As time went by, i was no longer happy with myself. Nothing seems appealing, I eat because I have to not because I enjoyed it. I became more withdrawn than ever because of Ade. I was finding it hard to talk to him, he has changed. He no longer calls me and if he does, he was always asking for one thing or the other. I was still keeping myself together because I didn't want to break the promise I made to him. My roommates saw my mood and they were asking me but I didn't want to respond because I was the youngest in the room and the only one that has a boyfriend. It was hard talking about some stuffs with them tho we were close to some extent. I once told tochi and she said if anyone was looking for a relationship advisor, they should consult me. Although I knew it was a joke but it hits me hard. I told her about my problems with my boyfriend in private and I became a laughing stock in the room. It was annoying but what can I do? I was their pushover because I wanted to satisfy everyone. Haleemat use to come to my room but I still don't feel comfortable with her so I don't want to burden anyone with my personal problem. I became detached from everyone and I'd rather keep to myself in the room than go for any classes.
Sometimes, Ade and I won't talk for four to five days and he won't bother to call or chat with me but he uploaded other girls on his status(on WhatsApp). I didn't want to talk to him either and I kept to myself tho it hurts to not talk or chat with him. After the fifth day, I summoned up my courage and dropped my pride, I called him and he picked up. We talked about random things and I still couldn't confront him about his recent behavior. Call me timid, I guess I was because I didn't want "us" to end and I was just foolishly protecting what was not meant to be. I wished I talked to him about all that has been happening but I didn't and that alone widened the gap between us till we deteriorated to the point of not talking to each other for weeks. I did not know what we were again and he never bothered about me. "What happened to us?"