I would love to believe that I am playing with fire, but then I need to remind myself that Isabella is not present in my life anymore. Yes, it does still bring a sting to my heart, but it also makes my heart feel at ease that I am allowed to feel something for Caylee. What? I do not know.
Some would say it is rebound, and others say it is lust. For most at camp, it is something to tease the Lieutenant over. Whichever it is, I simply cannot get enough of her. When I think of her, the feeling I do feel is…my heart hurts, but it hurts in a good way. Have I opened that box completely?
Not yet…but god do I wish I could.
We have kept whatever it is that is developing between us a rather great secret; in a way, I am back to keeping secrets again, but this, well, this is one that I enjoy keeping. I know that our relationship, well, if it is at that stage yet, but I know that it shall come out sooner or later.
