Chapter 35
Akira's POV
"I don't want us to end this way. If you really insist to help me. Then I will accept it."
She is always like this since we are children. She shows no fear outside but is so easy to sway inside. How will you let go of me? You can't still hide it in that face.
I smiled lightly, looking at her.
"My apology Yuna. I just realize something. I'm glad you still trust me."
"Akira I don't understand why you have to act like this. You know no matter what way we do this you will end up hurting me and I will be hurting her...I don't want that to happen."
She looks right into my eyes sadly. How she wants me to answer that? We can't continue this way...
My mind is a mess. I care for her so I don't want to hurt her more but I can't give up Lure. Knowing Yuna is still in love with me means I still have a chance with Lure but I feel now that I might lose this chance as well.
"You probably did not realize this Yuna, but it's hard for the two of us to be both happy in this life. We will both end up hurting each other either way. Please forgive me for hurting you and for acting like this but this is the only way I know. I love that person and I cannot think of any other way to be with her. I know this is so selfish but I need to ask you something..."
A moment later...
Yuna and I are silently walking towards the gate. I know it was too much but I don't have any other choice.
I pause walking. What the hell is this now? I was shocked looking at Lure embracing a mascot. She hates getting close to anyone and most of all being touched by anyone so why she is embracing that mascot with that look on her face?
"Hey! who are you?" I shouted without thinking.
Lure looks very shocked when she turns her head in our direction. She pushes away the mascot. The mascot runs away and I feel bad about it so I chase that mascot.
Yuna's POV
It's only Lure and I left standing in front of the gate.
I can't believe she just saw me with Akira. I felt uneasy with this situation.
She is still in shock. What is on her mind?
"Yuna are you mad at me?" She said with a sad tone and avoiding my eyes.
"Eh, why would I?"
Isn't it you, if there is a person should be mad now.
"I thought that person is you." She speaks sincerely looking into my eyes. "I can never embrace anyone aside from you."
Is that what bothers her. I felt relieved. Does she think I'm jealous because of that? I put my right hand on her head and gently pet her. As I look at her beautiful face I still can't believe that this person is so in love with me.
"I also notice you are with that person." She said pouting and it kept me silent.
She put her hands in my face touching my cheeks.
I knew it, I hurt her. She did not speak it but I can tell it looking at her face. I know and understand this look. This is the look I always make when I was with Akira. I can only hide how I feel. I know Akira does not love me fully since then. I'm afraid that when I speak out about how I feel, he might say as well the words I'm afraid to hear and I might lose him.
Please don't make that look.
"Yuna, you said before, you will not know how I feel unless I tell them to you."
I was surprised by those words. She turns around and takes a few steps forward.
"I heard you need help with your studies. I hate to think this but did you come to him to help you, not me? I really like you and I want you to look only at me. "
Is she angry now? I don't know what to say. Actually, in the end, I refuse to study with Akira but I'm worried about what he asked from me earlier...
"Yuna, I will not give up."
Her car arrives and she left without looking back.
Eh, that's it. What should I do now?
Mikan's POV
"You trouble maker. I can't believe you..." I said suppressing my anger and tightening my fist.
Ahhh this person is making me mad. She almost gets caught there. Thank goodness I got here on time and help her hide from Akira. We are currently hiding in a narrow street.
"I'm sorry Mikan but I can't stand it anymore. I can't let myself keep hurting her."
"So you come up with this stupid idea. What if you get caught there. How are you going to explain yourself to them?"
She took off the head of the mascot and her long brown hair falls on her back. She is sweating a bit but still, she looks so pretty and cute wearing that.
I did not notice but I space out and started blushing just by looking at her now.
"Mikan I'm so sorry. I know I already caused so much trouble to you."
"Ehem! Good that you understand." I keep losing my mind being with her.
"I don't know why I came back here but I can't let things as it is."
"What are you going to do Yuna?"