Nothing. No matter how hard I try I feel, nothing, I've tried everything, laying in the sun under the ocean blue sky watching the cotton candy-like clouds roll over their blue canvas, I've listened to the birds sing their bittersweet lullaby, such a beautiful sound wasted on such a sad person.
I recall that one day that made me feel as if I was dying but also made me feel so very alive at the same time.
I watched mesmerized as the deep blue water swirled around my legs, intertwining with my fingers, dancing with the fabric of my clothes as I wade deeper into its Melancholic whisper, unease settles in me like the tide after a long day but as fast it appeared it washes away replaced by the sensation of constantly being caressed by the soft ripples, pushing me further into its grasp, reaching out to me waiting for me to come back.