Something sparked in my mind when we slammed into each other, but I didn't have time to focus on that feeling while Aurora's teeth were buried into my flesh. My own mouth was buried into her flesh as well. Her breath stung the open wound. My own teeth dug in deeper. Slowly working their way through her flesh as she tried to rip a chunk from my hide as well.
Yet I didn't feel an impulse to tear the chunk out of her like I normally would. No I wanted to properly take a bite out of her like she was trying to do to me. I could feel her cracking her poor teeth as she tried to take a bite out of me. Yet the deeper her teeth went the deeper I wanted my teeth to go. As soon as that chunk of flesh came loose I swallowed it.
I aimed for another part Aurora could afford to lose, and dug my teeth in again. I could see that the first bite was already healing over. Aurora had clearly been practicing for something like this. She had known we would do this. I'd been avoiding the thought since I didn't like the idea of taking a literal child as my mate.
She knew I would take more of her flesh then she would manage to take of mine. Something was definitely changing internally. That bite of flesh went down my long throat like hot lava. It didn't feel that hot in my mouth, but the further it went down my throat the hotter it felt. I hissed a bit as Aurora forced her teeth further into my flesh.
Seriously if I'd known that taking a mate meant risking our lives I might not have waited so long. Aurora was over halfway through her bite now, but I was swallowing my second bite. She let out a pained cry through her clenched teeth as I went in for another bite. It wasn't that I wanted to cannibalize her. I literally couldn't stop.
Now that we'd initiated this ritual I literally couldn't stop. My mind started to panic as my body continued to literally eat the female I wanted to fuck. I could see that the first would had healed most of the way, and the second had already started healing as I went in for another bite of hot flesh. My insides felt like they were on fire. Aurora finally managed to rip a chunk out of me.
She tilted her head back, and went at me again with vigor. I didn't like any of this. I wanted to hide from this part of myself. This violent predatory side of myself that drove me to do this wasn't something I wanted to see. Yet I couldn't escape to the further reaches of my mind.
I was forced to see myself doing all this damage to Aurora, and I literally couldn't stop. This was worse then all the pain I'd been through. This was pure mental torcher, and I couldn't escape it. The longer it went on the worse I felt, and the fact that I was hurting Aurora wasn't even the worst part. The worst part was that the entire time I was mutilating her I was unbelievably horny.
I was mortified. Every fiber of my body wanted to delete this memory before it could even fully form, but at the same time I felt intense guilt at the thought of deleting the struggle Aurora was going through right now. Although I could tell that she was just as turned on as I was at the moment. Ethan wandered back by at some point to see what was going on only to be blocked by Letty as Letty surrounded the two of us in a dome of thick darkness so no one else could interrupt. I couldn't use mana to strengthen my body, and I was thanking every imaginary god I could think of because if I could use my mana right now I totally would have.
What's worse is I wouldn't be able to stop either. Aurora was using a great deal of her own mana to take chunks out of me. This whole horrifying process lasted another four hours as the heat of our bodies skyrocketed to the point that the blood we were shedding was being evaporated. The urge to rip pieces out of Aurora suddenly went away along with the arousal as the mate bond settled into place. This connection was purely a soul connection.
We couldn't read each others minds like I could with my bonded, but I knew it would destroy me if she died. I might even die from it. Aurora was in bad shape when we finally separated, but something was happening to her. Her whole body shuddered as she seemed to go through some sort of evolution. She sprouted a crown of horns that was similar to my own as her wounds closed at an accelerated rate.
All of her horns had red tips. Showing that she didn't have as many elements as I did. That carnal impulse disappeared the moment out mate bond thrummed to life. I felt an intense guilt at how badly I'd hurt her to create this bond. Letty stepped into the barrier of darkness.
If I'd thought I'd been possessive of my bonded before but this was different. Blind rage flew through my body as I rushed to kill the man. Letty frowned at me as he blocked the blind strike I aimed his direction. I'd attacked him without hesitation. I'd never done that before.
"Curb the rage," Letty knocked me aside as if I weighed nothing, "You're not exactly done with this little ritual yet, but you will have a short respite, and I'd like to speak with you while your mind is clear."
I backed away when my mind finally managed to catch up to what he was saying. This little nightmare of mine wasn't over yet.