The author of this novel has a problem with how to make things done correctly. He could not write a novel properly and his mind wasn't could not imagine the scenery. The environment where he was living wasn't a good place to write as he was hearing loud noises from his neighborhood and he couldn't stop them so he decided to write every mid-night where people were asleep.
Now, his skills have been damaged due to his lack of sleep, and decided to change his sleeping time as he wanted to write even more. Because of that, he hardly thought about any story anymore and decided to put down the pen and let go of everything he wanted to write.
His story was full of mystery where magic involved in science and God and Goddesses involved also. This story would have a sequel that also involved magic but in a secret way where the MC doesn't know what magic is and he was doing magic without knowing about it.
It was a few months ago when the story was half-finished but he accidentally deleted it after he thought that clearing data on Microsoft office at his mobile would delete all the stories he spent 3 months of hard work and researching.
He was tired of all those mistakes and wanted to take a break or may he would discontinue his stories because of his failure.
He did fail multiple times as he doesn't have enough knowledge of how to write a story properly and he even sacrifices his routine just to develop his skill.
He did everything, but having social media and games stopped him from doing things like he did before. He was passionate about making stories but these barriers stop him from doing it. It was also why he couldn't think properly.
Due to the lockdown, he doesn't want to repeat the same routine as he kept doing. He felt that he trapped himself in the time loop where the only ending was death. Like he trapped himself in the darkroom, yet he just wanted to be outside with a peaceful noise and only the sound of the rustling leaves he wanted to hear, not the voices of those people who always talk about useless and negative things that he doesn't want to hear anymore. He was tired.
Only writing stories just made him different. But everything changed when his parents doesn't support him.
He doesn't want anything but a support, but his parents didn't show any. They just smile and said, "At least you had a dream" then turn their back. He expected that they would encourage him to do it.
He asked for something he wanted like digital piano or a violin but his parents thought it was weird and they wanted to flow like how society works.
Everything that happened comes to his mind that he wanted to be different. Having long-term depression didn't make him jump on the cliff or hanging his neck at the ceiling. It just made him lonely that he always felt alone even though he was with others. He just wanted to get everything he wanted that it would likely become his skill then turn it into a dream.
He did get a phone but never wanted to have one. In the end, his parents just followed what they heard from people instead of giving their ears to him. That made him tired.
He will now be focusing on reading so he could learn how to write and letting all the people around him do whatever they wanted. He just lives in the wrong society and the wrong family after all. Having an Introverted mind made everything a lot worst than ever.
I don't know if people would read this text. No one even cares about it anyway. He just uploaded this for no reason.
This pandemic made him realized how sad society is.
You will now close this chapter and thank you for your time reading it.
He hoped that he could change everything he doesn't want to repeat like a ticking clock.