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Chapter 11 - I Love You But I Shouldn't

Taeyong POV

I know that this is a bad idea deep down. I know that I can't change him. He will always be straight. He will always find a girl to love and maybe someday he will marry one. It will never be me. Yet... I still love him with all my heart. It's hopeless yes, but my brain, heart, and body can't stop. I've tried to date other people and all I could think about was him. I cried for hours on end in my pitch black room when he got his first girlfriend. All the music I listen to, all the books I read remind me of him. And here I am falling back into that trap because well, Jaehyun will always be Jaehyun. And I will always be the one he doesn't pick.

After we got ice cream neither of us could part ways with each other. So we just walked together, it was a simple thing to do but it filled my heart with such joy. When he smiled I smiled because it shone so bright that anyone who looked would feel like the luckiest person on earth.

We passed our old middle school and he immediately ran up to it pretending to be a kid, going on the monkey bars, and the slide. I giggled at him. "Jaehyunnie baby are you done with recess?" I asked, deciding to go along.

"No you're the baby!" He said squishing my cheeks. I slapped at them making him pout playfully. We laughed together and walked over to the place we used to go when it was recess. Behind the school building, there was an open grass area with flowers and trees. It looked so wonderful that we both fell in love with the scene when we first saw it. We've always had "spots", both outside and inside the school campus. We would always go there together to get away from all the chaos that kids are. I remember one day we both saved our lunches and brought a picnic blanket all so we could eat lunch together. When the teachers caught us they ushered us out of the spot but we didn't get in too much trouble because I think they thought our friendship was cute.

We sat together with my tiny hand in his large one, once again with each other. It felt right to be back in his arms.

"Taeyong.." Jaehyun whispered.

"Yeah Jae?" I said looking up at him.

"I really am sorry for leaving you."

"I know Jae." I pulled him into a hug, melting into his chest. I missed this. I missed his warmth and his wonderful aura that just makes me happy. He sighed in my arms and I truly felt content. Until his phone rang. He let go of me and I suddenly felt so much colder.

"It's Heather.." He murmured.

I felt a pang in my chest. I wanted to forget about that. I wanted to forget about Heather and her stupid sweater and I wanted to forget they were ever together. But of course, when do I ever get what I want.

But surprisingly he just hung up on her not even bothering to talk to her. I looked at him astonished and he just shrugged at me saying, "I'm with you right now. I can talk to her later." My heart fluttered. Did he just.. choose me over Heather? He chuckled and pulled me back into a hug. "What? It's not like I'm going to call her over you, I already left you once and I'm not doing it again."

I smiled brightly at him and we talked the night away, no regrets, no worries. Just us and the stars. Maybe he could change.