Narrated by Noha
After leaving Nalla in her room I returned home sooner or later I would have to talk to Richard about everything that has happened, I am exhausted from fleeing I enter the apartment everything is quiet and you are cozy, even next to the door there is a box with all the things that I destroy, among them the book I launched, Pride and Prejudice, I take it and look at its pages I remember the day that Richard gave it to me, they had admitted me I was having a hard time trying to detoxify, that day Richad arrived and brought me the book.
"I'll buy you another one, that one is old," Richard says in front of me.
"Thank you," I say.
Ruchard looks at the ground and ignores me completely.
"You should be resting," says my friend.
Noha, "I'm fine."
"You aren't, because you didn't tell me about your condition, I'm your friend," he says annoyed.
I will respond when strong pain attacks me, in the time that I was with Nalla I had forgotten it and many other things, if I suppose that the medication has lost its effect, I need my pills, I just don't remember where I left it, I walk to the room and check in the ground, the pain becomes increasingly unbearable.
Richard straps me up and lays me down on the couch.
"Calm down, they're here," he takes the pills out of his pocket and runs to the kitchen for a glass of water.
He puts one in my hand and puts the bottle back in his pocket.
"At least you thought to tell me," he asks once I calm down.
"Ethan told you?" I ask and he nods.
It bothers me not to know what is going through his head, it is important not to have any idea what he is thinking.
Noha, "I didn't have to tell you, it's my life and my problem."
Richard, "and I am your friend, we all are."
"I don't want you to feel sorry for me, I've been wearing this alone for a long time, I don't need anyone," I say in frustration.
The bruised pain still does not go away, it is unbearable.
"And what will you do if you lose your sight?" Richard asks
"I think I deserve it," I reply coldly.
Richard "You know it's not like that, you are not to blame for Bella's death."
Noha, "I was the one driving."
"It was an accident," says Richard raising his voice.
It is done, I took her life, I took a daughter, a friend, a love is my fault and it is something that no one will recover, whatever I do will never change.
"I still remember the day I met you, I hated you so much, you had your parents, your friends, you were good at sports, I felt displaced, but you didn't give up on me, I didn't know at that time why you wanted to have my friendship, now I understand I was suffering and you wanted to heal me, when Bella died I felt useless because your wounds were very deep, it hurt to see you destroy you, let me be able to help you, "Richard looks at me with dismay.
"Okay, I think I'll need more help from now on," I say with a smile.
Richard, "Of course, if you see, you'd better rest, by the way Ethan changed your medications, these are not that strong, they will take a little longer to react."
Noha, "A good hour you say it, now long I need to sleep."
I go to my room and go to bed, I try to sleep but it is impossible, thousands of memories torment me.
"We're done Bella," I yell at her in the worst way, "I gave you everything and you end up cheating on me with Abel."
"Noha please I don't feel anything for him," says Bella disheartened as a lot of tears fall on her face.
"And why did you do it," I yell at him.
I call Britani I need him to tell me he's okay.
"What do you want Noha?" Brit asks sleepily.
His voice is hoarse resuramente not expected a call at this time.
"Where is Nalla?" I ask.
"You're stupid, he's sleeping," Britani yells at me but I don't care I feel a great relief.
"What's wrong, what did you do to him now?" she asks concerned.
"I didn't do anything, I would never do anything to him." I say for sure.
I hang up the phone and go to bed again now much calmer.
Nalla is fine.
It's early in the morning and I think about what Richard said and I have to forget, I put on a sports jumpsuit it's weird but I feel encouraged, I open the door to Richard's room. He's asleep.
"Wake up, idiot," I yelled next to him.
I throw a pillow at his face, causing him to wake up scared and cursing.
"But what are you doing?" he asks curling up.
"Let's run." I say with an authoritative voice.
"To run .... at 6?" Richard complains.
"You have 5 minutes to get dressed," I inform him.
Richard takes longer than necessary and in the end I end up kicking him out of the house.
We've been running for a while now, it's been a magnificent day, me and Richard had made a habit of going out for a run every morning, but that ended after everything that happened. After an hour of running we decided to take a break.
"Can you ... Know ... What's wrong with you?" my friend asks wearily.
"So sorry." I say taking a surprised face from Richard.
"It's okay, I'm still in shape," Richard hides.
"It's not that, I'm sorry I treated you like this all this time," I finally say, "I should have told you everything."
Hey, I'm never going to feel sorry for you, you're my friend and the strongest person I know, "he encourages me.
"Thank you."
"Well now if you'll let me go to sleep," he says giving a huge yawn.
"Could you ask me your cell phone before?" I ask.
"Sure," he passes it to me.
I look in Richard's contacts for the person that interests me, Nalla found her number and copied it, I need to see her.
"Thanks, I have to stop by a place first," I inform him.
"Good, see you."