Frizabelle
Friday – Night
The dinner was a bit awkward but at the same time it's a little bit weird because of the intense remarks from each party that were present in the dining table. But it was immediately changed when we all heard Ceres suddenly played my violin which everyone enjoyed. Everyone started to loosen up a little and made the dinner full of laughter but as it ended, the adults went to the study room to talk privately that left us to do the cleaning. As we kept cleaning, I noticed that Ceres wasn't around which made me try to look for her but my sister won't let me ditch the cleaning duty tonight. I groaned from it and continued cleaning but in the middle of my cleaning, I began to hear my father's voice talking to them.
"So, tell me what was your real reason to visit us?" My Dad asked with his Alpha voice that ringed in my ears.
"Well, I'm not here to argue but I'm just here to take my granddaughter with us." Corner said with firmness that made me worried.
"Grandfather, do you think I would?" Ceres asked her grandfather with calmness.
"Of course, if you take your mate with you." Corner chuckled like he knew that Ceres would agree if I came with her.
"OF COURSE YOU CAN'T!" Dad shouted.
"Alpha...Grandfather, be honest with me, does it have something to do with the succession?" Ceres hushed Dad then turned to ask her grandfather.
"The council still wants you." He answered.
"You really want me dead, do you?" Ceres chuckled but no response from him.
They were so quiet.
"Grandfather, please tell me honestly everything about the reason you came to visit me." Ceres sighed with her pleading tone that made me feel pain.
"Celestial, your grandfather just wanted to see if you were doing great under the wing of the wolves. Also, there's the council issues that they still wanted you to be part of the council. As well, him." Corner's wife answered for her husband who kept quiet - I think.
"Him?" Ceres confused like she wasn't sure if they were talking about the same guy.
Just thinking of it, it pissed me off and wanted me to butt-in into their conversation.
"Soon he will visit this pack to settle things for you." Corner said like he doesn't want to talk anymore.
"But I've got the feeling I won't be meeting him anything soon since he was the Alpha King." Ceres chuckled.
"Busy as always." Dad chuckled on how workaholic our Alpha King was.
Their conversation went on and on that made my mind really hurt. It really made me feel so dizzy and the good thing that we've finished cleaning even though my mind was elsewhere.
'Better to stop doing eavesdrop, my queen.'
"Whatever." I said irritated that I almost spilled the cold water that I'm drinking when she suddenly whispered through our link.
After having a private conversation at Alpha's office, her grandparents thanked us for the decent dinner and warm welcome to the pack then they went home safely. I went to my room to get some rest because of the cleaning stuff that we did at the dining room at the kitchen. I was totally exhausted but inside my room, I suddenly sneezed and heard Ceres beautiful voice. It caught my attention since I never realized that she was already inside and singing at my veranda.
I never felt alone
I was happy on my own
And who would ever know
There was something missing
I guess, I didn't see the possibility
It was waiting all the time
But it never crossed my mind
Till you opened up my eyes
Now, all I think about is
You in my life, in my dreams
In my heart, I know it's true
That I belong with you
Because of you in my world
In my arms, I have everything and now
I can't imagine what I'd do
Without you, you
I listened carefully to Ceres, in every word she sang I felt what she wanted to say and through this song entitled You by Jim Brickman and Tara MacLean, I know her heart wasn't just broken anymore instead it was already healed and her soul was slowly coming back to life.
I never thought that love would be
Such a curiosity
What attracted you to me
Was so unexpected
But it was waiting all the time
And it never crossed my mind
'Til you opened up my eyes
Now, all I think about is
You in my life, in my dreams
In my heart, I know it's true
That I belong with you
Because of you in my world
In my arms, I have everything and now
I can't imagine what I'd do
Without you, you
Frankly speaking, I really don't know if I'm worthy of her love but hearing those words that she emphasized while singing, it really resonated in my heart which suddenly made my tears begin to fall. I might not really fully understand why my feet began to run to where she was standing and hold her dearly close to me. I don't care if I'm facing her back right now from this hug. I just want to hold her closer.
I sniffed as I tried to control my tears that were soaking her wash-white polo while thinking if I really do deserve her like what her grandmother told me at the dinner. Like am I even allowed to have feelings for a vampire? Or even allowed to feel such security and protection coming from her? The only girl who came to our pack territory in her bloody wedding dress and ready face death. The girl who made my world upside down with her irritating scent and the only girl who let me be 'me' as twisted as I can be. Can I even have a desire to have her only for me? Am I worthy to keep her in my heart? Can I be the person she could feel at home? Am I the other half that her heart longs for? Or be the queen of her life until our last breath even if there's a huge age gap between us? Can I even share that passionate love of being her wife? Am I even worthy enough to love her with everything I had and soon to have? Can I just simply love her without asking for any return? Or can I just stop asking too many questions and just go with the flow of my feelings for her? But not at all. Too many bugging thoughts kept my mind occupied which led me to have tons of fears that most of the time also led to tears. My heart couldn't keep up with those thoughts which made me break down and be in my emotional state. I can't breathe. I want her just to be mine alone. I want to claim her. I love her so dearly though I never thought I could.
Then I never realized that I collapsed and went to the dream world.
Everything was in flash. It was so fast that I couldn't even think if this scenery already happened or whatsoever until it was blocked out in silence, cold and lonely.
"Lena?" I called my wolf as I wondered endlessly within my dark dream.
But there's no reply. I shivered from the coldness until I felt the heat coming below me. My feet were burning? No it wasn't. But my feet were covered with hot-blood like it was fresh blood and I don't get it where this blood came from or to whom. I ran aimlessly until I tripped on my own foot then a metal scent hit my nose. It's blood again and this time it wasn't just on my feet but I'm also drenched with it. I was indeed confused on what's going on. My dream wasn't like this, is it?
I walked with guard up and my senses were heightened. I looked around and still no light to be found except for blood on the ground that made me wonder where it came from. It's too dark and slowly the darkness was eating my whole body like I was starting to vanish from the darkness but I kept walking somewhere. I don't mind the darkness was consuming me very much alive. Slowly, my movement was getting slower and barely even breathing. I'm not tired but my feet can't go any longer that made me snapped from this dreamland that I'm in. I screamed so loud from my diaphragm then collapsed on the ground though I didn't know if I fell on it then passed out again.
As I opened my eyes, I saw something familiar scenery. The setting was the lake near the house pack but the moon here was really lovely and it shone brightly like a sun but not too much. I was lost just by looking at the view until a clicking sound surprised me. I turned around and saw a beautiful lady with such perfectness on her appearance; perfect curves, perfect wavy night hair, perfect face and her eyes were so calming silver grey that made her look lost in them. The lady chuckled. Her giggling was lovely from my hearing.
"Happy on what you're seeing in front of you my young wolf?" she spoke with her alluring voice like it was cradling me to sleep.
"Who you might be?" I asked as I tried to look around.
"I am whatever you wanted to call me but Moon was my domain and I hear you plead." She replied smilingly to me that made me smile back.
She's the moon goddess; I noticed it when I heard 'Moon was my domain.'
"If you are wondering why you're here, it was simply you are broken with fear, my young wolf. Only a few things I'm going to say to you…" she started that made me listen carefully to her loving voice.
"…never regret loving someone who was giving their best to win one's heart. Just let it flow till the heart begins to cry for that person." She said with such a riddle in her message but I get what she meant yet I still don't get why she said that to me.
Then everything came back. I gasped from lack of air while Ceres, hugging me in such a worried state. She almost broke me from her tight hug.
"Ceres, what happened? I had this nightmare. I could see anything then blood everywhere. I'm so scared." I panicked within her tight hug as I recalled only some fragments from my dream.
"It's just a nightmare, I'm here, always." Ceres hushed me and cradled me within her arms while hymning some melody then I fell asleep again.
Ceres
I knew she was in the room while I was singing my heart to the moon which led her from hugging me. I knew she felt it. She felt every word I am trying to say to her but what next surprised me. I could hear her thoughts asking non-stop questions like she was doubting her feelings for me or even asking if she was worthy for me. It hurts me to hear them but what do you expect since every person wondered about it as well. When some of their imperfect residing and hidden inside suddenly began to show up in front of the person you ever love, you began to ask yourself about those things. Even though I wanted to ease those questions she was asking herself, she was the only one who could battle it. I would stand still beside her and wait for her, always.
But her grip suddenly loosen up which made me turn and caught her in my arms. She fainted from thinking and exhaustion. I took her to her bed for her to rest. I was enjoying myself watching her sleep when she began to shiver. I covered ourselves but something was getting off inside her head which made me take a peek inside of her dream. She was having a nightmare and that was her fear of losing someone very important to her - me. She was lost in the dark all by herself but she kept going towards nowhere until she broke down as those darkness consumed her. I was hurting seeing her in pain which led me to plead to the Moon.
I didn't care if it cost me something in the future but Frizabelle was all I care about right now. As the Moon Goddess appeared to her, she was like talking to me but not. She was comforting Frizabelle while looking at me as well, she could see me beside Frizabelle but my mate couldn't see or even feel my presence beside her. As always, the Moon gave riddles but an easy one to understand. She helped me with those riddles of hers when I was lost which I didn't want to happen to my lovely mate. When they were done talking, the Moon faced me with a warmed smile.
"Finally, you showed up. Take good care of your second heart and soul." She told me then in reality, I hugged Frizabelle who woke up catching her breath from her nightmare.