Chapter 42 - The truth

*Jungkook's pov*

-timeskip- -night-

As i left the restaurant, i really went straight to the chanel's building to sign the magazine so that i won't do it later. After i signed it, i went to han river to have a piece of mind. I sat down there, just watching the river.

Jungkook: "y/n...Min Y/n" i said to myself "why i am being like this because of you? Why i am chasing you now but i didn't do it in the past?" I sadly thought

"Should i tell her about all? Is this the right time so that i won't make you uncomfortable anymore? I don't want you to feel that" i thought again as i picked my phone and call her. Thankfully she picked up.

...phone call...

Y/n: "jungkook?"

Jungkook: "Y/n...." i sadly said

Y/n: "what's with your voice? Why did you call me?"

Jungkook: "are you busy right now?"

Y/n: "not that so busy, why?"

Jungkook: "the point is..uhmm..i want to tell you something. I just want to let it free, i can't hold it anymore. So if it's okay, can you go here in the han river?"

Y/n: "ahhhhh, i don't know if i can come there but i'll see" she said that makes me smile 'cause she agreed to it but not sure

Taehyung: "love, my old friends invites me to hang out with them so i'll be out now" he said and i heard it.

Y/n: "okay, be careful." She said "kook, i'll hang up now. I'll just see it later"

Jungkook: "okay, be careful and thank you for picking up" i said and cut the call.

*Your pov*

After jungkook called, i went to my room.

Y/n: "to tell something?" I asked myself as i sat down to the bed "should i come? Tae is not here and i have nothing to do today anymore."

...phone call...

Y/n: "love?"

Taehyung: "yes love?" He said as you hear a loud sounds in his area

Y/n: "are you at the bar?"

Taehyung: "yes but don't worry, i won't drink a lot."

Y/n: "just make sure....and by the way, i'm going somewhere too."

Taehyung: "where?"

Y/n: "han river. Jungkook called me so i'll meet him there....i called for you to know it."

Taehyung: "you're going to meet him?" He asked in a slight sad tone "okay, be careful. Call me if you have something."

Y/n: "yeah don't worry" i said and cut the call. After calling him, i took a bath, wear a clothes and grabbed my coat as i left the house.

-timeskip-

I arrived here in the han river so i am just finding him.

Y/n: "where is he?" I asked myself as i was looking around. Later on, my gaze landed in a guy who's sitting in the grass. I approached him since i know that he's jungkook.

"I'm here" i said as i sat down beside him.

Jungkook: "ohhh you came" he smiled to me

Y/n: "i have nothing to do so i came since you told me that you're going to tell me something"

Jungkook: "thank you"

Y/n: "for what?"

Jungkook: "thank you for coming. I thought you're not going to see me after what was just happened earlier in the restaurant"

Y/n: "ohh come on. Even though we have a past, i'll still see and talk with you. I'm still willing to listen." I smiled to him as he smiled back. "So what's the point for telling me to come here?"

Jungkook: "i wanna tell you the truth why i am being like this to you. Why i am acting so weird when i'm around you"

Y/n: "your situation that you were talking about before?"

Jungkook: "yeah.....just listen to me first. Let me finish my explanation 'cause i don't want you to misunderstood me."

Y/n: "okay..."

Jungkook: "one of the reasons why me and irene broke up is because of you." He said that makes you suddenly looked at him "but the main reason is, she kept flirting with another guys. Like what i just did before when we're together" he chuckled as you just smiled to it. "But before our break up, i became cold and a bad boyfriend to her because of you....'cause i started regretting all i did to you" he looked at you "i'm regretting why i chose her over you. Why i hurt you so much. I'm flirting with her while i still have you but you're still loving me even though you knew it....when me and irene are still together, she knew that i still love you that's why i became cold to her so she started flirting with another. But that's not the only reason why i'm bad at her. I found out that she really planned to ruined our relationship when we're still college to use me because of my money."

Y/n: "she planned to take you away from me and to use you because of your money?"

Jungkook: "yes. She fooled me that's why i hurt you. But i lost you because of my stupid decisions." He looked down

Y/n: "so you've been acting like that 'cause you...still...love me?"

Jungkook: "yes....i waited for your comeback from france. I got happy when you cameback that day. I want you back, i want you to be mine again, i want you to love me again, i want you to be by my side forever but when i found out that you were in a relationship with tae, it became so hard to me. It become so impossible to make you mine again." He said as his tears started to flow in his cheeks "it hurts me a lot 'cause you can't be mine again. It's all my fault why i lost you. I started to hate myself y/n...i don't know what to do." He cried more "you suffered a lot because of me. You even tried to commit suicide because of the pain i gave to you...i never thought and care about your feelings before....I'm sorry, i'm really really sorry y/n"