He chose me to be the silence that dangles between your characters
Commissioned me as a spell that shouldered all your destiny
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Usman Arrumy
*****
A few hours earlier ...
This time it was bright. The sun was shining brightly without a barrier in front of view. The breeze made the girl's hair flutter like a model to be photographed. Step by step he did. His right hand carried a tootbag containing a jacket. She did make an appointment with a man beforehand. Apparently the person he was waiting for hadn't arrived yet
Avisa looked around the area in case the man she was referring to had been waiting for her. However, the result was none. And when he swept the entire area with his gaze he found a figure that was both heartrending and so long to him. In an instant he forgot how to breathe. His chest felt very tight. Pilu immediately came over to him. Stinging, happy, restless all mixed up together. His tongue felt dry. Even lips can only be silent And in the end only tears could speak.
The seconds continued. The person he had been staring at had not done the same to him. Even though he missed that look. She missed her laughter, her smile, her jokes, and her pranks. But right now there was nothing he could witness from these things from that man. All he could do was look at her and continue to stare at him from a distance.
Avisa forgot the last time she talked to that figure. She really missed him. Avisa really didn't think why that figure was here. Though he shouldn't be here. But he was grateful that he could be given the opportunity to see her even if only once.
Tears are still loyal to accompany Avisa. Actually it's not a sob there, just a tear that flows because it can't be stopped. He tried to step his feet towards the man. But it turned out to be just an intention. Before he could really take a step from where it was originally, someone had first stolen his step.
"Avisa you were here, I was ..."
The man had not had time to finish his words because Avisa had already made him stunned.
"What is wrong with you?" asked the man again.
"I am alright."
Avisa tried to neutralize her mood again. Especially now that there is Daffa in front of him, of course he doesn't want to continue like this. They did make an appointment here. In the park. Not a promise to go on a date but only to return the man's jacket which had been stained from the previous ice cream.
The attention that had been fixed on the figure of the man who was able to crush his heart in an instant was diverted. When he was about to see the man again, he was not even there. Even though he was sitting on a chair that looked more like a rock. Maybe he was just hallucinating. He just missed that figure a little. Or even really miss that figure.
"Sorry, I just came because I had some business."
Daffa didn't want to extend the story even though in fact she had been waiting quite a long time in the park. It's just that he was a little pity to see Avisa's condition, which was found in a crying state. In fact, he actually came with Vincent earlier. But because he couldn't wait so he left first.
"Yes, it's okay. This is your jacket. It's clean and smell good"
Said Avisa in a tone that was a little nervous.
"Yes, thank you. Sorry for being troublesome for you"
"No. This is all because of me hehe ..." this time Avisa showed a smile, although still a little forced.
"After this you want to go straight home or go where?"
"Go straight home because there is a little work that hasn't been completed"
"Oh ok. Want me to take you home ??" said Daffa with a tone full of confidence.
"No need, it's cloudy after all and it looks like it's going to rain soon."
Avisa is not lying, the weather is indeed cloudy and it will be raining soon. Just like the mood.
"Okay, please. Be careful and sorry for not being able to take you home" There was a little bad feeling there, but Daffa also couldn't force it. Especially considering that girl's condition earlier.
"ok"
"once again I thank you, Avisa"
"Yes, you're welcome"
No more words after that. Daffa only saw the girl who was getting away from him. At first he wanted to invite the girl to drink coffee first before sending her home. But it turned out that the girl had business too so there was nothing she could do after that.
Meanwhile, Avisa itself is running like no purpose. That figure just kept dancing in his mind. As if you don't want to leave there. Everything really tastes mixed up. At first he was happy because he could see that figure after a long time without seeing him. Even though he only stared at him from a distance but it was already enough to treat a little nostalgia. Feelings of sorrow were also present there. And tears represent lips that can only be silent.
Now here it is. Under a black cloud that is no longer cloudy because raindrops have set foot on the surface of the earth. Simultaneously with the dropping of tears camouflaged by rainwater. Shadows of the past also sneaked into his mind after being lost for so long. Maybe it wouldn't hurt if he was like this for a while. Contemplated for a moment. Regretting past mistakes as well as lamenting himself. Even though he didn't really want to. Yes, I really don't want to.
*****
The morning air was soothing to the soul. The coldness was so piercing that it reached the ribs. But that did not prevent Lintang from getting up earlier this time. The hour hand was still pointing at the number four but he was able to open his eyes. Even though usually at this time most people still hide under thick blankets. But not with Latitude. He's a different man from the others.
Actually, he woke up early not without reason. The day before he planned to see the sunrise this morning. There is a little longing tucked into the word sunrise. Who else if not because of someone in his past. Indeed, this is something that is a little hard to forget even though it has been eaten by time but the taste never runs out.
By walking all kinds of places he passed until it was not felt that he was now on the beach. It was still so dark. Even the stars and the moon are still present on the roof of the earth. Currently Lintang can only sit on the white sand while waiting for the dawn to come to see him. Although only accompanied by sky jewelry and beaches and everything in it.
Slowly the dawn began to show its form. An orange tinge began to decorate the roof of the earth. The scenery on the beach looks even more beautiful. And what caught his attention the most was a silhouette that looked like the silhouette of a girl wearing a long dress and as wide as her shoulders. Her hair looks long and is left untied.
If usually the person's shadow looks smaller because it is getting farther away, but this time it's the opposite. The silhouette looks bigger and looks like it's getting closer to Lintang. Latitude's guess that that person is a girl is indeed true. Until finally the girl was standing right in front of him with his back to the sunrise.
"can I accompany you?"
The girl spoke to him. And the voice reminded him of someone. Someone who has long disappeared.
At first Lintang did not know who this girl was because her face turned back to the light. But when he began to sit beside Lintang, his face began to be touched by the sunlight whose presence was still narrowing. He was really surprised not to play. His gaze turned sad. There is a longing tucked in there. The feeling of wanting to do the same thing as before. But all of that is really difficult to guess. Or even difficult to do.
"this time I want to accompany you to witness one of the natural beauties that are not always there."
Latitude was still frozen and he managed not to say a word. He was confused about what to say because there were so many questions in his heart. Until he could only let the girl beside him talk again and again.
"Sorry because I disappeared from your life. Leaving you with false shadows. And sorry if I can't explain everything. I'm confused where to start because there are so many question marks." said the girl at length.
"Enough. You've been talking too much"
This time Lintang was sick of hearing all the words of the girl until he finally joined the conversation. The girl's expression was shocked. Even his eyes looked even more sad.
"Let me talk this time. Even though I'm actually confused about what I want to ask because there are so many I want to ask you." said Lintang in an increasingly low tone.
"But one thing I know for sure. Until now my feelings for you are still the same as before. And I really miss you."
Lintang is getting hurt by his own words. Meanwhile, the hdis was no less injured. In fact, he even shed tears. A moment of silence enveloped the two of them before finally the girl faced him and hugged him so tightly as if he didn't want to lose the figure of Lintang who had become his lamp at that time. Lintang returned the hug as if he didn't want to lose the girl again. And again silence enveloped the two of them.
Several minutes passed. The girl let go of the hug and fixed the man in front of her for a moment.
"Lintangg..."
Lintang stared at the girl even deeper, even though there was actually a little disappointment there.
"There is something I want to show you."
"What???"
"but not now."
"then??"
"tomorrow. Here. At the same time."
Lintang just nodded before finally the two of them returned to watching the sunrise and also before the girl left before him.