"Attitude is a choice. Happiness is a choice. Optimism is a choice. Kindness is a choice. Giving is a choice. Respect is a choice. Whatever choice you make makes you. Choose wisely."
― Roy T. Bennett,
Chapter 36: Her Kindness
[Lilith Avaleon]
"so we need to finish some mission first before becoming an adventurer?" i ask confuse and stared at my sister who's yawning and lazily roaming her eyes around the town.
"yes, that's how it works"
why?.. why do we need to do missions first?, i want to fine deicide immediately!.
what if he'll kill someone again?, what if he'll go after innocent civilians?
"i know what you are thinking but we have no time to question their policy, come on my lady we are going to the forest"
she handed me a paper and i accepted it and read the contents... it says to hunt the Goblins that are causing trouble in the a near village.
reward for completing the task is 1k gold.
"from the looks of the paper it seems it was pinned months ago," i said and examined the paper.
Ezu started walking towards the forest and i immediately followed, today i'll follow her because ezu knows what to do in this kind of situation.
"Ezu, if the goblins are causing troubles in the village why did no one accepted it immediately and let it pinned on the bored for months?" I questioned her in distress.
She glance at me and smiled.
"Because the reward is too low Lilith"
Too low? But what about the people? The citizen living in the village?
i think she figure out what's on my mind because Ezu places her forehead into mine and stared straight into my eyes.
causing me to unconsciously tone down all the emotions around me and only focus on her.
hers were calm different from everybody, calm and relax, her guard were fully down and all her attention were fully on mine.
"My little flower, despite changing the world and changing the mind of people only one thing would remain... What you'll gain would always be the first priority of every humanity"
that's not true... if it is then..
"helping those people can help you gain recognition and gratitude from them right?" i might sound desperate but i don't understand this things.
all i now is... they need help. they need my help.
"i know little flower, but that isn't enough, come on" she leans away from me and started to alk away when i hold her hand and stared at her.
i notice her falter a bit and stared at me with startled eyes but immediately went back to what they were usually is... tired and sleepy.
"then how about us?" i suggested.
call me a hypocrite...
"i want to help them! let's go immediately!"
... but i want to help, even just a tiny bit... i mean every small things could become big right? that's how butterfly effect works after all.
so i want to take advantage of it.
i want to help.
[Suzue Reed]
i planned to follow her everywhere, serve her when she's in need, save her when she's in trouble, cheer her when she's feeling hesitant.
but watching her with an unwavering determination causes me to falter.
"Then how about us?"
her eyes were currently sparkling, they were glossy because of the tears that wanted to escape but tried their best to retreat.
"I want to help! let's go immediately!"
i watch her eyes shifting from different emotions, from Tenacity, Sadness, stubbornness and Hope.
Hope... this emotion made her dull gray eyes sparkles in beauty i couldn't help but hold my breath in amazement.
suddenly i seem to heard her thought.
'i want to help' but i think reading her thoughts is unnecessary because the expression of her face and the emotion in her eyes already express everything.
"okay" i found myself answering.
i smile when i saw her face lighten up and tears slowly fell down on her eyes, i instinctively wanted to wipe them for her but her hands immediately risen and wipe them her selves.
suddenly i felt heavy, i suddenly felt my chest tighten.
she was too preoccupied on her happiness to notice the change of my behavior so immediately composes myself and smiled at her.
i don't know why i suddenly felt sad and distraught and worried.
i never felt like this when i saw her chasing the prince but now... why?
"what's wrong Ezu?"
"nothing" i said and wrap my arms around her waist.
"ezu?"
"don't stop leaning to me okay?"
"okay" now i understand.
since the day we meet she always leaning on my shoulder and i always have her back, i am there when she needed my help, i am there when she needs something.
i am scared that maybe one day she doesn't need me anymore.
i am scared that maybe one day she will be able to stand on her own feet and i am just here watching her walk on her own leaving me watching her taking her own journey... without me.
"let's go?" i turned towards my left and walk on the path away from the forest but towards the village.
""eh? i thought we are going to the forest?" i smiled and chuckle.
"well you said you want to help those villager immediately right?"
"oh,. oh okay let's go!" with a skip on her legs and walks ahead of me.
i stared at her back and sigh.
"come on Ezu hurry" i nod and yawn before following her.
"just so you know the mission was already pinned months ago, don't expect too much when we reach the village"
i reminded her while i lazily roam my eyes around the place, the once crowded place are starting to lessen.
a few minutes of walking the stores were now gone and only a field of all grass could be seen around here.
"broken thing can be fix Ezu so i am pretty sure we can still help them"
i rub my nape and observes the field of tall grasses on the corner of the road...
"but they are not things, they are people" i retorted but she just ignored me.
the cemented road ended halfway on the land. i stared at the sky and saw a flock of birds flying through their desired destination.
"i don't believe on broken people"
i stared at her and yawn.
"why?"
"well they are not hings, they are just people who feel like life is playing with them... in my opinion those people who thinks they are broken are the wisest and strongest"
"what a cliche phrase you have their my lady"
she smiled and glance at me and raises both of her arms.
"it's true!... because they experience too much but still keep tried to live their life and be strong!, i admire them! if only i could hug every one of them and tell that.. One day, all of those pain will be replace with happiness... just wait, if you are tired of waiting then rest, then wait again! if resting couldn't help then... " she smiled and pouted and stared at the field.
"don't wait.. make a move and find your own happiness"
i smiled teasingly.
"where to find them then?"
i faltered when i saw her smiled brightly,
"from people, food, or places... happiness is just anywhere, just look and observe you'll find it sooner"
i never thought i would witness how beautiful she is again... the last time i saw her this beautiful is when we first meet.
"what kind of logic is that" she puff her cheeks and started walking again.
"i am just stating my own opinion" i smiled softly and engulf her with a hug.
"you are too kind... seriously"
Too kind...