Those who escape one prison are destined to run into another. Whether that is true, I do not know, but you act as promising evidence. Understand that you placed yourself in both.
I'll always be by your side but with feel that you push me further into the background. You must know that you can shout as much as you wish over a whisper, but you'll tire eventually. You're tired now. It must be hard caring for people without the ability to do so. Care for yourself. Protect yourself. Love yourself. You can't care for them all. You can't protect them all. You can't love them all. Give up. It doesn't hurt.
Do you know what does hurt? Guilt. Guilt comes from expectations. You failed them but you set them. I'd say give them up. You have before so what makes this any different. It's human nature. It's human nature to take their fill and leave nothing for others. Unless, that is, sharing helps your fill grow.
The world is one large ball of food. Eat your fill. The plants, the meat, the starch, the sugar, all of it is yours for the taking. Do you turn down food placed in front of you? No. You reject the people. You reject their kindness. Kindness is rejected because it's weak. Only the weak use kindness to get what they want. Kindness is passive. Taking is active. Eat your fill. You have goals. You have dreams. Others have goals. Others have dreams. Their goals and dreams are not your success. Confront them. Fight them. Kill them. Do anything for your goals and dreams. Eat your fill. The world respects those that eat the most. Eating is power. Eating cements your mark on the world. Eating is control. There is only so much to take, so take it all. Eat your fill. Will you share it thin? With who? Will they share it with you? Eat your fill. Eat your fill, not theirs. Eat your fill by the orders of your own tongue. Eat till your full, and once your full, eat their fill too.