I woke up with heavy breathing I feel like, I'm burning alive. It's only 3 in the morning! I mean I saw Fairy Sapphire screaming and Fairy Liz dying but.. the scariest happen in my life as I saw this grim reaper I can't see his face but I think he's smiling at me or maybe he was smiling at Sapphire because I was planning to help Sapphire when the grim reaper notice me then starts to swing the scythe he used this to get Fairy Liz soul and he vanished in the air together with Fairy Liz. Fairy Sapphire was crying about what happened to Fairy Liz I called out her name but she can't hear me. I tried and tried to shout loud calling her name but she really can't hear me she hasn't noticed that I was calling her. Because of that, I woke up at that time. I haven't save Fairy Liz and all the fairies in the Forest De Gilder. I haven't done anything to save them.
They say that no one ever saw this grim reaper, some say that it was just a skeleton with a black coat and have a scythe that captures all human souls if they soon will die. When I saw that grim reaper it feels like I was watching a horror film. Pure black, only shines was his scythe, it hasn't any shadows surrounding him was a black aura that if this grim reaper comes to you. You might end up being crazy if you saw that thing.
I scream like I know what Sapphire feels. I cried like I was asking for their forgiveness. I know that Sapphire will be mad at me because she always warned me about changing this faith as a consequence but I never listened because I was trying to change others upside down Faith's but in the end, those fairies Faith's make them doomed. It couldn't be happening if I listened to her. I kept blaming myself when someone knocks on the door outside of my apartment. I wiped the tears that fall from my eyes before I walked out of my room to open the door.
I saw Fairy Sapphire bent over while standing outside my door, I hug her and she hugs me back after that she cried hard. Hearing her crying was like a thousand thorns crushing into pieces in my heart. "I'm sorry I couldn't save Fairy Liz, I couldn't save all the fairies," I said. She shook her head and said that "I know that I shouldn't blame you for what happened to the Forest De Gilder but Fairy Liz told me that it wasn't your fault. You've been trying to save everyone on your own and every time I warned you, you changing other's Faith's you just helping them and saving them. She said that she saw you trying to enter our world, but Fairy Liz won't let you help us. It was our faith and her decisions and you shouldn't change it because if you change that, this might happen to one of your friends too." So it means they heard me but they don't let me interfere. "but I want to help" I said.
"yeah I know, just please listened every time you change their Faith's it has consequences like what happened to us. I tried to help you to understand that it has consequences but you still do not listen, in fact, you still save them. But that's a good thing, helping others in need I mean you don't have to change it on your own, you should help them change their faith with their own hands. Which means you will guide them to change their destiny, not you changing their destiny it was their path and decisions to make." she said. I smiled and let her in inside my apartment but still...
I can't help but to blame myself even if it wasn't my fault, I know that I shouldn't change others faith because it was their destiny that God give for them to be stable but I can't help it. If I didn't change their faith what will happen? I was once tried to change other's faith when in my dreams that I saw an airplane crashed and now I decided to help others Faith's but I was too late because before I can save them, they died without believing in me. What would happen if I did not change Hannah and Terrence's faith will they be my friends now? I don't think it is, if I didn't change Hannah's faith what will happen to her and Terrence will be doomed if I didn't help them. I don't want anyone to die. If I saw their faith that causing them to die, I can't just sit here watching them dying while I don't do anything to change it. I don't want that, every scream, everyone cries, every prayer, everyone begged I always hear them repeating on my mind it was like music play and played on my ears and my head. I remembered the airplane crashed hundreds of people died and there was blood everywhere.
Thinking of that I don't want to reminisce the past, but now I don't know if I'd still want to help others even if I saw their Faith's. What if I did not invade others' faith, what might happen if I did nothing to stop those disasters will come into our world? Should I blame myself either? Will they blame me for what happened? Will, they accused me of something that I didn't want to happen? There are so many reasons that they could blame me, but how can I forgive myself if they're blaming me for their faith? I know not all people's minds are parochial, but why they will blame me for what's written in their destiny. I did not write that, it's their faith I only did was I can see what might happen in their future. That's all... If only I am just a normal boy, this might not be happening to me.
I looked at Sapphire she was sleeping peacefully on my bed, and there were traces of tears in her eyes. I know that she is blaming me but she can't say it because Fairy Liz told her that, she should not blame me for what happened. It was written in their faith, I caressed her hair like I was her father. I think I should stop changing others Faith, and I think this is for the best. I should not meddle with their destiny or it might be something that will happen again to my friends, I don't want anyone to harm them. The only destiny I will change is only my friends, but I will not interfere with other faith. After that, I kissed her forehead and said that "I'm sorry if I messed things up, I will stop doing this from now on"
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2 hours passed and it was 5 in the morning I did my daily routine to went to school I have to move forward and I need to tell Terrence and Hannah about Sapphire. What will they react if I say something about her? Are they will be mad because I did not follow Sapphire in the first place? I sighed like I was making a big mistake until I reached our school but it's quite unusual for me because it never happened before. it's too quiet like there are no people around here. I think we don't have classes. So when I was to turn around to go home, when I saw again this grim reaper. I stood there and I cannot move my body, my heart was racing so fast I don't know how am I gonna react. But now, the grim reaper was facing me but I can't still see his face. It was like a ghost until he disappears again and everything back to normal. I saw all my schoolmates walking passed through me. And then Terrence and Hannah went where I am. "hey you okay?" Hannah said. I looked at her then turn to Terrence and nod. What is the meaning of that? Should I tell them what I just saw?