I'm not stupid.
I've been repeating that in my head since what happened Wednesday.
I know he isn't a good person.But he's the only person I have.
He asked me out.He said he wanted us to start afresh.Well,he also said even if I said no to the date we're still dating but that's not what's important.Baby steps.
At first I told myself I only agreed because I was afraid of what he'd do if I said no.But who am I kidding.
We're at the house.The one he took me to after the lake incident.Memories.
He made dinner.Candle lights and all,he's even wearing a suit.Black,obviously.The first three buttons aren't done so I can see part of his tattoo.I didn't realize I was staring till he spoke.
"Do you like what you see"
"No"yes
"Really?"
"Yes"no
"Do you live alone?"
"Yes"
"Parents"
"Dead"
"How do you afford school "
"Guess"
"Really?"
"What?you're the one with the boring questions"
I'm wearing a red dress.Spaghetti strap,low neckline and low back.Silk.
He bought it.I saw it while we were at the mall buying the grocery for this dinner.I loved it before I tried it on.But I knew I couldn't afford it.I didn't even know he bought it until he gave it to me when he came to pick me up.
"Okay then.how many ex's do you have"
"None"
"Seriously?"
"I don't do relationships"
"Is it?I can tell.Seriously though why not.love is a wonderful thing why would you not want that"
"Asks the one who's been in one relationship"
I almost choked on the meat.
"How did you know that"
"Relax,I didn't dig up your past.Your business is your business.I'll hear it from you.It was an educated guess really.
I'm guessing you loved him alot,what happened"
I'm relieved he respects my privacy. There was a hint of jealousy in his voice.
"I wasn't enough"
"Would you like me to kill him for you"
I laughed.
"Very funny...it was a joke right?"
"Only if you want it to be"
Then he smiled.His eyes actually lit up. His pink lips stretch to reveal perfect white teeth.
This isn't so bad.