The wind was so cold, the cloud is so starry, the road is so silent. There was nothing. Just emptiness, loneliness, hollowness. It's already 1 I've been here for almost hours. Well, it is my perfect time to be alone, to be at ease...to be at peace. Well, at least that's the only thing that makes me calm.
"엄마(Eomma), do savior exist?"
"네(Ne), 아들 (adeul)they do exist "
"Then can they save us?"
"Of course they will save us. Not now but maybe someday..."
Yeah, frankly speaking, they don't exist. It's hard to say but my mom is such a liar. They don't do, when she died it all started. Well, maybe it all started when I was born. I don't know but we're living in a shithole. We were from Korea at that time I never felt so happy because we are having a very unfortunate life. No one even dared to help us.
When I was little I used to ask mom if a savior does exist. She keeps telling me yes they do, and they will come for us soon. But until she died, no one even came? Now in my 18 years of living, I feel so miserable. I have no home, I have no one, I have no family, I am alone, I am not an orphan or a beggar. I have a name, but I consider myself a no one...a stranger...
I was readying the cutter to slit my throat. And yes, I was planning to end my life. It's all pointless anyway. There's no reason for me to live at all. I'm just nothing and no one.
"You ok miss?"
Wait what?
"Hey...uh, what are you doing right here? It's pretty dangerous. Go home now."
"Home" I mumbled
She felt a presence behind her back and based on the voice...it's a guy.
She looked up to him. 'Is he running away from home?'She thought about it since he's carrying a big bag. ' very nice from a runaway guy at this time'
"I'm sorry to disappoint you but I don't have any home."
The guy just looked at her confusingly. ' Well people look at me like that '
"Well I guess everybody has a home miss"
"You thought the wrong dude"
I slowly stood up and began walking.
"Well, I guess I have to start finding that home. Bye mister"
She slowly walked away leaving the guy.
"Do you want me to accompany you?"
She just waved goodbye to him.
'At last, my Savior just arrived'
******
They just parted ways together without even asking each other's names.
North just thought why didn't he ask her name? At least he could pay back her treat. Maybe next time when he could meet her again. But when?
But something is bothering him. The girl's eyes....it's so sorrowful, he can see the pain in her eyes. But at the same time, he can see happiness.
'Now you're reading people's emotion now North?'
"When will I see her again huh?"
{Phone buzzez}
(Count Calling...)
"Yeah?"
"Oh heya, kid, how was your vacation? It's almost 1 month now...or maybe 1 month already...well uhh yeah whatever"
And yes, the count is someone you don't want to talk to since he blabbers nonsense
"Well I took summer classes but I quit"
"Man, you're too boring...summer class my ass..you should go enjoy! But anyways why did you quit? Because they teach the same thing right?"
"Yeah, something like that...."
"Because they are hella dumb North. Why do you want summer classes anyways? Your too smart now, you don't need those"
"There is some sort of things I want to know...I just want some enlightenment"
"Enlightenment? What kind of fuckin enlightenment North?"
"You always say I'm innocent whenever I ask some sort of things and you always say I wouldn't understand because it's an adult thing."
"Awww...I see it now...curiosity already kills ya? Well kid you will find it out soon. You can't fuckin learn it from school. Learn it from around you North. Discover! That is why I'm giving you a vacation. Because I want you to discover. You motherfucker, don't waste my shit..your so lame and simple-minded. I didn't let you study to have that kind of mindset. Fuck it! Discover!"
Then the call ends
Then what the fuck is that? What would I do? I don't know about a thing in discovering?