That is also the reason why I'm so scared to tell him how I really feel. I know I'm such a coward, but I am just protecting myself. I don't want to love him and then loose myself in the process. I know how to spare for myself.
I was raised that way. Even though no one will be there to remind me, I know I will always put and love myself first. Sounds selfish, yes, but how are you capable to love others when from the beginning, you don't even love yourself, right?
And then now, he had my hopes too up high from his actions, and his words. I hoped too much that he will be the one asking me for prom. It was my choice to hope. It didn't helped that he started ignoring for weeks now.
I am wearing a cream colored gown, ending just around my knees. The cloth used for my spaghetti strapped, V-line cut top was satin. The bottom, is in a big A-line and is layered with different cloths, making it thick. Beautiful and elegant sequins are added to the gown too.
