Adriana's POV

I hated it, every single thing, the black all around me, the people and their fake smiles, it was very much irritating.

I look around the room filled with choking perfumes and well-tailored Armani suits, my eyes lock on Celeste who sat on the couch, with a long black dress and silver drop earrings, her golden brown hair was packed in a ponytail, she looked downcast.

I look at the person sitting close to her, it was uncle Blake, my dad's younger brother, he held her hand, I'm sure he is comforting her, from time to time my dad's friends went to them to give their condolences.

Why? Why were they consoling Celeste, she wasn't my dad's wife, she was only his girlfriend, I stood up and walked out, opening the glass doors that lead to the garden, cold air hits my face, tears threaten to spill but I force them back in. I walk towards the gazebo and sit, a sigh escapes my lips, I'm sure they won't notice I'm gone, who would notice the hedonistic kid of Antonio is no longer there.

Why did pápa have to leave me, we promised each other forever, I look at the starless sky, it was pitch black, I guess my life is going to be like this_ forever dark.

"Addy!!!!" I hear Emily scream my name, at least someone noticed I wasn't there.

"Over here" I whispered, I doubt she would hear, right now no one can hear the voice emanating from my soul, sad? maybe.

" oh my gosh Addy, I've been looking for you," Emily says as she sits and hugs me, I refuse to give her a response as I haven't spoken to anyone since I heard the news, I hate myself for being a horrible person, I'm a failure of a daughter.

" my parents want to leave, I told mom that I will stay with you," she says releasing me, I still don't answer her, I look ahead at the so many chrysanthemums surrounding this gazebo, it was my mom's favorite and it also became my dad's too.

"Okay let's get you inside, it's freezing out here" I stood up and walked away, I heard her sigh and I felt her intertwine our hands.

A lonely tear escapes my eyes, I just want to see my dad, one more time, was that too much to ask?.

Why did death have to take someone who's done absolutely nothing wrong?, maybe one day I'll ask this question again and I'd probably not get an answer but I don't care anymore, nothing matters.

We walk past some persons downstairs, I guess I spent some time outside, the majority of the guests had gone, their fake cries and annoying sympathy that wasn't needed, finally an end, many of them wanted him gone but they come and cry, hypocrites? that's an insult to the word, they were far worse.

I was elated, if I had to hear any more" so sorry, take heart, it's one of these things that happen" I swear I'll punch the person, most of the persons giving condolences always wished that dad had died, they were never friends, the fickleness of humans amazes me.

Emily opened my door and we got in, I walked towards my bed and lay down, I heard her locking my door, she always understood me.

"Get some sleep Addy, I want to make a quick phone call" and with that, she walked to the balcony, I laid down face up, my ceiling decorated with chrysanthemums greeted me, I shut my eyes. Papa did that after my mom left, he said I could be closer to her than ever, I guess it wasn't true cause I feel so useless and alone.

This was the first time that I didn't want to see the chrysanthemums, I kept my eyes shut, when Emily came back and called my name I didn't answer, I just forced myself to sleep and maybe die too, if it's possible "papa I miss you and it hurts"

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"Addy, Addy, Addy!!!!" I heard someone scream my name, I opened my eyes and Emily's worried face greeted me, I sat up and looked at her.

"You were crying in your sleep" she explained? I didn't feel anything, I had a dark dreamless sleep, I raised my hands and wiped my face, "Addy, please say something" she said holding my hands in her own, I continued looking at her.

"Go freshen up, Blake said the lawyer will be here by 10:00 am," she said with a sigh, I turned and looked at my wall clock and saw it read 7:45 am, I got up and walked towards my bathroom, I heard Emily opening the windows.

I look at my reflection in the mirror, I look like garbage, my platinum blond hair was worse than a bird's nest, my eyes were red and puffy, my sea blue eyes had lost their luster, turning on the tap I splashed some water on my face, I picked up my toothbrush that already had toothpaste and brushed my teeth, Emily was a real Darling and friend.

I can't tell how long I was in the bathroom for but I knew that after another round of crying, I came out, looking at my wall clock it read 8:40.

Standing in front of my dressing table, I looked at the girl that stared back at me, this wasn't me, papa has always told me that I was too emotional and that it was a flaw, I guess he was right, why can't I stop crying.

I tied my hair in a ponytail and looked at my reflection again, I wore a black dress that stopped at my knee.

"Knock, knock" I heard someone softly knocking on my door, I opened the door and saw Emily

"You are dressed, good, come let's get something in that tummy of yours"

"Thank you" I whispered, I saw her stiffen, she hugged me

" We are best friends remember, put on your shoes," she said tearing up, I smiled

" I want my feet to breathe," I said and she nodded

We walked downstairs and into the dining area and I was so pissed at what I saw

Uncle Blake sat comfortably on my dad's seat and Celeste sat at his right-hand side laughing stupidly.

"Uncle Blake, that's my dad's chair" I spoke and they both turned to look at me, Celeste was still in a black dress, her hair was lost and she wore red lipstick and the same silver earrings of last night, were they happy that dad wasn't here.

I walked to the left side of the room, with Emily behind me, "Oh Addy I'm sorry" he said with a stupid smile

" sit somewhere else uncle Blake," I said and his smile froze, he got up and sat beside Celeste.

I sat down and faced them, Emily sat beside me and Anna the help came in with breakfast of chicken soup, in the De'Luca family when someone dies the family always drink chicken for breakfast and dinner for at least a week.

" How was your night Addy," Celeste asked with a fake smile, "fine" I replied, I took a sip of my soup, "thank you, Anna, it tastes nice," I said and continued drinking my soup.

"Emily thank you for keeping our Addy company," uncle Blake said

"No problem, she is my friend" Emily replied.

My mind wasn't in their conversation, I guess myself and Celeste had gone back to the beginning where I gave her the cold shoulder.