I had accidentally revealed a shameful part of me to Len and his reaction had been exactly as I had anticipated. He was kind and understanding, even when it seemed I was crying over nothing.
My actions were nothing more than that of a beast had I gone any further like I had in the past. I could never bring myself to forgive myself were I to fall to raping my own lover.
Len is my treasure, I've told myself countless times. Over and over again. Repeating it like a mantra to trick myself. However, how can I boldly proclaim it when I knew what was happening between him and my brother.
I tried to comfort myself, claiming that it had been a momentary fling and that perhaps they had stopped seeing each other as anything more than co-workers. However despite reassuring myself countless times, I could never shake the feeling that I was lying to myself.
