I'm disappointed in myself. I feel bad because I am to lazy, don't question it. I originally thought that I might just make a chapter asking if I should drop this novel and if even one person said yes I'd keep on going on writing on this novel, but then I realized this could probably help me destress because my life is kinda stressful trying to keep calm and not rage or go crazy.
I also realized that this could also help me start being more committed to doing what I like. I'm committed to what I need to do and to a lot of things that I dont really need to pay attention to. I just realized yesterday though that I am never committed to what I'm actually interested in.
partial story time. when I was younger I loved origami, learned as much as I can from my school library. At that point I memorised everything on origami the school had to offer, at that point I got bored because it was to easy and also messy and the effort I put in was a waste and I felt like it wasn't doing anything and it was a waste. I really like origami. this happened several times with different things. Funny thing i never bothered to care for a long time and now I'm starting to because of the quarantine and I have to much time on my hands and all I want to do is read becaude its easy, it doesn't bother anyone, and its what I like.
I know its off topic but that is what brought me to the point of wanting to continue this novel, I'll post another chapter within the next 24 hours and get back to a daily schedule and post whenever I can.