I couldn't understand why he's been acting like this he changed he used to love me but it's not the same. I didn't understand the sudden change in his behavior, but I can think of one or two things why he would do this, why he would hurt me like this, it's unbelievable how you can love someone and that person loves you but suddenly everything changed. We were having the best time of our life then but now it's not the same,when I found out my lover, loves another I feel pain in my heart, tears in my eyes, coldness through out my body. I felt like my world was closing in on me I became very fearful and I curled up in my bed and cried because there's nothing else I could have done, would have done, but I was wrong there is something I could do, something that would make him come back to me, make him love me the same, so everyday I would go to his place and every night I would sleep in his bed waiting for him, loving him but the truth is he didn't leave because he didn't love me he leaves because he was afraid of hurting me, he was afraid of me knowing the truth and so he changed but the change is not what hurt me the most, it was the fact that I lost him and I lost him for good no one in this world will have him. Now it's just a sentimental sad story but it was like I was dreaming when this man walk into my life. He looked exactly the same They were the exact height, similar voice same habits just different shades and just like I fell for him , I fell for this one even so I was still afraid! I am still so afraid, afraid that everyone who I will love who will always love me will also let me in this world. The death of my first lover returned in the same figure same type eyes, ears even the way he smiled it's the exact same everything about him reminds me about him who am I truly loving? The one that is dead or the one that is living what should I do? how should I go about it.? I don't want to feel like I'm use him for my own selfishness, it's wrong I know it but the look in his eyes makes me feel as if he's you. it so he is you could you "Love me the same" don't leave me but make me sad, don't break my heart but allow me to cry, always make me smile and meet my friends, hate them if you want I will be okay with it if it means I have you. The love we shared bring it back to me so I can breathe again, wiped my tears and make sad, get mad, get jealous, be sad and observing. Pull me away from people you don't want me talking to, sacrifice your happiness as well as mind but don't break me the way you did before.
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{RuRu}
{ig@sheikiana_}