Frizabelle
I just can't believe that my trusted friends won't even try to see or understand what I'm feeling toward the situation between me and my mate, Ceres. I slammed my hand on the table as I painfully glared at them then I stormed off to my music class. I could hear Yume calling for me since she was the only one who could tell if there was something bothering me each time I looked at her like that. But even so, I didn't answer or even looked back at them. I just left them there.
As I kept marching my feet on the lonely corridor toward my locker since I had to change my things in my knapsack first before heading to the music class. At the music room, I was expecting that Ceres would be here already but she wasn't even her shadow was nowhere to be found. I sighed heavily before dropping my bag on the floor near the piano. I just roamed around the room waiting for something to come inside the room but there was no one. I even thought that she was only getting late or something caught her time but it was already five minutes. I was getting bored when I took the liberty to play something even somewhere within me, in my heart that I was looking forward to hearing hers.
'You misses her.'
"Fuck! Don't suddenly whisper like that to my head." I jolted as I almost fell off from the piano's chair.
'Yeah, right.'
I didn't respond to her instead, i continued playing some random keys on the piano but there was something wrong which made me stop. I sighed to calm my nerves that were getting on the top of my chest then closed my eyes to relax a little as I let my fingers move on its own. I didn't even realize that I was already playing the melody entitled Moonlight by Yiruma. It was a good melody into my ears as I recalled my dreams with Ceres. I was indeed happy back there but who was she to me now? I was about to get some answers from my own feelings when I was interrupted by a pack linked from Yume.
'Ceres can't come to school. This is bad.'
As I heard that I immediately rushed out from the music room then out to the parking to get my Ducati, my dark. I don't understand it well but my guts are telling me that I have to rush back home as fast as I could. When I reached the house, I didn't even manage to park my motorbike since I was rushing to get inside the house. Inside, I saw Yume, Ethan, Nate with Mom and Dad in the living room in their heavy aura but they turned their heads to me in surprise. I was panting as I entered the house but I was more confused why they were being gloomy. I shook my head and about to head to my room but my Mom managed to stop me from my track.
"What is it now?" I groaned as I felt my temper was indeed kicking really hard which made me dizzy.
They were a bit shocked at what I just said but before my Dad could even preach me about my attitude, my Mom spoke.
"Baby, I saw her in your bed. She's fine." My mom soothed which made me breathe calmly. Mom led me to the couch at the living room and I can tell that they want to talk about something which includes me.
"Okay…what's going on?" I asked nervously as I broke the silence treatment around them.
"Honey, the mate thing was difficult to ignore but if you're going to reject your mate, try to be considerate on some aspects…" Dad said calmly. I wondered but somewhere within me didn't want to hear about it anymore.
"I don't get it." I said as I tried to ignore the uneasiness building in my chest like any moment I will burst. Mom held my hand to help me calm down but not much.
"To us, rejecting a mate wasn't easy but we can bear them with some anger issues but to vampires was different." Dad tried to explain but I still don't get what he's pointing out and my temper wasn't helping either.
"DAD!" I shouted as I stood up from my seat and about to go to my room but Mom spoke.
"Baby, I went up to your room to check her up – but I was stunned by what I saw…" Mom was about to cry which confused me even more.
"Mom…please tell me…" I was totally confused right now and my tears were about to fall down. Something in me needs to be in my room.
"Her soul has been shattered into pieces…" Mom said as she began to cry.
"SO?!" I madly asked which shocked them and sent my father in his furious state.
"FRIZABELLE! SHE'S YOUR MATE AND YOU ACT LIKE SHE WAS NOTHING! I DIDN'T TEACH YOU TO BE LIKE THAT TO YOUR MATE!" Dad used her alpha tone to me. I might have shivered over it but I stood my ground.
"I DIDN'T ASK HER TO BE MY MATE!" I bursted out which made my parents look dismayed at me.
I was crying. Agony. Pain. Confusion. Anger. I don't know anymore. But I was caught up to their actions as they hurried up stairs to my room.
"CERES!!!" they all shouted that made me run after them.
Inside my room, Mom was on the floor sobbing so hard, she can see what others can't see. My father tried to come closer to Ceres but Mom stopped him.
"No, don't. you'll die you come closer…" Mom said while crying.
Dad held my mother's arms to support her and they all stepped back apart from me. I took a peek into my room and saw nothing but Lena was in agony state. I glanced back at them with confusion and frightened about what's going on here.
"Baby, her soul was dying…" Mom said while her gaze on Ceres who was still lying on the bed not moving.
I chuckled like she was telling a joke but it faded as I kept watching mom not looking away from Ceres.
"…she's been suffering for 500 years ago. She already loses more than we could comprehend but she managed to pull herself back. I don't know how exactly but being through it, she started blocking everything around her until now…" Mom explained which exactly made Lena howled at the back of my head.
"…until she found you." Mom continued which made my jaw drop but more on my heart.
"Her soul was getting okay around you even though you were harsh to her but rejecting the soul of a vampire mate caused destruction." Mom said that made me look back at Ceres but she wasn't in my bed anymore. She was wide awake and standing in the middle of my room with such bloodthirsty red eyes.
I shivered not in the bad way but something good which I really didn't understand. Not to mention that the sun was already setting. Ceres growled which caught my attention and I just stood by the doorframe of my bedroom.
"C-Ceres…" I called her name like my heart does.
Hearing that, I could see that she flinched before she met my gaze. For a little while we were staring at each other's orbs and not even listening to everything that surrounds us. It was only us in the room. Out of blue my feet began to take a step even though they were against it. But I did it anyway. Ceres noticed my steps and glared at me like a prey to devour but I don't know why my heart was calming down. Like my gloom, my temper or even those aches in my chest were subsiding. I kept approaching her step by step and I didn't care if she was growling at me on her spot. When I was just a few inches away from her, I raised my hand to reach her face which made her take a step behind. I felt something twitched within my head and immediately let my hand touch her cold-warm cheek.
"Don't. Please. I won't do anything." I told her with such a calm voice. I don't know where it came from but I'm not afraid of her. In this fallen state of hers.
Her scent was still the same irritating to my nostrils with a little hint of rot but when I managed to cup her face it changed into something sweet. I can't explain it clearly but I can tell it was sweet, delicate and deadly dangerous for a mare human. I sighed as I smiled. I knew that she was going to make another step which I didn't let her, I went closer as I put my other hand to her face and caressed them. I seriously am not doing this to any stranger but with her, I think I would do that over again. I pulled her closer to meet my forehead and stared at her eyes intently. I don't care if she was growling over the stare but my heart felt so right by now. So calm which made me chuckle.
"This side of yours is new to me, so kindly…calm yourself." I said sweetly but she was emotionless so different from the Ceres we've known – I know. She still was growling so deep yet calmed.
"Ceres…I'm sorry…but I don't want to love you…" I said with my sorry tone which made her even madder at me.
"NO! Not that! It's not that I hate you or what…it's just you irritating me with your scent that made me push you away though my wolf was against it. But I was stubborn like her. Anyway…" I continued as our forehead was still touching each other then I sighed.
"I don't want to love you because of the influence of the mate thing. I want to love you as me and be loved by you as you…" I finished my explanation which was my heart really telling me from day one we met.
As she heard that from my own lips, Ceres suddenly collapsed on the floor like a lifeless body but not. I was surprised over that action. I worried about her condition.
"Ceres…" I was worried. She didn't respond or made any movements but her scent really does irritate me.
"Seriously, I hate your scent!" I irritatedly said which made me sit next to her and leaned on the edge of my bed.
Ceres gazed up onto me before she reached out her hand to touch me which I let her. She was definitely cold-warm onto my skin but I like it and I smiled though I'm still irritated.
"It pissed me off!" I was indeed pissed when I said that to her.
Ceres chuckled which made my heart throb like I did some marathon well it was worse than running. The heartbeat sounded more like a sledgehammer. I knew Ceres could hear them since she was a vampire but as she let go of my face, she immediately stood up and stretched her both arms and legs. After that, she turned to face me and lent out her hand to help me stand up from the grey carpet. But what happened next really took me by surprised as she suddenly pinned my back to the wall in the hallway. I know the others were shocked since we're in the middle between my parents and my cousins. I tried to push her away from me since I still could feel the pain from my pain when she pinned me. But the next thing happened was something sting pierced my neck which led to such a sensation that I knew I couldn't resist any longer. My heartbeat was on adrenaline and my blood was rushing in my veins as Ceres drank from me. From that, something in me was building and it made me want it badly like I'm going to get addicted to it but before I could caress her head, she moved away. I could see in her eyes that she wanted for more and I knew I am the same. We're both panting from it and not even realizing that my neck was still warm from my very own blood. She went closer to me then licked the remaining blood on it before she kissed it. I was about to moan from that tingling sensation running inside my body but she chuckled before she moved away again.
"You're mine now, my queen." She chuckled as she teased me, which I can feel the heat forming onto my cheeks. I was indeed red by now from embarrassment because I could hear them laughing to my reaction.
"I'm going to shutter your soul again!" I shouted out of embarrassment which the other stopped from laughing.
"Go ahead and be my guest, my queen but let me remind you something. Apart from drinking from the animals, you were the first human - I mean, werewolf, that I ever bit and drank from. And it won't be the last time that I'll be doing that to you…" She frankly said in front of my family but I knew there was something else behind it.
"...over and over again." She whispered which seriously sent shivers down my spine. Ceres stood there smirking which I can tell that I'm embarrassed once again as I could hear some laughter from my family.
"Ceres dear, are you okay? Your soul was still in the limbo." Mom asked Ceres with such motherly care.
"I'm cool. My soul was always in limbo from lots of things since the day I was born. There were some good but immediately turned to dark when I was still in the clan. As I escaped from it everything went blood which made me rogue but as I came to blend in the human society, it might be fun as I work to live. But some clan from the past found me and forced an arranged marriage which led me here. She can reject me but my hunger for her will always be hers." Ceres said with such honesty and conviction that I think my father trusts her.
"But if she rejected you big time you'll be dead." Dad said with a sorry tone.
"Not literally dead but I will be the vampire that everyone feared about. Good thing your daughter can still reach me. Her wolf Lena has the ability to heal her mate." she said to my father while all of us went down stairs to have dinner because Nate's stomach was rumbling so loud.
"How did you know?" I asked her.
"Hmm…she was just like the wolf of your mom." I replied to her while walking toward the kitchen.
"You can see them?" Yume asked her as she followed behind Ceres which made me glare at her. Nate, Ethan, Mom and Dad just chuckled.
"Yes. Everyone here." she replied smiling widely to her.
"We're not safe with you." Dad teased.
"DAD!" I shouted that made them chuckle apart from me. I was irritated.
"Call the others, we're going to have a celebration." Mom said happily which made me groaned like any grumpy old man.
Celebration was not really my thing. I groaned then I watched Ceres do the cooking with Yume. That thought alone pissed me off.
'Like I thought, you're in love with her.'
I heard some teasing laughter as Lena suddenly spoke behind my head which I just sighed with irritation.
Ceres
From that incident, Luna was right. My soul was still in limbo and I was going to take a risk with my soul mate, Frizabelle and Lena. When I was about to lose it, her scent made my blood overdrive and I wanted her – drink from her – mark her which made me stand still in her room gazing at her frightened face. I know I might hurt them but blood was the only thing blinding me and that's hers. The good part of it, she sensed me. She confessed her reasons from rejecting me but not literally rejecting made me happy. But she doesn't know my heart only beats for her. Each time she's not around me or not seen by my eyes – I'm as good as a walking corpse with no heart and emotionless and I don't want her to know that.
At the kitchen, everyone was laughing and happy and only Luna knew what's on my mind. She can see through me like she saw in me that night she saved me from being dead. I owe her big time that's why she knew me. I let her see 'the me' inside that even my mate didn't know yet. I cooked for them as I watched them eating happily before I stepped out without being noticed. I passed the living area to the music area since I discovered it from Lena. Lena always visited me in my dreams which made our bond really strong before Frizabelle could even understand her feelings toward me. We talked and laughed then she mentioned this. Inside was almost a blank canvas and only a few instruments were in here and unused. I uncovered the white cloth over a grand piano and let my hand move like it has its own life. I played some melody from Yiruma before I could feel them standing by the door. But what changed in my melody when I felt my mate which led me to play a song entitled My Heart Belongs to You by Hayley Westenra.
And hold me, touch me
Let the love come rushing through me
I'm yours with every breath I take
Forever and ever
Hold on to love
Cause deep down
That's what we're made of
Never let go for my heart's sake
Cause my heart belongs to you
"My queen, Belle I hope you can feel my heart always belongs to you." I whispered in my thoughts while I was playing it even though I knew she wasn't the only could hear them – Luna could.