Cleo
The past couple of months have been hard on me emotionally and physically. When I woke up after my operation I found my mother by my side and my babies sleeping on the other end of the room. I've been a mother for three months now and I'm loving the experience. The sleepless nights are getting better though .The twins are staying at Rosa's for the weakened and Gio had his first sleepover which meant that I had the weekend off. I had done a great job in avoiding Angelo until yesterday. He hadn't stopped sending me flowers since the twins were born. He started also sending me gifts, when I went back to work . Yesterday he sent me red short stem roses in a square vase the Friday the day before that he sent me pink and white tulips which almost made me cry because the note attached read;
I'm never going to stop loving you. Even though you're avoiding me I will find a way your heart... Even if it takes me forever.
On Friday the roses had a note that he wrote saying ; I miss you. I lost track of time on Friday busy backing up data and making sure my assistant understood the filing and the color coding system. I was a bit hard on her so I gave her an early day I felt bad . Oh and Blake called me to ask what was wrong . Truth be told I was moody and stressed. Mary forgave me when I gave her a slab of chocolate. She goes all goo goo eyed when Blake walks in and forgets her name among other things. She's okay but hopelessly in love. Blake likes her too.
Last night Angelo racked up the courage to look for me instead of accommodating my avoidance stunts .
When he eventually asked me out after asking for my forgiveness;he invited me to dinner.
I accepted but it almost didn't happen because he suggested he cook for me at the Villa and I had a mini shell shock moment and declined, but when he suggested the penthouse I accepted. When we made it to the club there were cops everywhere. He gave me his phone when it rang and Paul came clean about a gang rival gang attack and Angelo not being aware of the narcotics being delivered to the club . Angelo came back home two hours later; by that time I had already made a three cheese sandwich with some apple juice I left half for Blue . I fell asleep on the couch and Angelo tried to wake me up but I ended up hitting lights out again on his shoulder.
I was sleeping peacefully in Angelo's arms and he had his one arm around my waist and the other around my shoulder. He'd grown a beard and his hair was longer too . He had combed it back but it must have have way during the night it was loose. My body alarm used to wake me up at four in the morning but nowadays its six . It was still grey and wet outside, and as predicted I was up at six before Blue .He was out like a light I could tell by his breathing . I untangled myself from him; took my phone from the counter and made my way to the main bedroom . When I opened the closet I surprised to see most of my clothing still where I left it , including my Shoes and everything. I shed my clothes and hopped into the shower. By the time I was done I rummaged through Angelo's side of the closet looking for a sweater because the temperature had plummeted. I wasn't planning on staying put so I found his navy blue cotton sweater and put it on and made my way downstairs. I had grey joggers on and white socks no shoes . When I turned the corner Angelo wasn't where I left him ... I thought nothing of it until I checked my phone. I had five missed calls and a text message from Angelo. I poured myself some coffee sat down by the bar stool and called Angelo. He picked up on the first ring .
" Cleopatra where are you?"
Aww he sounded sad and broken. Poor Blue. I spoke calmly...
" Morning Angelo ."
"Morning Cleo . Was it something I did , or said? "
Oh my word he thinks I ran away. He must be going crazy .
"Angelo I'm still upstairs ,why am I hearing wind and cars in the background ?"
"I thought you ran away... Nicolai has the day off and we are closed for the weekend until next week Wednesday. "
"I'm sorry I didn't wake you up. You looked like you needed the rest ... Without your prescription pills . "
The cacophony in the background had stopped and I heard the key pad sound .
"You found those?"
"This morning while looking for headache tablets ."
I heard silence on the other end of the line and sniffles.
"I'll be up in a bit ."
The line went dead and the lift doors opened when I looked up from where I was sitting my heart started aching for Angelo. He looked at me all emotional and I saw him crying . He's a guy who is always
emotionally independent ; sure of himself, and strong . Today I'm seeing another side that's rare. Damn you sleep ; I needed you yes, but not this way when someone needs me.
I put my cup down and ran to him and gave him a hug and a kiss but he was a bit taller and had more muscle . I hadn't noticed yesterday because he was wearing a blazer. Angelo lifted me and held me close , he kissed me back and held me again. I pulled back kissed the side of his neck that had a scar that was healing . What the hell happened when we were apart.
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ngelo reluctantly let go of me and held my hand ... He let my hand go and locked eyes with me.
I gently pulled his fingers from my hand and put my hands on either side of his hairy face he closed his eyes and tears came down on my hands .
"Angelo look at me babe. I'm here I didn't run out on you."
His eyes were still shut
"No I'm dreaming. You wouldn't take me back after what happened and what I did . "
"You weren't in control."
"Cleo I'm so sorry."
I hugged Angelo again and he buried his head into my neck and started crying into the sweater.
"Blue... Its okay ."
"I don't deserve you. That's what everyone is saying. I can't go to Church without been looked down at weirdly or given the cold shoulder like I should be ashamed. I am ashamed. "
Angelo got off my shoulder and looked at me. He's deep sea blues were sad.
" Don't be . I haven't been to Church in a while either. I've been told that I'm naive to forgive a monster who almost injured his own children and their mother ... The other day I was shunned by the ladies group I've always been with , the community gave me strange looks when I went with Pio and Pia to mass. We were in the cry chapel , they were quiet but when we were headed to the car we got stopped and the insults from Sophia, Nikki, Ruth and their newest bff Jane started getting to me. Clara came to the rescue with Brent ."
Angelo kissed my palm and wiped away a tear from my cheek.
"I'm sorry Bella I should have been there."
I shook my head and looked at him.
"Blue ; It is the people we trust so much ,regard as friends ,family, brothers, and sisters that end up being the ones that hurt us the most. The true colors of those around us become visible in times of adversity and trial. We shouldn't paint over what we see... We should be thankful for the lessons, cut out the clutter, and move on. "
"Bella; you forgave me even when I was a mess and I screwed up ."
" I love you and I know what caused your violent episode. What Jane did was evil."
"Thank you for loving me ."
"Its always a pleasure .Now stop with the sadness and tell me why are you taking anxiety pills and sleep pills."
"I wasn't coping Bella. "
My tummy started to rumble and Angelo chuckled and kisses my forehead.
"Let's talk it over breakfast Bella."
" Okay Blue."
"By the way are you cleared to do other things besides talk ?"
I burst out laughing and I slapped Angelo's bicep playfully
" Easy Blue ... We have the whole weekend. What if I'm not cleared to do cardio?"
"Hmm... Ha ha I haven't had Cardio for the past six months. Promise me something?"
"Anything ."
"Please wake me up before you get me all worried."
"I will Blue. What's for breakfast chef?"
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