couldn't believe this . I didn't dream ,right ?]
Before I knew it , my body moved on his own. I kissed and embraced her in my arms.
„ Do you still love me ?", I asked her .
When I heard her answer , I was overjoyed and passionately showed her my affection for her .
After some time Marielle wanted me to stop , so I just hugged her in her bed .
[ For me I really didn't care .Just staying by your side was enough for me. ]