Soojin's chest feels heavy.
As though all the life from her core has been sucked out from her.
It's like she's immobile, paralysed and absolutely numb.
She'd jump off a roof and feel absolutely nothing.
Her heart could've stopped, for all she knew.
It could've escaped her ribs and departed her body.
She felt as though her stomach was gurgling, like milk that's gone bad.
It was an odd feeling.
One she'd felt every time she sat on a swing.
The kind of sensation her stomach would be filled with as she rode higher and higher with every push.
She'd have her eyes peered shut as her father pushed her.
"Higher, Appa!" The 10 year old Soojin would squeal, the pads of her feet tingling and butterflies filling the pit of her stomach.
That's what she felt like.
Only now, she'd fallen off of the swing, right on her ass.
The impact has left her in a state of shock, all from trauma and bewilderment.
