I sat there for just a few moments, just thinking about what had just gone on. It all went so fast, and it all seemed a bit crazy, and so unreal. I had gotten so used to the way my father had been for the last year, it just did not seem right, to see him like this.
It felt good, and I was happy for him, but I was so used to him being in pain, and always being depressed, that this did not seem normal any more. I closed my eyes, as I heard voices going on throughout the clearing, as I could tell that the voices were getting more and more quiet as well.
I was now mainly alone, besides a few other dragons just roaming around the camp still. It felt good to just be alone, and to think to myself for a bit of time. I began to relax myself, as I let off a bit of the tension that had been piling on me for some time.
I sighed in a breath of chill air, as I shivered at the same time, once I had felt it. I really did not like the cold times of the year. I knew that it made the red dragons stronger, but it did not feel good to having it be freezing.
I sat there for a bit longer, as I sat on the rock, almost as if it were like the sun rocks back at the old camp. There was no sun though, that was the only problem with it. I enjoyed it for the time being anyways, until I heard a voice speak up to me a bit loudly, trying to get my attention.
I opened my eyes, and then I blinked a few times, looking around, trying to see where it had come from. I looked around for just a few moments, until I saw that it was just Socra. I then nodded for her to go ahead and say what it was that she had to say to me. She did so as well.
"Jangra... Remember, I told you that we were going to meet up with Himla at his cave! Hurry up, he is waiting on you... If you really want to be a deputy, than you have to get used to this." She said to me. I looked at her for just a few moments, until I then nodded at what she had just said to me.
I had wanted to have some time to myself, just to think for a bit, but it did not seem as though that would be the case for me however. Maybe I could ask some of the questions that I had felt like needed answers to them, and maybe that would help me.
I shook my head though, as I knew that I should not be greedy, and if I was ever going to be the leader of this tribe, I had to realize that I was never going to have free time to myself. The tribe always needed me, even if we were not in the times that we were right now.
"Sorry... I forgot, lets get on it then I suppose..." I said to her. She looked at me for a bit of time, and then she nodded back to me, and she pointed her head for me to follow her over to the smaller cave, where they tended to have their private meetings.
She had her head down low to the ground just like I had. Almost as if she too had a lot on her mind as well. I am sure that she did too, as I wondered how the interaction that had happened last night had been for her. I wondered if she was angry at my father, or whether she felt bad for him.
I was not sure if I could ever feel bad for him again though. I somehow managed to get through the same pain that he had been in, a lot easier than he had. I could have fought off that dragon, and then my brother would have never been killed.
Or if I would have never trusted Yikla, as I felt sick for ever trusting her in the first place. It felt like she had put a massive stab into my back. She had brought the death upon many dragons, not just my brother. I wondered how I could have ever fallen in love with her.
I wondered how I could have ever fallen in love with Penta as well, as it had hurt me the day that she had tried to kill me. It hurt me so badly, that I had nearly tried to do the same back to her. I should have technically as well, as it was a part of the rules, but there was still some heart left in me.
I shook my head, as I saw that we were about half way over to the cave that my father was currently in, waiting for the both of us to meet him in there too. I then turned my head over to Socra, as I saw that she was looking at me, and she began to speak.
"Jangra, you are not the only dragon that is not sure right now. I do not know whether I am ready to trust Himla or not just yet. But it is our only chance, he is our only hope..." She said to me. I looked at her for a few moments, but I was also quite a bit confused too.
Was she forgetting that I was in fact the dragon of destiny? Was I not the one that was supposed to save all of us? I shook my head, as I knew that I should not get too ahead of myself. I then kept on walking with her, thinking of a response to give her, before we got into the cave.
I did not want to lead the tribe though, even if I was the dragon of destiny, it never said that I had to be the leader of my tribe to be so. I would much rather have it be my father that led us, rather than me. It all seemed quite a bit scary, thinking that some day, I would in fact be the leader.
I shivered, trying not to think about it too much. I then kept on following Socra, until we were up very close to the cave, and I felt like I had to give her a response, before I went in with her, to go talk to my father about our plans, and all that other stuff.
I stopped her just before we got to the entrance to the cave, trying to give myself some more time to think it through. I saw her nod, and I knew I was out of time, so I nodded back to her, and decided to just speak off of the stop, and from my heart.
"He is meant to be the best of all of us, that is what you had always told me. He knows what he is doing, and I can see a change in him... We have to trust him, it is all that we have left." I said to her, feeling like I had repeated what she had just said to me a little bit.
She looked at me for a bit, as she stared at the ground for a bit longer as well. I could see that she was in a bit of pain, as I wondered what it was that could be racing through her mind at the moment. I never was really all that sure, as she was one of the few dragons that it was hard for me to get a read out of.
She eventually lifted her head up however, as she looked into the cave that was in front of us for a short period of time. She then let out a bit of an exaggerated sigh, and then she turned her head back over to me. She looked at me for a bit more time, until she then nodded and began to speak.
"Well Jangra... There is only 1 way, lets just go in and find out..."