Kenneth's eyes softened worriedly leaving the space for his mouth to answer :
_ First , you are to cry , crying is beneficial for your soul, and you are in pain Love ... it's the only way for you to let your soul breath ... Second, At some point he did want Your baby for all that he could have , but it soon faded away as the thought of a stronger creature than him popped to his mind .
He was a lunatic , with trust essues , never trusted a soul and always expected the worst from his surroundings, he thought that he rather betray than be betrayed ....He stopped all the loops and closed all ways for such creature to come to life ....He was convinced a child like that shouldn't come to life and take spacious powers , better than him.
I looked at him my eyes red , holding back the tears , and with my shaky pathetic voice I answered the question for myself:
_ So , ... He . Killed. Him .
Kenneth nodded holding back his cries and pain for me as well , when a tear fell down his cheek .
_ Yes ....He. killed. His . Child .....Your Child .
He took me in a sudden tight hug inside his warm arms safely, a hand caressing my head , and the other patting my back .
I muttered from inside his shoulder not sure if he could hear me at all :
_ How did I die ? I could only see blank after he kissed me .
_ As you were Minath and living the moment I'm sure you could feel how Audra was absorbing your powers and killing your child almost causing your death as well ...in which he finally will .
I nodded:
_ And how did you find me ? as i was married to another man how could you still come after me ?
He smirked and continued:
_ As your real flame mate I could feel your soul weakening, so I rushed to find you , and as i got a step closer of showing you Audra's true colors , Audra didn't leave me space to , as he killed you with one more last kiss draining you of all power left in your soul and body and taking life away from you .
I felt tears in my eyes again and my throat burns, as Kenneth felt it too ...somehow we were both burning for what happened, for our losses , but we still held each other tight like there was no tomorrow to be ruined.
we both cried . A lot . But that memory showed me a lot then I could ever have imagined . I could finally let myself drown in the safety Kenneth always brought around me , and to allow myself be part of him and let him in .