.You know if Stella was hear she would have helped me with all of this and more, honestly I do miss her so much and even if I don't know her I fell like a part of me do, and that part has spent all of my life with her. Its so sad that everything I do or try to do to get close to her ends up failing, it ends up being equal to nothing and I am so sick and tired of that, you know honestly I would actually love it if everything went back to the way it was before I had this terrible accident and lost my memory I wish I was the same girl in this pictures, I look so much different so brave and wonderful right now I am scared of even myself, all myself confidence has gone and this is so disheartening and so sad for me I just wish this was not the case hear but it is and I have to deal with it I guess.
I started remembering The first day back in the hospital it felt like yesterday but I could still fell every single thing and pain again and again.
