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Mamahalin kaya niya ako ng totoo kapag nalaman niyang may sakit ako? Kapag nalaman niyang may taning na ang buhay ko at bilang na lang ang oras sa mundo?
Mamahalin kaya niya ako kahit hindi magiging kompleto ang pamilya namin dahil hindi ako pwedeng magkaanak?
Magiging fairy tale kaya ang mga natitirang oras ko sa nag-iisang taong tinaggap ako ng buo?
Maikakasal kaya ako sa kanya kahit 'yon na ang huling natitirang araw ko? ... :(
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Have you ever asked yourself which hurts the most...
Saying something wishing you had not or saying nothing wishing you had?
And have you ever wondered..
What if good thing last forever do we still appreciate how precious it is?
If you ask me that, well, my life is short so I have to do good things that will still exist even I am not, that people will still remember even if they've forgotten me.
I live life as if everyday is my last day because I am about to die in no exact time...
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Tomorrow, when the shimmering sun light devours half of the blue world, the world of brilliant different shades, the side where we are, I will be waking up in the morning with bliss and excessive joy in my heart. Tomorrow, when I open the windows of my passionately loving soul, I am sure that happiness will embrace me so tight. Tomorrow will be my wedding, my much awaited and grand fairy-tale-themed wedding.
That is what every lady dreamt of, to walk leisurely down the aisle, be the most beautiful lady of the day wearing a lovely long wedding gown together with the man she absolutely loves vow in front of God Almighty.
My adored parents already set everything for me, from the myriad fragrant flowers, expensive golden ring, fashionable gown, secret reception and they said they have a great surprise for me.
I couldn't wait the sun to shine abruptly in the perfect horizon. I want to marry the man whom I really love, whom I want to spend my time for the rest of my short sick life together with our complete family and have a very perfect happy ending like what a fairy tale should always end.
But I still don't know if I can make it to walk down the aisle, hear his I do, taste his first kiss and wear the ring he promised...
All the sweet and bitter memories I had with him before they set our wedding are still fresh inside my mind. But I dont know if we can still add happy moments to those cherished memories.
Before I fell asleep tonight and close my eyes under the millions of shining and twinkling stars, I wanna reminisce everything that makes my life a true fairy tale...
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