It is as if I can't reign myself in any longer. I imagine stroking his neck, unable to look away from his face as he stares ahead. This lack of control throws me off guard, and it seems to only happen when I am around him.
This may be something I just need to get out of my system. Regardless of how I got this strange desire, maybe some indulgence would satisfy me quickly and end this desire once and for all.
That's it. He affects me just because I'm attracted to him. There isn't any real feeling involved, besides this burning need I'm experiencing.
I loosen up, leaning my head against his chest, nuzzled against his body. I'm going to ride this one out, and only afterwards will I take my prescribed dose before leaving them. And this time, I am never coming back.
I can't help but feel as if I am lying to myself, but soon become lost in the thoughts of the future.
"Berenice," Caleb's low whisper dances to my ears.
