|Hello everyone, I may have not posted in a while, but I do have chapters ready to come out. Before that- enjoy this random thing I'm thinking about!|
My feet feel a bit wet, and yet not... Everything around me is just pitch black. I only see one shining light in the center of the room, and I go to it. The closer I get, the better I can see what I'm walking upon. It's a black substance that's light cold, a bit wet; it's easy to move on and yet bouncy. It makes no sense.
"HELLO!" I see a young child under the light, and I quickly rush over. She looks at me, confused. "Who are you? Where are we!"
I took a moment to examine her, a cute blue dress, light brown skin- longer hair than I had remembered, and huge adorable eyes.
I was contemplating telling her what I knew or nothing at all; she looked around seven, so maybe she wouldn't be able to understand fully.
"What's your name?" I asked as she looked at me and thought. "*Deadname*," My eyes widened, and I had realized- this girl was a younger version of me. But why is she here standing in front of me? And what version is she?
"What's your name?" She asked me, and I smiled, "I'm Sue." "Why do you look like a boy if you have a girl name?" Her head tilted as she looked at my chest.
"May I touch?" she asked as I chuckled, bending down.
"Go ahead." She poked my chest and gasped- "YOU'RE A GIRL!" She panicked, "I AM VERY SORRY!" I chuckled, "It's okay, and I guess I am and am not a girl?" Her brows tilted in so much confusion. "So, what are you?" "Not sure yet- but when I find out. I'll tell you." I nodded as she sat down.
I followed her lead and sat down to face her, "What is your life like?" She asked as I chuckled at her kindness. "I have two cats and a turtle; I am a writer- I like to play video games, and I have a lot of friends," I said as her face lit up.
"WHAT ARE YOUR PETS NAMES!?" "Sugar is the girl cat, Haida is the boy, and Cheezers is the turtle," I explained as she laughed. "Those names are funny." "What do you want to be when you grow up?" I asked as she thought, stroking her chin with "ummm's."
And right on point, she said: "DOCTOR!"
"Why, doctor?" I knew why but I wanted to see that shine in her eyes.
"I want to be a doctor because if my family gets sick, I can help them and get them to be better..." She paused, getting this sad look on her face. "My cousin is very sick... Something's wrong with her brain, and I want to help her." her eyes shined with determination.
I could feel the worry in my heart... I don't want to see those lights shatter in her heart.
"What's wrong?" she asked as I shook my head and put on that smile. "Nothing, I bet you can help your cousin, though!" I cheered as she blushed- "T-Thank you..." Her eyes directed down at her lap with her fingers fiddling, she may have not been smiling, but I know for a fact that she was really happy.
As a kid- I never got compliments, so giving her one now must have made her feel proud.
"What are your friends like?" She looked back at me, still embarrassed. "Well, they're annoying, dumb, loud..." I paused, feeling an annoying heat on my face. "But... They're nice... And funny... And sweet... And I love them."
My younger self's smile was happy- "I bet they love you as much."
I chuckled, shrugging. As much as I liked our small talk, I wanted to figure out which younger self she was. What has she gone through?
"Are you in school?" I asked as she shook her head. "No, right now is umm... Summer?" she seemed confused.
"Oh, you're on summer break." She nodded.
"Yeah, but I uh... Don't understand why I'm not in school because of the weather." she shrugged as I chuckled. "It's not about the weather. It's just school is giving you time to rest till you go back." she understood what I said and nodded, "Oh, that makes sense."
If she's in summer... Then which month? "Do you have friends?" I asked as she nodded.
Her face brightened- "I HAVE THIS FRIEND CALLED: *His Name*." I felt my heart panic, that name... Why does it make me feel like this? "He lives in my house because he lost his home- his mommy takes care of us when everyone else is gone. He's very fun-"
No- no.... NOT THAT! IS THIS THE HER THAT- NO. "Sue?" I grabbed her shoulders instinctively.
"Please... Listen to me. Don't go in a room with him. Don't get the toys. Just stay in the living room- please." I begged as she became worried. "S-stop... Your hands. They hurt-" "PLEASE!" I shook her as she began to get scared and cry.
"LET GO OF ME!" She pushed out of my arms, and I let her go, seeing the fear in her face. "I... I'm sorry."
She said nothing, only looked away from me and cried.
Her body began to sparkle, "w-what's happening to me!?" "I think you have to go now..." I said as she looked scared. "What- Sue- Help!" Her body was fizzling into the air till she was gone. Only leaving the particles to float around.
I'm sorry, YS. I know I couldn't help you...
I waited for days... I knew YS was going to come back, and I wanted to be here for her. It was dark every day in this place... I was hungry, thirsty but I needed to see her.
Suddenly the light came on again- it was in the middle, and I saw her- I SAW YS.
"Sue... Sue..." The moment she walked under that light, I saw her body- she was half-naked, barely wearing the towel she held.
Her whole body was wet, but the most noticeable thing about her was her face.
She had tears; she looked ashamed, sad- and worst of all- gross.
I quickly stood up ran on my wobbly legs to catch her as she fell. "I should have listened..." she said, crying. "Sh- sh! It's okay." I grabbed the towel, wrapping her body with it. I could tell her thoughts- "It wasn't your fault. It was never your fault. You did nothing wrong." I repeated over and over till she laid against my body, not sure of what to do.
"I'm cold, Sue. I'm so cold." "Okay, hold on."
I made her get off of me so I could take off my shirt and put it over her. I grabbed the towel and scrubbed her head- her hair was shorter now, and she looked 8.
"How much time passed since we last talked?" I asked as she didn't seem fully okay. "I think... A year." I nodded, noting that maybe a few days inside the head must be months or so.
"H...How did you know?" She looked at me. "*Deadname*, I'm you. This is our brain. I'm big you." I said as she began to tear up again. "Why did that happen to us?"
"I...I don't know either... And we will never know." "Does this... Feeling ever go away? This sadness? This hurt?" She pointed to her chest, and I contemplated lying... But why do that to myself? She'll find out. "Not for a long time, and even then... It'll be there forever." I said as she pushed her face into my chest, crying.
"I HATE HIM!" She screamed over and over again, and I just listened. "That's okay. Just let it out."