Pulling up outside Thomas and mum's house I don't get out straight away. when we arrived I just got a taxi given Alex a hug and tell her I will see her later. I don't want to tell her anything. I feel so fucking stupid for not seeing it before. Looking Sr the house I know they're in there. When I got off the plane my phone blew u with messages from them all.
I couldn't bring myself to read them.
It's a.dark night and is rain isn't taking time to come down. The wind is forceful and combined with the rain it's as if it's expression how I feel. I hear thunder erupt making me slightly jump. It's going to be one hell of a storm.
I pull open the door and get out.
The rain hits me and I close my eyes just feeling it. It's battering on me as I'm open my eyes making my way up the steps. I'm going to confront them about what I found out but first, there's something I've got to do. I drop my bag at the front sorry and walk up the steps and go to my room and open it. Making a point to bang the door when I walk in I head straight to the stairs and make my way to my room.
The house is quiet but I'm not fooled. I know they're down there waiting for me. Do they know I know.? Did they no I would've found out when I went over?.
Opening my room I close it over and walk.right to my bed. Pushing my hand under my mattress I grab what I've come here for.
Taking it out I Park myself on the floor and cross my legs.
It's the letter Scott gave me. I never read because I didn't want to hear his Excuses but now? Now I need to know.
I take a deep breath and rip open the envelope and you'll out the letter. I begin to read.
*hey bird
Your eighteen can you believe it.?
I know you probably don't want to hear it and are still angry at me but Keira I'm so fucking sorry.
After you left I went to a dark place that I couldn't get out of. I know no amount of words is going to change what happened but Not everything is what it seems bird.
Yes I did sleep with another woman but it's naw what you think
That fucktard brother of yours told me to.
He told me if I didn't do something to make you hate me he would go to the police and tell them me and you where sleeping together.
We both ken the truth and since you where only fifteen I was scared.
The judge hates me. I've been up so many times one more and I was fucking going to jail.
I would be named a beast and I couldn't handle that baby
I thought if I took the fucking money you would forget all about this shithole and hopefully make something of yourself. When you phoned me and asked me for that fucking ticket my heart nearly broke Keira.
But bird I can't do it anymore. I miss you so much everything reminds me of you. I canny look up at the sky without feeling like I've let you down and wanting to cry. I miss our talks. I miss watching tv with you. I miss everything.
I've been getting sober Keira I'm a year the day.
You dinny know but you were on video call to Lee and I happened to be there that night and it was your laugh. Your laugh made me realize just how much I fucked up.
After that, I decided I needed to be the man you need me to be. I've gotten sober and funny enough I got a job.
It's only a bit of gardening I'm doing but I'm enjoying it and I'm saving my money for when you come home.
I don't even smoke anymore Keira I want to be worthy of you baby.
I'm going to come to you. I'm gonna buy the plane ticket I should have bought you in the first place and I'm gonna come and get you back.
Your eighteen now. No one can stop us.
I and you against the world remember? I'll be there soon and I hope you will still want me. I hope and pray to God you want me to because bird I'm naw gonna give up.
Your everything to me. Always have been.
I love you and I just hope you still love me too.
And I hope I'm not too late.
Love your gypsy boy.
Scott.*
Oh my God. I full-on cry and hold the letter or my chest.
Why didn't I open it? If I did I would have known the truth.
Looking up at the picture of me and my dad I start crying harder. The pain of sadness starts to leave and anger as I've never felt before rushes through me.
Those two fucking pricks took everything from me.
I'll never forgive them for this.
This is the final straw this is what Lucas meant in the study, They knew I couldn't forgive them if I found out,
Did Lucas ever really care about me?.
Wiping my face I stand up put down the letter and open my fucking room door. They might have thought they seen me angry before, but They have no idea what's coming. I shut my room door before making my down the fucking stairs.
I take my time walking. I know where there going to be. I saw Lucas's car outside so I know he's here too.
I walk towards the living room hearing them talking.
Gritting my teeth it takes every fiber of my being not to run in there and hit them with anything I can get. I inhale a breath and let it out before walking in.
Lucas and Thomas are standing at his bar in a private discussion. Mum is on the couch staring directly at the wall with a drink in front of her.
When they hear me approach they all stop and look up at me.
No one talks and the atmosphere grows fence.
they must know I know because mum turns her eyes away and looks back towards the window.
Moving my eyes from her I look directly at Thomas and Lucas.
I glare at that them with so much hatred that I can feel it Seeping out my bones.
I walk slowly towards my mum picking up her drink and downing it in one go. The bitter taste of whisky burns my throat. Still, no one talks and the room gets more intense.
Putting down the glass I step back.
"Who wants to go first." I bite out gritting my teeth.
"You know." says Thomas as a fact.
I just nod head and turn my eyes, Lucas.
I tilt my head to the side and tell them.
"Do you know Scott's dead?"
They didn't answer just stare at me.
"I never got a chance to talk to him I was too late." I say emotion clogging my voice.
Finally, Thomas moves around the bar and comes to stand next to my mum who still hasn't moved.
"You weren't supposed to find out." he answers.
"and that makes it better does it.?" I ask raising an eyebrow.
He shakes his head before continuing.
"I know how it must look Keira, but listing to me when I tell you it was for your own good."
"Don't Thomas or should I say Tommy boy, "I sneer at him.
He swallows before rubbing his hand up and down his face,
"I'm sorry."
"Your sorry?" I ask shock and angry coating my voice, the Calm composure I had finally snaps.
How fucking dare he.
"SORRY DOESNT BRING MY DAD BACK DOES IT." I scream at him.
"I didn't think he would have done that Keira-"
"WHAT DO YOU THINK WOULD HAPPEN! YOU CAN NOT BE THAT FUCKING S
Lucas moves and makes his way over next to Thomas.
"Keira listen-"
"AND YOU" I tell him pointing my finger.
"Your worse than him, You promised you would never lie to me, Lucas. Was this all a big Scheme from the start? Is this why you fucked me in the first place? Not wanting me find out your little secret. Just so i wouldn't go back home? HOW COULD YOU?!" I scream feeling the tears build up, Lucas eyes widen and he move towards me,
"Keira no. I swear to you everything between me and was the truth I would never have done that."
"How could you do this to me." I cry to him.
"Keira-"
"No" I shout at them, "Its your fault he's dead!! I only wanted to visit I just wanted to talk to him. I knew he was going to do this. I fucking told you all! And yet, you wouldn't let me go!!!"
They don't talk. They know what I'm saying is the truth.
"I NEVER GOT TO SAY GOODBYE THE SAME WAY I NEVER WITH MY DAD BECAUSE YOU ALL ROBBED ME OF THAT!."
I start crying harder I feel so betrayed from them. Lucas takes a few more steps, " DONT you fucking dare.! You might not have handed him the bullet but you gave him the fucking gun.!"
I try and calm myself down but it's no use, anger pain, sadness are hitting me all at once and I have no idea how to console it.
I turn back to Thomas and I look him in the eye,
"You never cared about me any of you. If you love somebody as you all claim to love me you would have fought for me, You can't buy me Thomas, I'm not fucking property. I was just an investment to you lot. THE ONLY MAN WHO EVER LOVED ME IS DEAD. HE WAS EVERYTHING TO ME HIM AND SCOTT BUT NOW?" waving my arms I look back at them.
"Now what do I have huh. I was greeving to much to ever think about, How could I have been so stupid.?"
"keira it wasn't like that. " says Thomas.
"Oh really.? Then how was it huh, you paid him cash for me Thomas. If it wasn't for you he would still be alive!"
"I did what I thought was best-"
"Best? Fuck you Thomas." I spit at him. Mum stands up and tries to talk to me, "Keira baby listing-"
"You knew didn't you? That's why you tried so hard to keep me at the hotel you knew something was wrong?"
When They don't say anything I pick up the closest thing next to me which happens to be a vase and throw it at the wall causing the avse to smash all over the floor.
"HE WAS MY FATHER.!
"You knew this would happen I cant believe after everything you would do this to me" I say pointing to Lucas.
"You took my dad and you took Scott from me."
Looking at Lucas I can see the guilt flash in his face but This lying piece of shit has fucked me over for the last time.
"I'm leaving, I'm eighteen you have no right to keep me here anymore."
"keira please let's just sit and talk about this.."
Thomas tries to say.
"TALK,TALK!!!" I scream again
"The time for talking is over, go and take a good long fuck of yer self you bastard."
Turning my eyes to Lucas I point my finger right at him, "I loved you, it's a true saying Lucas when they say the lines between love and hate are blurred And I promise you now, I hate you with everything I have. Don't you ever come near me again." I tell him.
"Princess please-"
When he says that I scream and rip off the necklace he give me and throw it at him.
"Fuck you." I shout turning around walking away, Reaching the door I pick up my bag and head outside, "Keira wait-" shouts mums but I don't turn around.
"If you leave me keria you won't get anything from us,"
I pause and turn to look at her.
"If you leave you will not get the apartment, I won't pay for college and you will not get any money or your car back." mums crying as she says this and inahve to refrain from rolling my eyes, Thomas and Lucas come to stand beside her.
Looking at the three of them I feel so betrayed by what they did, I trusted them and they took it, spat, kicked and completely fucked it.
"Mum," I say to her walking backwards from them "stick your car up to your cunt you fucking slag,
I don't need you I never did. You all deserve each other." I turn around and stay walking away down the drive leaving The pain, the heartache, and the sadness behind me.
I never needed them. They Try shout after me but I don't answer. Nothing will be the same after this, I used to ask my dad Where do birds go?. He said they left to go somewhere better.
I guess now we will see.
The end....??