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Chapter 40 - |S2| Chapter [12] Was I Nothing

~Nicole's POV~

I've been in the hospital for a day or two now- it's been excruciating to move around again, and sometimes my wounds open up again, but Justin always helps me walk and keeps me company day and night.  I know he has been missing work just to help me out, and it makes me feel bad.  He refuses to admit it, and in the end, I can't really fight him to tell me- I'm too weak to do that.

One thought does occur to me- when I woke up from bleeding all night... He was crazy.

/A few days ago after Nicole woke up/

"Mh..." my eyes slowly titled open- first blurry, but after a while, I saw a light above me.  My body jerked to get up, and all I first felt was a strike of pain everywhere.  I had bandages almost everywhere, my arms, neck, legs-

I sat up in pain, seeing a figure who I quickly recognized as Justin.  He noticed me and held tired eyes, no smile- he looked filled with the emptiness of emotions.

He got up and walked over to me, "J...?" I asked as he punched me.  "Why- Why would you do that!" he yelled at me as doctors and nurses came in, grabbing him.

He started to cry as they tried to drag him out- "No- leave him here. He's just a bit upset." I said, and the staff hesitated but let him stay, holding him back.

"WHY THE F*CK WOULD YOU EVEN TRY!" he screamed, getting out of the grips of the workers.  He grabbed my shoulders- shaking me in anger and sadness.  "WHY WOULD YOU THINK ABOUT YOURSELF- WHAT ABOUT ME! I WOULD DIE FOR YOU- WHY WOULD YOU KILL YOURSELF!" he cried.

"Because what do I have to live for?" I felt myself tear up as he let me go- sighing.  "Do I mean nothing to you..." he sighed, leaving. 

I could have said so many things to make him stay or understand, but- nothing compared to what he said.

/Now/

J sat on the couches with Sue, pretending to be asleep. Is it strange that I feel bad- he gets nightmares when he sleeps, so he just pretends. He fools Sue- but his constant trips are a sign of him losing consciousness of his body.

I feel sorry- and wished that he hadn't saved me even more now...