Chapter 30
Natsumi replies to him(Light) like this :"I understand that it will take a lot of time. Since she didn't said or wished for which amount of people or time she wanted to do. And I have accepted death at that time, at the void."
Light replies to her like this :"It's seems you understand why I let you die even if it is painful. Cause to complete your wish and your past self's last wish you need infinite amount of time and you had only five minutes left before you had died....."
He was still replying to her but she knew what he was about to say now even though he was still talking. Natsumi interrupt him while he still replying to her like this :"So you choose to fulfill the first wish you took from the very first human and to fulfill my wish cause I already choose death since there was no other choice at that time."
Light didn't though she would understand what he was about to say so he surprised by her interruption. Light replies to her like this :"I have never thought you would understand that." After he continues her reply to her by asking like this :"So have you forgave me for fulfilling his last wish and still fulfilling it even after his death?"
Natsumi replies to him(Light) like this :"I still can't forgive you for that. I still hat you because of that. For the amount of people who lost there loved one.... For the people that felt the pain of dying.... For the people that felt the pain of losing there relatives,,, father,,, mother,,,, wife,,, husband and the people that they loved dearly just because of someone's selfish wish." She remembers the feeling of sorrow, pain and sadness she felt when she died and realize of there sorrow, pain and sadness they felt after she died. She becomes sad and just by looking at her anybody could understand that she is sad now.
Light replies to her like this :"I guess so. After all its just someone's selfish wish that I fulfilled for no reason." He thought to himself [You can hate me for now. But one day you will stop hating me. Even if there is a chance that it will never come. But I hope you forgive me someday and understand me.]
Ban gets worried seeing her sad face. He replies to her like this because he was worried about her :"Are you ok? I know it sad and painful to remembering it. But you have to move forward even if trying to forget there memory."
Natsumi understand that he is trying to help her for to forget or lessen her sadness. She feels grateful to him because of it. She replies to him(Ban) like this :"Thanks. There is no choice but try to move forward cause we human's her only good with moving forward."
Ban was happy and relieved that she is not full of sadness like she was before after hearing that and he say this to her cause he was happy that she tries to move forward even after she felt the pain of dying and feeling there pain after they lost her :"Furakawa-San"
Natsumi continues her to him(Ban) :"But don't get me wrong. I am not trying to forget them. I will move forward with remembering there memory."
Out of nowhere in just a second Light uses his instant teleporting ability to go behind Natsumi without Natsumi even realizing it. He pays her head. He then replies to her with a smile like this :"That's the girl I am proud of. That's how you you should be if you aren't like this I would have already throw you in to the hell." He then laugh and laugh.
Ban thoughts to himself seeing and hearing that [That's not a funny thing. You just said that you will throw her in to the hell.]
Natsumi is still didn't forgive him and she still hates him. She got angry for patting her head. Since she is already a grown up and she doesn't like to get patted on the head. She replies to him(Light) like this:"You should already know that I still hate you."
Light asks her about that like this :"So what?" As if talking and patting someone head who hates you is a normal thing.
Natsumi get more angry how chill, relaxing and air head he is. How normal he is acting towards her. Natsumi moves a bit to the left and to his(Light) left and asks him(Light) with angry voice like this :"Why are you talking to someone who hates you as if it is something?"
Light was surprised by her questions. He looks at her and replies to her like this :"I am... Ahem. I won't reply to that question."
Natsumi didn't get angry but her anger calms down. She replies to him (Light) like this :"That's how you should react. That's how you should talk to a person who hates you"
Ban well knew why he(Light) didn't behave roughly or badly but instead he patted her head. Ban tells the reason behind it by replies to her like this :"Furakawa-San!" By saying that he gained the attention of her and he continues to reply to her like this :"He is not selfish or bad person as you thought. Even I understand the part that he is really annoying. But you aren't the only people who hates him. Many people that lived in harsh condition or in harsh financial condition or even the people that lived in slums and being poor curses him for doing that. Even many people that are leading a great life comes upon a single small painful memory curse him. Wishes for him to die. That's not only the people of your world but every other world have at least someone who hates God. Since he is the God it just mean they hate him. Sometimes because of his personality I hates him. So many people hates him not only you. If he really was a selfish God he wouldn't care about there life and kill them all and throw them to the depths of the hell."
Light become sad and sat on a chair after hearing that and downcast his eyes to the table. He then replies to him like this :"You just hurt my feeling. The part that you said I have a annoying personality. Even I didn't know that so many people hates me. I want to die... More people hates me. The amount people that hates me is bigger than the amount of people that hates Hitler. I really want to die." He becomes gloomy. Black shadows almost looking like a cloud over his entire head.
Ban looks at him and feels a bit guilty because of saying that about him. He tries to make his sadness lessen by replying to him like this :"I am sorry. Just because you are more hated than Hitler doesn't mean that you have to die. It also mean that you are more popular than him. After all you are the greatest being and the supreme being, God." After he said that he also thought to himself [Even though you are really annoying sometimes]
Light read that thought. After reading that thought of him(Ban Light gets more sadder and the black cloud over his head gets more darker, deeper and bigger. He replies to him (Ban) like this :"I know what you are thinking, Ban. You are just trying to show that you are sympathizing with me but actually not. I never thought even you would betray me." Tears comes out from both of his eyes. Also even his nose become sniffy. He then continues his reply to him like this :"You don't have to tell lies to show respect for me. After all I already know that you just hate me like the many other people that hates me. I should just die."
Ban tries to lessen his sadness but rather made it worse. After seeing that he thought himself helplessly[I guess, I can't stop him trying to kill himself. I am really sorry for hating you.] He then closes his eyes and opens his eyes again and make a reaction out of his face as if he doesn't care about Light anymore. He continues his thought like this [Though you are really annoying sometimes.]
Light gets angry after reading his mind thinking that he(Light) is really annoying. He stands up and replies to him with angry voice and face like this :Oi!!! First you try to lessen my sadness then you are thinking that I am really annoying." He continues his reply to him (Ban) by threatening him(Ban) like this :"Do you want me to throw in hell???"
Natsumi laughed after seeing this. Both of them didn't ask or replies to her but remains silent listening to her laughing. She stops laughing and replies to him(Ban) like this :"You was right Ban. He realty isn't as selfish and ruthless as he first act like. He is more of a of a comedian background character from a comedy anime."