His breath is like a heat wave down my neck and spine. I can hardly feel my feet anymore, I could collapse into his arms. He slowly brings his arm around my side running his fingers towards my belly button. My head falls back into his shoulder. He brings his other hand up towards my neck, grabbing tightly without causing pain. He squeezes tighter as his other hand slowly runs down my stomach, feeling him going further down towards my hips and thighs. His fingers rubbing against my pantyline. And in that very moment I realized, what are we doing? I've never done this before and I can not let it happen this early on. Nikolai just got back home, what would he think of me being this easy? I don't want to be someone he just messes with and drops. I want it to be perfect.