Evan took the shirt from Luci's hand without making a sound, went to the bathroom without making a sound. He splashed his body with water without making a sound too. His mind was filled with uncertainty about his feelings.
'Why am I like this? Why do I sometimes want her (Luci) but in an instant I want to fortify myself too? What do I want?'
His mind wandered far away. Evan had put himself in the hands of events that hurt him decades ago.
'Women will always hurt me. I shouldn't have approached women.'
Water flew along with Evan's weakness which was currently urging him to take the right steps. Did he need to step up and approach Luci, or did he have to quit immediately and leave her?
'I want to be close to her but on the other hand, I don't want to be next to her. And strangely I get angry if she has a relationship with another man. But that doesn't mean I want to have a relationship with her.'
