Frizabelle
Tuesday – Morning
7:15am
Simple and same daily routine happened to me within the house aside from seeing Ceres on my bed and still asleep but lifeless. I sighed since she still wasn't making any movement or even flinched when I licked her forehead.
"I hope you wake up...cause if not...I'll leave you for good. You won't see me anymore or even hear them. Those words you wanted to hear from me." I sadly warned her which I would do if she doesn't wake up any time today.
Even though I wanted to enjoy my drive with my motorbike, Dark, I can't; not something was bothering in my heart. As I reached the school, I parked my Dark at the usual spot before going straight to my locker. I didn't let those stares from some students who knew me from being late or sneaking around just to get inside the school building bothered me. I just opened my locker, then took my first to second class notes and put them to my partially empty bag. I just masked myself since I knew that I was acting differently because I am not an early-bird but here I am in our morning class. I just came to school too early to forget even just for a bit what happened at home because if I recall them out of the blue, I'll be definitely sighing or groaning out of the blue.
"I hope she's fine…" I thought as the class began which I didn't even try to listen to.
'She will…'
When I heard that worried tone from Lena, I suddenly felt a little pain in my chest for some odd reason but I didn't bother to think of it much more since I still have classes to attend to. But even when I attended them, my mind always drifted to where Ceres was. I was feeling uneasy to be honest which I never realized that it was already lunch.
12:30 nn – Lunch hour
Nothing changed and it was the same old story apart from the meal that I didn't touch. It's not that I'm not hungry or what but I'm not in the mood for one. It was like there was something missing from eating this meal and it was making my feel so hollow.
"Guys, see you around." I sadly excused myself from our table which I knew that they were worried about my sudden gloom but they never asked. They just nodded and I left them to finish theirs since I don't want to make their lunch so sour as my mood was.
I was strolling around the school which I knew every student was in their classes while some were in the cafeteria, so nobody would bother me if I stroll aimlessly. But not for too long when I ended up at the front of a glass door of an unused garden. I opened it and I was surprised that the place was very well treated. The garden might have a glass door that connects the school building's hallway but it was still open, meaning, it was connected to the sports field, parking and to the woods. I was grateful for how well maintained those different kinds of flowers that surround a black steel table and two pairs of chairs.
"Is this a tea garden?" I asked myself as I went closer and let myself relax even just for a moment.
I was relaxed and at ease but when my mind drifted to a certain person, the hollowness clouding inside my heart was beginning to stir some pain. A kind of pain that could make me hard to breath which led me to worry about her condition. I wanted to know her condition by this time but I can't just simply ditch my remaining classes which made me think of my mother.
"Mom, can you check Ceres, please." I privately linked my mother who just agreed to my favor since I knew that she could feel my uneasiness.
'Honey, she's still sleeping on your bed.'
"Oh okay...but Mom, if something came up please tell me…" I almost sounded like I was pleading which my mother agreed then the link was cut off.
"Mom was there. Don't worry much." I convinced myself though I know deep within me I just can't, even though I'm still irritated over her scent.
I was trying to relax once again but Lena suddenly whimpered which made me jump from the chair and run off from the school ground. I might not understand what I am feeling but I must go home as fast as I can. I know I must drive my motorbike but I didn't. Instead, I ran off to the woods that was near to where I am earlier. I was running with my human feet which made Lena at the edge and I didn't care as well whether I was caught or not. I shifted into my wolf Lena.
"Yume, get my shattered clothes near the unused garden next to the sports field. I'm off to the pack house." I mind linked Yume who I think jolted from my sudden report at her.
'Reckless, Princess.'
"I don't have time to think of it. I must be with Ceres." I honestly told her as I kept running to our pack house.
'What?! What happened to her?'
"I don't know yet that's why I have to come home." I replied before I cut the link since I was nearing our pack house.
1: 10 pm
As I reached the front porch of our house, I noticed that everything was so quiet apart from my mother was in the living room with the kids and the other mothers of the pack while my father was in the training field. I know I'm gonna be lectured from ditching school but Ceres was the only thing I could think of right now. I began to sniff the air as I walked toward the garden since up there it's where my room was. The air around the house was nothing different which made me shift back into my human form. I didn't even care for the time being that I'm nude as I jumped from the garden to my balcony window to check on her. When I reached my balcony window, she was still there on my bed sleeping and not moving again. Seeing that really pained me to the point I might break down and shattered into pieces. I don't like what I am seeing at all. I entered my room and lay my naked body next to her as I watched her closely. I stroked her cheek and felt how cold her skin was which made me notice that she was paler than last night. I felt the ache within my heart like it was being ripped off which led me on worrying her state. I don't want to lose her just yet.
"Please, Ceres…" I whispered as I tried to hide my tears but I can't.
As my tears kept falling onto my cheeks, I snuggled to Ceres chest as I didn't mind that I'm still nude since all I care about was the clouding pain brewing inside my heart. A kind of pain that I never thought would occur in my life, in my heart and it was because of Ceres. This pain was a fear of losing someone that greatly mattered to my heart which I tried to stop from jumping into but I still did. I'm in love with my mate, Ceres and I'm mad at myself from not telling her that I do. I stood off from the bed and aimlessly held something before throwing it elsewhere. It didn't stop just them as I trash everything that my hand got hold on to. I threw or even slammed anything in my hands until in my sight everything was turning into such blood and darkness then I shifted in my wolf form with madness revolving around me. I can feel the pain from Lena and mine being one but I was more mad at myself for not letting Ceres to understand reasons at first instead, I kept hurting from pushing her away from me. I screamed on the top of my lungs which Lena roared in choro. I let Lena keep on trashing our whole room with broken stuff scattered on the floor and claw marks on the walls which we both didn't care that it was bleeding. I just can't find my strength if I do lose her. I can't.
"Lena…make it stop…kill me...take over my body..." I thought as I cried as I gave up my entire existence. I felt the guilt around me and I can't take it if I lose Ceres.
'Losing her, life won't matter to me anymore, Friz.'
I heard Lena replied which made me - I mean us, cried as we kept ruining everything in my room apart from my bed where Ceres' body was lifeless. But then, a sudden slam of the door opened my room and saw my parents in shocked expression since they never saw me on the rampage especially within my room. As I looked at them with anger and pain, my father immediately stood up in front of my mother to defend her. I was about to attack them since I didn't care anymore even my father tried to reason with me but nothing happened though he used his alpha tone to me. I can't hear them clearly anymore since I was falling deeply into such madness which I knew to myself that I was falling into rogue. I was just an inch away from my father when I suddenly felt pain in my heart which made me shift back into human form. I was surprised by my sudden change but my claws were still intact and bleeding as well my fangs were still visible which was ready to bite anyone in my sight. Even my eyes were all I could see was pure dark red like blood and when I was about to strike my father once again, I suddenly felt a little jelly when two pointed and sharp fangs pierced onto my shoulder. I might whimper in pain but through this bite, it was calming me down. As it made me calmed down, my fangs retracted from showing off and those claws were back on being typical nails though it was still covered with my own blood. But what took my attention when a familiar voice echoed through my ears.
'Hurting your family won't fix everything.'
I cried again but those pain and madness were fading because she was here with me which made me happy that she was okay.
"Ceres…" I thought.
'Yes, the last time I checked. Miss me?'
I didn't reply to her comment but I smiled then she released her fangs from my shoulder which made me finally look at her. Ceres was really well and standing in front of me. My tears were still flowing out from my eyes which I can't help when she was totally well in front of me. The tone of her skin went back to its natural color and her eyes were still stunning as I remember which made me cup her face in impulse. From there, I finally felt the cold-warm temperature of hers that I'm used to and I love it. I was in my daze when she leaned to licked my shoulder that made me jolted and pushed her away.
"What the heck?!" I gasped from her gesture which she just chuckled like it was the fun thing to do. Tease me which I frowned.
"I just licked the reminding blood on your shoulder." She said as she kept on giggling on me.
"It will heal in no time." I was pissed off but she was smiling at me.
"Sorry but that bite was my permanent mark on you." She said which made my eyes widen about the meaning of her bite on my shoulder.
Ceres was just laughing her ass off which made me glare at her this time and slapped her big time. It didn't stop there since I punched her, slapping her face non-stop before I threw her to the clawed wall then down to the floor then to the bed. From what I did, I was totally exhausted. I panted.
"Ceres, I'll leave my daughter in your care." Dad said to Ceres not minding I was there within my room. I forgot that my parents were standing in awe by the door of my room.
Ceres nodded then they left us laughing to themselves. I just glared at her while I was panting on her top. She just lay there submissive and smirking at me. I sighed then slapped her face one last time and I collapsed on top of her.
"Don't make me worry like that." I said as I tried not to cry again.
"Sorry but I was in heat last night. So I tried to contain myself on the cold tub so I won't rape you." Ceres frankly said which made me blushed from it.
"Imagining things like that with me, its kinda turning me on." She teased like she could read my thoughts.
"I do. I could hear them because I marked you." She confessed which made me sat up from laying on her top before looking confused at her.
"Why can't I? That's unfair!" I pouted from 'reading thoughts' which made her laugh at me.
"You can silly, it's just that you don't dare to take a peek into my thoughts that's why you never heard any of it. But marking me and making me yours, it means everything I am will be yours too that includes my thoughts and my feelings for you." She frankly suggested that it made my eyes widen and blushed out of embarrassment.
I shook my head but she just laughed at me then she sit up to hug me. Oh my! Her arms…I missed these comforting arms.
Ceres giggled then she kissed her mark on my shoulder. I whimpered. She laughed. I frowned but she just kept on laughing. I sighed and smiled because I missed her voice – her laughing voice to be exact. Then I glanced on my shoulder to see what her mark looked like and when I saw it, it was a totally crescent moon on the center of the rose flower like what I saw within her soul – her heart.
"I thought it could have some wolf on it but nothing." I pouted as I thought about it which made Ceres chuckle and made me confused all of the sudden.
"My queen, my mark will change if we mate but as long you still don't want it, it will remain like this." She explained as she traced her mark on my shoulder that it made me shiver in a good way.
I pouted. There's no way I will, will I? Then she kissed it and it made me jolted as I felt something passionate run through my veins.
"Ceres?" I asked.
She just looked at me straight with everything she felt for me. I shivered and blushed from shyness. I can't meet her eyes but she took my chin to meet her gaze. As our gaze fixed onto each other, I could feel the rushing blood through my veins and it made me hot. All of the sudden I felt the heat surround us and I was in my panicked state. I don't know what to do. I was nervous and everything. Mixed emotions flooded my thoughts and my heart started to beat rapidly. I can't breathe enough air.
"I love you." She confessed to me while we stared at each other's eyes.
I sensed truthfulness within her words and such comfort that made me fragile. I sighed as I smiled at her. Then, she leaned closer to me as our lips brushed from each other for a second then inch apart. I took my time to breathe air then we kissed again but this time it was so passionate and deep. Kissing each other as our tongue entwined that made our hands held each other closer than before.
My heart was on adrenaline and I can't keep up but I like the feeling of her lips on mine. It was soft and loving sweet as I tasted the sweet chocolate with a touch of blood that I do hate but not now, it was purely sweet marshmallows and dark chocolate that balanced bitterness and the sweetness of her lips. I would never get tired of this taste. Bittersweet taste I like. I love it.
I love her.
But I was snapped from my thoughts and from our sweet atmosphere when I noticed that I was still nude and sitting on her lap. So close to each other and kissing - Oh shakes!
Ceres
On my slumber, I heard her coming into her room in an instant – I really made her worried. When she came from her balcony window, I was shocked to see her naked which meant that she shifted into her wolf because of me. On that thought, I was happy but she put herself in danger. I sighed but the feeling of her naked body against mine, really made me hot but when I heard her painful plea, it broke my heart even more. Especially when I heard Lena and her wanted to die because of me.
NO! NO! NO! I WON'T LET THAT HAPPEN!!!
I was pissed over that but she immediately shifted into Lena's wolf form and she was on the rampage. She ruined her room without care. The walls were full of scratches, mirrors, glasses were smashed into pieces, carpet, curtains, towels were torn into pieces and I was shocked at how she took my slumber in the wrong way – she was turning into rouge.
NO! NO! NO!
As her parents came in to stop her but I know they can't, only her mate can but the thought of me being dead was not going to help but was one thing that could save my queen. I must mark her permanently and I did. From there, I confessed what really happened to me and even confessed to her my feelings with the hope she will do the same but she just smiled at me. So, I took the liberty to kiss her even more as I took a peek onto her thoughts and clearly I heard it.
'I love her.'
From those three words, I was so happy and seriously head over heels over this wolf girl – my queen. But I was suddenly being slapped twice harder than earlier then she went to her bathroom which made me realize that she was naked when we were being sweet with each other. Dammit, next time I have to picture them through my mind.