...Have u ever had it so bad that, you wished or even a prayed for it to all END?..
Don't get me wrong I'm not suicidal; it's just that I'm tired of the abuse I endure and lately it's only getting worse ever since the initiation ceremony. To give you some background; All the teens in the pack that are of age (Meaning 18) are all brought to together so they can shift into their natural form with the support of the pack. The shift is so painful you need someone to restrain you when you turn. What I expected to be my initiation turned out to my exile. Even though I wasn't kicked out of the pack,which I honestly believe would be better; I was treated like the runt of the pack. To make matters worse I now live in the pack house because my father kicked me out after my mothers death, because he can't with me due to the fact that I look so much like her
" You look so much like her you kind of even smell like her" he always said.
" but I'm not her" I stated
" I know" he breath defeated
" I'm not a good person and I don't think I can control myself in my drunken state even though I know you're not her" he muttered so quiet that I was unsure if I heard him correctly.
" Then don't drink" I said assertively
"I c-an't just not drink, drinking is what's keeping me a life plus I- I -" he stuttered
" I don't wanna hurt you" he said in a low tone
" you won't hurt me" I said
" well I'm not taking any chances" he breathed
" I'm sure your mother wouldn't forgive me if I did"
" so pack whatever's you can carry and be gone by when I get back"
"I spoke with the Alpha and you'll live in the pack house from now on I'll try to drop your stuff off when I get some time". He sighed walking away
Just like that he walked out of the house, not even looking come back, or saying property good bye. Not once did he say sorry.
I haven't seen him since; forget visiting me, he didn't even the decency to drop off the rest of my stuff. So I've been without any love, supervision, and comfort for quite some time. Don't despair I plan to make my escape from this awful place and these wretched people soon enough. I'm just so sick and tired of everyone and everything, that could be due irritability from hunger or the lack of sleep. Which ever one it is I have to take care of it soon because the alpha is returning therefore everything has to be in order. who better to clean and cook than the pack a runt.
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